tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2556203259914094962024-02-08T15:51:28.359+10:00Linda Munster - Celebrating Beyond Beginnings as I Journey Towards LoveOne woman's journey of self discovery - her struggles and joys as she learns to step into her passions and to trust God and the power of God's Divine Love and Truth in her life.Lindahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06239949170313951993noreply@blogger.comBlogger64125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-255620325991409496.post-85908769968920728392016-01-27T18:39:00.000+10:002016-01-27T18:39:01.838+10:00Reflections Upon The Year That Has Been – 2015<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0cm;">
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<span style="font-size: 12.0pt;">As the New Year marches on filled with challenges and
surprises it is probably a good time to reflect upon the year that was – 2015. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12.0pt;">As I sit in quiet contemplation I find myself not
wanting to see so many truths that God has been gently guiding me to open my
soul to for such a long time. And I
can’t help but wonder what it would be like to have such patience, such
compassion, such understanding and such love, as God has, for everything and
everyone despite our flaws and weaknesses.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12.0pt;">How different would my life have been if truth and
real love had been the governing factors throughout my life and not just in the
past six years? Sure, I have attempted to live my life from a place of
acceptance, tolerance and love – at least since I was old enough to make
conscious and meaningful choices for myself.
But in all this time the real driving force has been a desire to be
loved; a desire to be understood; a desire to be accepted. And in coming from this place of addiction I
have automatically been out of harmony with love. It has taken some very hard lessons to begin
to crack open the tough exterior shell around my soul. And looking back now I am grateful for those
hard lessons. But there is still so much
work to be done.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12.0pt;">Upon reflection I can see now how much of my life and
the choices I have made have been driven by fear of rejection. Until I am able to really get to the heart of
the cause of these addictions it will be very difficult for me to feel truly
accepted, truly loved and truly valued.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12.0pt;">What would life be like if we learnt to live from a
place of acceptance and tolerance; acceptance of ourselves as we truly are in
this moment, and tolerance for our faults, hurts and injuries? <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12.0pt;">What would life be like if we truly learnt to love as
God loves – unconditionally and totally, with respect for our free will and
compassion for the injuries that drive our unloving choices?<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12.0pt;">What does real love actually mean? What would real
love actually do?<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12.0pt;">The clue is in the above statements about how God
loves – unconditionally, totally, with respect for the free will of every
person regardless of their injures, and tolerance for their/our unloving
choices whilst having compassion for the hurt child locked deep within and wanting
to find his/her voice. If we look around
at our natural environment in its pristine state we can see little clues
everywhere.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12.0pt;">God does not give us everything we want. God sees beyond the here and now. He sees deep into our souls to the very core
of our being and He understands what drives our thoughts and actions – those in
harmony with love and truth and those driven by fear. He knows WHY we say or do the things we do
and He has total compassion for our brokenness. He also knows what would happen
if He gave in to our demands and unloving addictive behaviour.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12.0pt;">Since the beginning of time God has been observing the
rise and fall of the human soul.
Watching our journey with compassion and understanding as we grapple
with being mind-dominance and compete for power and control, trying to avoid
our deeply buried hurt and pain, and setting up a chain reaction which
continues to reverberate down the ancestral lines. He has consistently sent us
many teachers and messengers who have had more courage and more understanding
of Love than most to show us the way over this time – the great prophets,
Jesus, Mohamad, Budda, Ghandi, Mandella, Mother Theresa and many others have
been shining a guiding light upon earth for many millennia. Sometimes we
recognize these great teachers and sometimes we don’t.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12.0pt;">The problem of course is that Love and Truth will
always confront error and addiction and this results in pain. We have a tendency to run away from
pain. We have in-built pain receptors in
our body which act as beacons sending warning signals and when these are
triggered we mostly learn to avoid the painful stimuli – like sharp knives, hot
saucepans, fire and a host of other painful stimuli. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12.0pt;">But what do we do with the painful emotional stimuli,
the ones which tell us what is going on in the soul? <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12.0pt;">Mostly we ignore them.
We want to avoid feeling our sadness, our despair, our hopelessness, our
fear, our grief and especially (for me anyway) our rage. We have been so conditioned to believe that
in order to be a ‘good’ person we must sacrifice ourselves in order to please
others and keep the peace.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12.0pt;">But what about me? Surely in God’s eyes I am just as
important as anyone else? <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12.0pt;">Why then has this false concept of self-sacrifice
taken hold and spread throughout humanity like an uncontrollable wildfire? <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12.0pt;">The only logical answer can be that in response to
sacrificing ourselves in order to gain ‘love’ and ‘approval’ we perpetuate the
error by unconsciously demanding that others meet our addictions to help us
avoid our fears and make us feel better about ourselves.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12.0pt;">As children we rely on adults for our survival and it
is easy to understand why we quickly learn to sacrifice ourselves in order to
feel safe, protected and loved. Some
children never feel safe, protected and loved.
And so, without even thinking, as adults we naturally begin to demand
from others that which was taken from us as children. We become selfish without even realizing
it. Most of us wander through life in
this half-dream state. Gradually shutting down to our hurt and pain while at
the same time ramping up our demands that others help us avoid the hurt and
pain within. We are seeing more and more
of this in society with increasing incidences of dementia, Alzheimer’s, suicide
and mental illness. What we do not yet
seem to realize is that it is the soul which drives our lives – not the
mind. The soul – not the mind, is the
powerhouse of the real me. When I honour
my soul, the sensory apparatus which houses my passions, desires, longings, emotions,
memories, humility, love, intentions, personality, free will, instinct, energy,
and more, I am honouring my real self – my half of the soul.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12.0pt;">In order to grow in love I must first grow a desire
for truth. Facing truth exposes the errors in my soul – the hurt, grief, fear,
shame, anger, rage and so on which must be felt and released in order for Love
to flow in.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12.0pt;">From a very young age we are taught to ‘behave’
ourselves, to not feel what is often perceived as negative emotions – hurt,
fear, sadness and so on. Often we have been punished (emotionally through
ridicule, condemnation, judgement and / or physically through violent
‘correction’) for expressing our real selves.
Boys have too often been bullied into being strong and ‘manly’ as they
helplessly learn to be tough, hard and ‘unemotional’. Girls have too often been
coaxed into being subservient, passive and compliant. And woe betide anyone who
dares to try to break free of these moulds and unloving expectations! And thank
God that there have been people throughout history who have had the courage to
show us a different way forward. People
like Jesus, Ghandi, Mandela, Mallala, Patch Adams, Steven Jobs, the
Suffragettes and many, many more. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12.0pt;">In every community, in every corner of the world there
are people with the courage to question society’s expectations and push the
boundaries of the ‘accepted’. You probably know many in your own local
community. We need more of them.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12.0pt;">How different would our world be if from birth
children learn that they are God’s child, created perfect in every natural way,
and that the soul is the real you? <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12.0pt;">What if in school we are taught that it is not only
OK, but it is encouraged to express the real you; and the means is provided for
the safe and loving expression of all emotions – especially emotions of anger,
rage, fear and grief. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12.0pt;">What sort of society would we live in if children were
taught from a very young age that it is not only OK, but it is encouraged, to
feel and release their fear and unloving emotions in a loving way which does
not harm any other living thing; and that when they do they will feel lighter, happier,
more self-confident and loving. They will then soon see that love and laughter
are infectious. But in order for children to learn this we need adults to show
them the way.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12.0pt;">Over the past six years I have slowly been opening my
soul to Love and Truth. This past year,
2015, has been the most confronting year yet as I begin to challenge addictions
– physically, emotionally and in relationships.
It has been hard. I often feel
like a fish swimming against the current, but unlike the salmon, I have not yet
learnt to jump waterfalls in order to get to the calm safe pool beyond. Well, maybe baby waterfalls or rapids which
lead to shallow rocky pools. As I slowly
gain the courage to challenge addictions and honour my soul above all others I
am being shown little cracks in the prison that I have constructed for myself
and more light and love begin to trickle in.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12.0pt;">My challenge for this year, 2016, is to confront fear
and let go of judgement – especially judgement of myself. If I can face the
truth about WHY I judge myself and anger so harshly I have a hope of making
some progress towards Love.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12.0pt;">Judgement of anger is a HUGE emotion for me and I
don’t understand it. I have HUGE amounts of resistance to feeling the rage that
remains deeply buried within my soul and this rage is keeping me fat and in
constant pain. This has to change. It is
time. It is time to let go of false beliefs and finally learn to step into God-reliance
and trust that God knows exactly what I need to learn. When I finally learn to
see the blocks that I have to trusting that God knows and understands the pain
in my soul, and that She wants to nurse me through this pain then, and only
then, will I be able to step into God-reliance and move through the painful
emotions and errors in my soul. And when
I do learn this, true and permanent healing will begin. All I have to do is to soften to the pain
(without judgement), open to humility and Trust that God loves me and wants to
help me through this pain. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12.0pt;">As I learn to pay attention to what the Law of
Attraction is telling me, both positive and negative, I will learn to read
God’s signs and let go of any pre-conceived notions I may have about what is right
and what is loving.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12.0pt;">My prayer for 2016 is that I may grow in humility so
that I might open my heart and soul more fully to God’s Truth and God’s
Love. This is my prayer not only for me
but for each and every one of my brothers and sisters, both here on earth and
in the spirit world. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12.0pt;">I wish you an enlightening and rewarding year ahead.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
Lindahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06239949170313951993noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-255620325991409496.post-12211959883594841082015-12-28T16:41:00.000+10:002015-12-28T16:41:47.175+10:00An interview with Jim Morrison by Lizzie JamesThe end of 2015 is fast approaching and it brings with it an opportunity to reflect upon the year that was and set new direction and purpose for the year ahead.<br />
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As I was trolling through files today I came across this interview with Jim Morrison which is a perfect reflection of how I am now choosing to live my life by feeling my way through each day. Some days I am successful, some days I allow the pressures of the fears of others and my own fears to overcome me and I dismiss opportunities to feel my true self. this is something that I am working on every day. Every day I pray for the humility to be my real self - the me that God created. In order to find this pristine self I must first wade through all the crap that has been dumped upon me as a child and added to by myself as an adult. It is a slow and painful process but one which I believe is absolutely necessary if I am ever to reveal the real me that God created.<br />
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My prayer for 2016 is that I will have the courage to open more fully to humility and allow myself to feel more fully the broken and hidden parts of myself.<br />
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I hope you too can resonate with these very wise words from Jim Morrison.<br />
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<b>Lizzie James</b>: I
think fans of The Doors see you as a saviour, the leader who'll set them all
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<b>Jim Morrison</b>:
It's absurd. How can I set free anyone who doesn't have the guts to stand up
alone and declare his own freedom? I think it's a lie--people claim they want
to be free--everybody insists that freedom is what they want the most, the most
sacred and precious thing a man can possess. But that's bullshit! People are
terrified to be set free-they hold on to their chains. They fight anyone who
tries to break those chains. It's their security....How can they expect me or
anyone to set them free if they don't really want to be free?<o:p></o:p></div>
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<b>Jim</b>: I think
people resist freedom because they're afraid of the unknown. But it's ironic
... That unknown was once very well known. It's where our souls belong ... The
only solution is to confront them -- confront yourself -- with the greatest
fear imaginable. Expose yourself to yourself to your deepest fear. After that,
fear has no power, and fear of freedom shrinks and vanishes. You are free.<o:p></o:p></div>
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<b>Jim:</b> There are
different kinds of freedom -- there's a lot of misunderstanding ... The most
important kind of freedom is to be what you really are. You trade in your
reality for a role. You trade in your senses for an act. You give up your
ability to feel and in exchange, put on a mask. There can't be any large-scale
revolution until there's a personal revolution, on an individual level. It's
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<b>Jim:</b> Some people
surrender their freedom willingly--but others are forced to surrender it.
Imprisonment begins with birth. Society, parents; they refuse to allow you to
keep the freedom you are born with. There are subtle ways to punish a person
for daring to feel. You see that everyone around you has destroyed his true
feeling nature. You imitate what you see.<o:p></o:p></div>
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saying that we are, in effect, brought up to defend and perpetuate a society
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<b>Jim:</b> Sure ...
teachers, religious leaders-even friends, or so-called friends -- take over
where the parents leave off. They demand that we feel the only feelings they want
and expect from us. They demand all the time that we preform feelings for them.
We're like actors-turned loose in this world to wander in search of a phantom
... endlessly searching for a half-forgotten shadow of our lost reality. When
others demand that we become the people they want us to be, they force us to
destroy the person we really are. It's a subtle kind of murder ... the most
loving parents and relatives commit this murder with smiles on their faces.<o:p></o:p></div>
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think it's possible for an individual to free himself from these repressive
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freedom can't be granted. Nobody can win it for you. You have to do it on your
own. If you look to somebody else to do it for you -- somebody outside yourself
-- you're still depending on others. You're still vulnerable to those
repressive, evil outside forces, too.<o:p></o:p></div>
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it possible for people who want that freedom to unite -- to combine their
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<b>Jim:</b> Friends can
help each other. A true friend is someone who lets you have total freedom to be
yourself-and especially to feel. Or not feel. Whatever you happen to be feeling
at the moment is fine with them. That's what real love amounts to -- letting a
person be what he really is ... Most people love you for who you pretend to be
... To keep their love, you keep pretending -- preforming. You get to love your
pretence ... It's true, we're locked in an image, an act -- and the sad thing
is, people get so used to their image -- they grow attached to their masks.
They love their chains. They forgot all about who they really are. And if you
try to remind them, they hate you for it -- they feel like you're trying to
steal their most precious possession.<o:p></o:p></div>
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ironic -- it's sad. Can't they see that what you're trying to show them is the
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<b>Jim:</b> Most people
have no idea what they're missing. Or society places a supreme value on control
-- hiding what you feel. Our culture mocks "primitive cultures" and
prides itself on suppression of natural instincts and impulses.<o:p></o:p></div>
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<b>Lizze</b>: In some of
your poetry, you openly admire and praise primitive people -- Indians, for
instance. Do you mean that it's not human beings in general but our particular
society that's flawed and destructive?<o:p></o:p></div>
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other cultures live --peacefully, in harmony with the earth, the forest --
animals. They don't build war machines and invest millions of dollars in
attacking other countries whose political ideals don't happen to agree with
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and part of the disease is not being aware that we're diseased ... Our society
has too much to hold on to, and value -- freedom ends up at the bottom of the
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there something an artist con do? If you didn't feel you, as an artist, could
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images -- I conjure memories of freedom that can still be reached -- like The
Doors, right? But we can only open the doors -- we can't drag people through. I
can't free them unless they want to be free -- more than anything else ...
Maybe primitive people have less bullshit to let go of, to give up. A person
has to be willing to give up everything -- not just wealth. All the bullshit
he's been taught -- all society brainwashing. You have to let go of all that to
get to the other side. Most people aren't willing to do that.<o:p></o:p></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12pt;">Recently I was fortunate enough to spend a few weeks
in Tasmania with my beautiful husband and a few old friends. Like most visitors
to Tasmania we favoured the natural environment and spent several days
exploring some of Tassie’s pristine forests. It was after one such visit that
these thought came to me …….</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12.0pt;">What is this thing we call death? Is there even such a
thing? Or have we been duped into believing in ‘death’ because of the fear and
lack of faith in others? Every day we confront ‘death’ in some way. Most days we are so detuned from ‘death’ that
we don’t even notice it until it touches us personally in a deep and
unavoidable way.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12.0pt;">Our cat catches a mouse and tortures it before killing
it to eat. Dead animals litter the shoulders of our highways, victims of this
fast-paced life we live. A bug lands on
our skin and we swipe at it intent on killing it. The wood we use in our fireplaces
was once a vibrant living tree providing shelter and possibly food for many
creatures. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12.0pt;">But is there really such a thing as death? Or is death
simply a means of transformation, an opportunity for growth in a different
direction?<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12.0pt;">Whilst we were exploring the many beautiful natural
wonders of Tasmania I noticed that everywhere we went life was abundant and
beautiful. In the Franklin-Gordon
Wilderness Area we came across the remains of an ancient Huon pine. Some would
say that this tree was ‘dead’. It certainly wasn’t living in the form that most
would identify as a Huon pine. And yet the remains of this magnificent old tree
– hundreds of years old – was bursting with life. Over 160 species of trees and plants have now
been identified as emerging and thriving in the remnants of what once was an
ancient giant of the forest.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12.0pt;">So is this tree dead? Or has it simply been
transformed into something new? It is
certainly providing a fertile bed for a vibrant and diverse colony of
life. The evidence is there for all to
see. So is this tree ‘dead’? <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12.0pt;">And what about those unfortunate animals which have
fallen prey to our fast paced lifestyle and become road kill? Their remains are
now transformed into food for the many scavengers which are drawn to the
freshly killed carcasses. Without these scavengers we would by now be buried
beneath the burden of our own waste, our own carelessness. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12.0pt;">But the forest provides the clearest example of the
cycles of life, of ‘death’ and rebirth. A tree fallen in a wild storm crashes
to the forest floor where it begins the process of rebirth. It is no longer the
magnificent tree that it once was as it reached for the warmth of the
sunlight. It has now reached its lowest
point and it slowly begins its transformation into something else, something
potentially more beautiful, lighter, and more vibrant. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12.0pt;">As time passes this ‘dead’ tree becomes host to a
multitude of living organisms – fungi, lichen, moss, insects, grubs, each one
working in tandem with the others to transform the tree into something more
beautiful than it was before. Eventually this fallen tree will support the
continuation of growth and life of all around it. So has the tree really died or is it simply
being transformed?<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12.0pt;">We are generally afraid of death because change makes
us feel uncomfortable. Think of a time
in your life when you were forced to change? A job redundancy, marriage, the
arrival of children, moving out of home, illness, travel to a foreign country
and so on. How did that feel? And did you emerge from this changed circumstance
(whatever it might have been) exactly the same as before or had you changed in
some way? Change makes us feel
uncomfortable but it almost always leads to growth if we let it. For most this
growth will be in a positive direction but some get stuck in old patterns and
growth either stops or reverses in a negative direction. The choice is up to
the individual. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12.0pt;">Change is all around us. It is the one constant thing in this
world. Every day every one of us
witnesses dozens of small changes – from the way we have brushed our hair, the
clothes we wear, the direction of the breeze, the ever changing skyscape. Change is all around us. Everyday. And yet
when it comes to the biggest change of all, ‘death’, we become frozen. Often
paralysed by fear of the unknown. But
isn’t God trying to show us through our natural environment that there is no
such thing as ‘death’?<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12.0pt;">In order for us to understand this concept we must be
able to acknowledge that we are not who we think we are. We are not our physical body. We are a soul having a physical experience.
Many religious philosophies teach this. And yet if we truly believed this we
would also have to acknowledge that the ‘death’ of the physical body simply
marks a transition to a lighter and more ethereal existence. Of course, the big problem with acknowledging
this is that the ‘death’ of the physical body necessitates change. The person
whose physical body has decayed and ‘died’ must get used to residing in a lighter
form. And unless they were particularly tuned to this more ethereal existence
prior to their ‘death’ they will have difficulty communicating with those left
behind, especially if their loved ones have not yet developed the ability to
communicate across the great divide. The person who has ‘died’ now has an
opportunity to learn and grow in a different direction and perhaps be
transformed into something with far greater potential that previously imagined.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12.0pt;">Perhaps for us ‘death’ is like the tree which has
fallen in the forest. We have now
reached our lowest point and must learn to surrender to the process, to the
truth of the universe around us, in order to learn and grow and eventually
transform into something potentially much grander and greater than we ever
would have imagined possible. Like that grand old Huon pine in the forests of
Tasmania, we all have the opportunity to allow ‘death’ to transform us into
something greater that we ever thought we could be. But to do this we must be
willing to surrender everything we thought we knew about ourselves. And we must
be willing to learn to see ourselves through God’s eyes, will all of our
potential and promise. Then we must be willing to let go and let God show us
the way forward. And who knows where he
will lead us? And we can begin this process long before the ‘death’ of the
physical body.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12.0pt;">Death is not the end.
It is simply a new beginning.
Nature shows us this every day.
All around us. We just need to
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<span style="font-size: 12pt;">With the end of the year fast approaching perhaps now is an appropriate time to reflect upon our own feelings about 'death' and ask ourselves "What 'death' am I wanting to face before the new year begins? What 'death' must I face in order for new opportunities to </span>bloom<span style="font-size: 12pt;"> and thrive in the coming year?"</span></div>
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Lindahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06239949170313951993noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-255620325991409496.post-62648358231515764192015-11-28T18:51:00.000+10:002015-11-28T19:23:25.243+10:00Stepping more fully into Passion and Desire<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0cm;">
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<span style="font-size: 12.0pt;">Have you ever noticed how much easier life is when you
engage your soul and your passions fully? It has taken me a very long time to
recognize this truth. Too long. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12.0pt;">Lately I have been allowing myself to step more fully
into my passion for writing and I have been amazed how easily it is coming
along and how much guidance I am receiving.
And I am extremely grateful. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12.0pt;">For the past 15 – 20 years the idea for a book (several
really) has been percolating in the recesses of my mind. Locked there out of fear and doubt. I had
been allowing the old unloving beliefs, instilled in me through the school
system that I attended, to control my thinking and my desires. For far too long I daren’t believe that I,
who had a very poor scholastic record in English, could dare to dream about
writing a book. What would I have to say? Who would bother reading it? <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12.0pt;">About seven years ago I came across a teacher who
would help me to change these old unloving patterns and slowly begin to engage
my soul. His name is AJ Miller and he
claims to be Jesus of the first century. Whilst I have a strong inkling that
this is in fact the truth, I have yet to fully feel this in my soul. As a
teenager I always had a strong sense that Jesus would return, that he would be
known after the year 2000 and that I would meet him. Call it fantasy, call it delusion, call it
what you will, but this feeling was very strong and very persistent throughout
my life. So when I had the opportunity
to watch the <a href="https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=P5bglLEtU-c&feature=youtu.be" target="_blank">Secrets of the Universe </a>DVD presentation in 2009 I embraced it. It
was very confronting but something inside of my soul sang and I have become an
avid follower of his teachings ever since. It has been my feeble attempts at
putting into practice the teachings, which are freely available on the <a href="https://www.divinetruth.com/www/en/html/index.htm#welcome.htm" target="_blank">DivineTruth Website </a>or the <a href="https://www.youtube.com/c/divinetruthfaq" target="_blank">Divine Truth You Tube Channel,</a> that have unlocked the
blocks that I have to dismissing these false teachings of the educators of my
youth. Doors that I never imagined opening for me are slowly beginning to open. My soul is slowly being set free of the
constraints of the errors of my childhood and it is beginning to sing. And I am
loving it.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12.0pt;">As I sit at the computer and write or research, time
disappears. Hours, days, weeks fly past
in a whirl, and at times I find myself getting a little irritated if I have to
leave my post to engage in everyday tasks – but not for long. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12.0pt;">This process of writing is bringing up heaps of
emotions for me and as I engage more fully with my passions more and more
errors are being exposed and hopefully felt and released – at least in
part. And in their place God’s Divine
Love floods in and fills the spaces left as the errors leave. This whole
process is helping me to learn more about who I am – the real me, the me that
God created, not the me that I learnt to become in order to gain approval or
love of others through addictive and fear driven behaviour. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12.0pt;">There are still many fears to be faced, many
challenges to overcome, and many tears to be felt and released. But the process has begun and I am gradually
learning to embrace it. More and more I pray for humility and for the grace of
God’s guidance, and I am still surprised when I receive it. But the layers of
unworthiness are slowly being peeled away and I am grateful.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12.0pt;">As I embark on this journey of self-discovery through
engaging my passion for writing I am beginning to step out from behind my many
masks. One of the masks I am now attempting to remove is my desire to remain
hidden and anonymous. So I am taking the
steps to align this blog post with my other on-line presences – my <a href="http://www.beyondbeginnings.com.au/" target="_blank">business website</a> and my business <a href="https://www.facebook.com/celebratingbeyondbeginnings/" target="_blank">Facebook page</a>.
This is not a decision that has been taken lightly but I feel that
everything fits neatly under the banner of <b>Linda Munster - Celebrating Beyond Beginnings.</b><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12.0pt;">This blog is really about my journey beyond the
beginning of the search for my real self – my soul. So, welcome to the NEW <a href="http://lindamunster.blogspot.com.au/" target="_blank">blog</a>
for Linda Munster – Celebrating Beyond Beginnings as I Journey Towards Love. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12.0pt;">As I step more fully into the integration of all parts
of my soul I will begin to share more of my professional journey as well as my
deeply personal journey and I invite you to join me as I continue celebrating
beyond this beginning.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12.0pt;">Thanks for being a part of my journey.</span></div>
Lindahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06239949170313951993noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-255620325991409496.post-65306636523331768232015-10-28T16:52:00.000+10:002015-11-28T19:24:03.496+10:00AuthenticityIt is interesting isn't how the same messages are often relevant time and time again. Take this message on Authenticity from my guide Peter - I received this in November 2014, almost a year ago and yet its potency still resonates with my soul. <br />
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I am still struggling to grasp what that truly means but I feel that I am getting stronger and braver in stepping into my own authenticity regardless of the perceived cost. I am slowly finding the courage to use my voice and stand firm for truth and love. It is not easy. <br />
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Recently I have been having a conversation with my family that has been difficult for us all, but I am learning to remain true to my authentic self and not modify myself in order to please. <br />
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Oh how I wish I could just go back to pleasing everyone - but I can't - the price is too high. It is time to start loving my authentic self.<br />
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Challenging the status quo is difficult, challenging, confronting and triggering. But I am ever so grateful for these reminders from my guides and others who have walked this path before me that true happiness comes through Authenticity. It has been my willingness to sacrifice my authentic self that has resulted in dis-ease within my body. Now it is time to reclaim my authenticity and learn to love me in the process. <br />
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I hope you find this message helpful.<br />
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Blessings<br />
<br />
Linda<br />
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<span style="font-size: 12.0pt;">True freedom comes through authenticity. If you cannot
be your authentic self at all times then you are not free. You are tied to the constraints of
wanting/needing to please others in order to gain their approval and love. And
in that space you are not being true to yourself, and your soul cries. Your soul, your true self, craves
authenticity and will do anything in its power to bring you back to
authenticity.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12.0pt;">When you sacrifice your authenticity you create a
fertile ground for dis-ease and pain, and suffering WILL result. There is no escaping this. It is a universal
Law. God wants us to be our authentic selves.
There is power and beauty in authenticity but it is a subtle kind of
power, a gentle beauty that the world does not yet understand. In fact, the world is afraid of authenticity
and the power and beauty that goes with it; because to embrace authenticity is
to embrace difference and the world has been fighting for conformity and
predictability for millenia.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12.0pt;">The world is afraid of difference because difference
means uncertainty. Difference means that
there is potential for chaos and chaos incites fear. But we are afraid of chaos
only because we have not yet learnt to embrace authenticity. Being your authentic self requires courage
and commitment but brings freedom and joy.
The world does not yet understand this and so it clings to conformity
and predictability out of fear. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12.0pt;">There is a small but growing number of people on the
planet who are awakening to the importance and potentiality of authenticity. Being your authentic self requires commitment
and the courage to swim against the current in the stream of life. Once you begin to experience the freedom of
authenticity you stop struggling and embrace the potentiality of a life much
greater than you had previously experienced or even imagined, because true
freedom comes through authenticity. And being authentic means recognizing every
aspect of yourself no matter how ugly, dark or painful that might be. Being authentic means being able to freely
express yourself regardless of what you are feeling in any given moment.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12.0pt;">Authenticity requires us to face the truth of our
existence and to own up to the faults and flaws in our souls. In a world that values conformity and
predictability, authenticity is challenging because authenticity means having
the courage to question everything and to feel the Truth for yourself. Authenticity does not seek approval or
guidance. Authenticity seeks Truth,
Love, Joy and Humility. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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authenticity.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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Lindahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06239949170313951993noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-255620325991409496.post-65036368896352110972015-10-21T16:00:00.001+10:002015-11-28T19:24:46.551+10:00Experiments, Judgement and LifeI am always grateful and often amazed at how generous our heavenly Parent is with Her assistance and guidance. I do not consider myself to be a medium - I am a novice learning about communication of the soul and sometimes, when I am open and humble enough, I receive very poignant messages from my guides or other spirits who have a desire to assist us to grow in love. <br />
Steven is one such spirit. I had not met him previous to this message but I am extremely grateful for his insights. As always it was extremely timely. <br />
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I share it here with you in the hope that it may be of some assistance to you also. <br />
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Please be mindful that I am not perfect and there will likely be inaccuracies in this message. Take from it that with resonates with your soul and leave the rest. <br />
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I would really appreciate any feedback from those of you whose mediumship gift is much more advanced than mine.<br />
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Enjoy.<br />
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an experiment and not all experiments go to plan or achieve the expected or
desired results. This does not mean
failure. It simply means that we need to
try something else. Add or subtract
something to / from the mix. Change the
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<span style="font-family: "corbel" , sans-serif;">What matters
is that you keep trying. Keep
experimenting. What one person sees as
failure another may see as a triumph. It
is all a matter of perspective. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "corbel" , sans-serif;">To judge the
results is to say that you are superior. There is no need to judge and no
benefit in judgement. The experiment
simply IS. It is never right nor wrong; good nor bad. It is just what it is –
an experiment with a particular result.
If the result is not to your liking change the parameters or the
components of the experiment. It is that
simple. There is no need to complicate
things. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "corbel" , sans-serif;">Now I know
that judgement is a large part of your experience, shall we say. When in the past you have 'failed' at
something, you have been judged, sometimes harshly, for that. But have you really failed? By whose standards have you 'failed'?
Certainly not God's.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "corbel" , sans-serif;"> In God's world there is no 'failure'. There are simply a series of experiments with
certain results. It is only we who perceive these results to be bad or good and
we do this through the errors in our souls.
When you have cleared all the errors and live a life in harmony with
Love and Truth you will see this clearly.
There will be no judgement. You will then be free, truly free, to
continue to explore and experiment, changing paths or direction at times
perhaps. But you will do this without
judgement and with a sense of awe and wonder.
<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "corbel" , sans-serif;">It is possible
for you to reach this place whilst still on earth. Continue to step more and more into
God-reliance. Let go of control and let
God, the Master and Commander who sees and knows all, direct your life. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "corbel" , sans-serif;">Have faith
that our Father loves you and wants only the best for you. Trust that He will lead you on the right path. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "corbel" , sans-serif;">Look at
judgement for what it is – a fear-based reaction born from a lack of
understanding. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "corbel" , sans-serif;">The more you
know about yourself and about God's Love and Truth, the less you will need to
judge. The more you grow in Love and
Truth the greater compassion you will have for 'failed' experiments in life –
of yourself and of others. And the more
you will come to know this truth as a certainty. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "corbel" , sans-serif;">Let go of
judgement (of yourself especially), it is a very harmful emotion. Embrace all of life's opportunities with an
open heart and an open mind.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "corbel" , sans-serif;">Experiment. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "corbel" , sans-serif;">Remember,
there are NO failures, only results.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "corbel" , sans-serif;">Thank you for
the opportunity to talk with you today.
I am Steven and I lived on earth in the 16<sup>th</sup> Century. I am now living in our Father's kingdom and I
have a great desire to assist my brothers and sisters to find their way to
God. I was a scientist and a philosopher
when on earth.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
Lindahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06239949170313951993noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-255620325991409496.post-30480909374652744582015-10-14T21:47:00.003+10:002015-11-28T19:25:57.928+10:00Arrogance, Truth and New Beginnings<div class="MsoNormal">
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<span style="font-size: 12.0pt;"> </span><span style="font-size: 12pt;">It has been some time since I
last wrote – over a year in fact. At the
assistance group with Jesus, Mary and Cornelius last August I was confronted
with some very uncomfortable truths which sent my world into a spin. It has
taken me much of this time to return from the stratosphere of emotional turmoil
and feel </span>centered<span style="font-size: 12pt;"> enough to start writing again. In this time I have been
searching for the little pieces of my shattered soul in an attempt to begin the
arduous task of piecing the puzzle back together again. I am not sure if I am yet capable of tackling
this task or even if I really want to at a soul level. This is a massive revelation for me and it is
really quite shocking.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: 12.0pt;">At the end of July last year I attended a ten day
retreat in the beautiful Monkeri Valley in the foothills of the Barrington Tops
in New South Wales with Jesus, Mary and Cornelius. They termed it the ‘Assistance Groups’ and the aim was to bring together people who are interested in learning about
God’s Truth and growing in Divine Love.
It was an immense privilege, I feel, to be invited to attend this
workshop.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12.0pt;">It can be very cold in this region at this time of
year and we were blessed with beautiful winter’s weather – cold and fresh but
not unbearably freezing as it had been a few weeks prior. I was extremely
grateful that I was able to secure a single room as this gave me the space I
needed to feel into the emotions that surfaced during the time there.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12.0pt;">Over the course of the retreat Jesus, Mary and
Cornelius expanded and deepened teachings that had already been presented on
Truth, Love, God, the soul and more. And they offered their feedback (in a
group setting) to a few who were brave enough to expose their errors publicly
in a bid to grow in Love.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12.0pt;">I recognize now, and this was a hugely shocking
revelation for me, how arrogant I have become since awakening to God’s Truth
and Love. It is a trap that many fall
into on this path, this Way to God. But
it really took a comment from Jesus, which hit me smack bang in the face, to
wake me up. His comment (that I am assuming that John is my soulmate) totally
took the wind out of my sails. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12.0pt;">What did this mean? <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12.0pt;">If you have read my earlier post on soulmates you will
begin to see the depths of my dilemma.
This comment put me into such a spin that five months on I don’t think I have yet found my bearings. Even now,
some fourteen months on I am still struggling to find my way through the maze
of confusion that has arisen as a result of this revelation. Am I doing anything right? Has everything I
have been doing been a lie? Has anything been real? How would I possibly know
what is the truth and what is mischievous deception?<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12.0pt;">I cannot answer that yet – even now, over fourteen
months later I still am not sure that I can answer that. I am still sifting
through the debris of the fallout and trying to feel my way through this maze
of lies, deception, truth, love, and hope.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12.0pt;">Everything I think I know has been called into
question. Everything I thought I felt
now has a dark cloud hanging over it. Everything.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12pt;">I still feel strongly that John is my soulmate but I
know that we are not in a soulmate relationship – not yet anyway. This is something that we both must want wholeheartedly.
It is something that can only happen when we both place God firmly at the </span>center<span style="font-size: 12pt;"> of our worlds. And this is
something that we both struggle with. While I feel that I have a strong desire
for a relationship with God I have been forced to acknowledge, in a most
shocking way, that I hold John up as my God.
And while ever I do this I am severely limiting my own progress towards
having a real relationship with God. It
is impossible to have both. God must come first for any real progress to be
made.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12.0pt;">I am still reeling from this revelation.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12.0pt;">I do not know what it means for me. Am I strong enough, brave enough to desire a
personal relationship with God above all else? I do not yet know. But I do know
that I want to be. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12.0pt;">There have been times when I have been very ragefull and resentful about the situation I now find myself in and many tears have been
spilt as a result. But, what do I trust? What is the real truth? At this point
I can’t answer that. I have tried walking
away from God and this Path to Love but that is too painful and the pull
towards Love is too strong – I can’t do it.
At times I feel trapped and I get angry about that also. But I have HUGE judgements about anger and I
find it difficult to process through that.
The cushions and soft furnishings in the downstairs room are coping a great
deal of bashing lately and the dust doesn’t settle for long! Old magazines are
being torn to shreds in a bid to connect to and release some of the anger
within my soul. But there is still so much yet to feel and at times I despair
of ever breaking through the barriers that I have erected between me and
God. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12.0pt;">I am learning just how unloving and destructive to the
soul arrogance can be and how hard it is to let it go. I am also learning that
the pull towards a relationship with God is stronger than any other kind of
love that I have experienced and I am terrified of what that might mean for
every other relationship.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12.0pt;">I think I want 2016 to be the year for challenging
addictions of every description – physical, emotional, food, relationships etc.
Perhaps 2016 will be there year that I find the courage and the willingness to
break down the barriers that prevent me from developing a relationship with God
for real? Maybe this will be the year that I finally stop deceiving myself and
learn to develop true humility? Because, in the end it doesn’t really matter
right now if John is my soulmate, it only matters that love is the central
premise of this and any other relationship.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12.0pt;">And so I make this promise to myself – every day is a
new beginning. Every day presents new opportunities to learn to love. I will
strive to learn to let go of false teachings and unloving actions and thoughts
– both about myself and others. Every
day I will reflect upon my thoughts and actions ask for forgiveness and
guidance. Every day I will hold onto the hope that I truly am worthy of love
and every day I will hold onto the faith I have that God is a loving, kind,
forgiving and generous Being who wants <b>all
</b>of His children (including me) to learn to grown in love and become at-one
with Him.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12.0pt;">In a bid to help me break through some of these
barriers to a real relationship with God, I was fortunate enough to work with a
wonderful therapist in Ipswich. The
incredible lengthy sessions we have had together have focused mostly on
assisting me to break through false beliefs and begin to see the truth about
myself. I have struggled with excess
weight for many years and it doesn’t seem to matter what I try – nothing works
– I can’t seem to shift the excess weight. I learnt from Linda that the
emotions connected with the Thyroid is RAGE. If I can get past the blocks that
I have about feeling and releasing the anger and rage that is buried deep
within my soul (much of it generational) I can then begin to heal my body – but
only then. Working with Linda provided
the permission I needed to feel the rage within my soul – but it is still a
struggle and resistance is still high. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12.0pt;">It is always reassuring to me to have the same message
repeated by several different sources, this is when I know I need to pay
attention. So when Linda began talking about many of the truths that I had been
learning through Jesus and Mary I knew I was in the right place. It has been a
huge gift to be able to work through some deeply buried issues in such a loving
and accepting space and I feel blessed.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12.0pt;">The other gift I have received in this time is the
opportunity to work with a dear friend, Lainee, who has a gift for assisting
others to access their deeper blocks. In the coming days and weeks I will share
with you some of the revelations I have had following some profound emotional releases.
From here on in I will endeavour to write regularly regardless of where I am
at. I hope and pray that I have scaled
the barriers to growing humility but I wonder if in saying that I am displaying
arrogance? I do not know; but I do know
that I have a strong desire to grow in Love and foster a relationship with God
– my aim is to get to the place where my relationship with God becomes the most
important relationship in my life – for all eternity. </span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12.0pt;">I hope that by sharing my
journey with you, you might find little bits that will assist you in your own
journey wherever that takes you.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
Lindahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06239949170313951993noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-255620325991409496.post-31263642509497618642014-05-08T18:37:00.003+10:002015-11-28T19:03:45.915+10:00Gentle is the Language of God<div class="MsoNormal">
<b><span style="font-size: 14.0pt;">Gentle is the Language of God<o:p></o:p></span></b></div>
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Last month I found that I was in a lot of resistance to
feeling God's Truth about anything. I
could feel this resistance in my body, in the way my body was operating – lots more
stiffness, constipation and general blocks within my body. When I get like this I pray constantly to
overcome the resistance that I have to feeling the blocks. Sometimes I am able
to break through the resistance easily and soften into the emotions. <o:p></o:p></div>
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Not this time! This
time the resistance was HUGE!<o:p></o:p></div>
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I was fortunate enough to secure an appointment with an old
friend who is a Kinesologist. Daniel was able to help me break through some of
this resistance in a very loving way. During
the session he received a message – <b>Gentle
is the Language of God</b>. My guides confirmed this. <o:p></o:p></div>
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I prayed about this a lot and felt into the truth of
it. Resistance began to crumble and in
less than 24 hours I was able to break through the resistance and step into
humility and I received many realizations over a four or five hour period, which
I feel came from my guide - Peter. I would like to share these with you here.<o:p></o:p></div>
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I have included my own comments or thoughts in brackets and
in italics. <o:p></o:p></div>
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This was received on the 16<sup>th</sup> of April 2014<o:p></o:p></div>
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(<i>My prayer was - how
do I break through this resistance – what do I need to do?)</i><o:p></o:p></div>
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HUMILITY is the key – if I am I being truly humble I will …<o:p></o:p></div>
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</span></span><!--[endif]-->TRUST. If
I trust I will …<o:p></o:p></div>
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</span></span><!--[endif]-->ACT. (<i>this
was what I was avoiding – taking action, I didn't want to feel my anger!</i>).
When I act in harmony with Love I receive…<o:p></o:p></div>
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</span></span><!--[endif]-->TRUTH. When Truth is allowed to permeate with my
soul I receive …<o:p></o:p></div>
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</span></span><!--[endif]-->LOVE. It is Love that will change my soul by
healing my errors and bringing peace.<o:p></o:p></div>
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<b><span style="font-size: 14.0pt;">Gentle is the Language of God</span></b>.<o:p></o:p></div>
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(<i>How can I gently sink
into Humility whilst honouring my soul?</i>)<o:p></o:p></div>
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RESISTANCE
blocks the flow of truth and allows …<o:p></o:p></div>
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</span></span><!--[endif]-->FEAR to control.
Do I want to be controlled?
Why? Why not? FEAR leads to …<o:p></o:p></div>
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</span></span><!--[endif]-->AVOIDANCE of my real self. Do I really want to know the real me? AVOIDANCE
leads to …<o:p></o:p></div>
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</span></span><!--[endif]-->PAIN – physical, emotional and psychological. In
this space I am NOT being gentle with myself.
Why do I want to hold onto pain?
PAIN in turn leads to …<o:p></o:p></div>
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</span></span><!--[endif]-->RESISTANCE which blocks the flow of truth and
love. It is a cycle which, if allowed,
will repeat itself until I allow…<o:p></o:p></div>
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It takes HUMILITY + TRUST + ACTION to break down the brick
wall of RESISTANCE.<o:p></o:p></div>
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When the brick wall begins to crumble more light will come
in.<o:p></o:p></div>
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LIGHT = LOVE.<o:p></o:p></div>
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<b><span style="font-size: 14.0pt;">Gentle is the Language of God.<o:p></o:p></span></b></div>
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HUMILITY = TRUST and will lead to ACTION<o:p></o:p></div>
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ACTION will lead to HUMILITY + TRUST + TRUTH + LOVE.<o:p></o:p></div>
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LOVE will lead to HEALING + PEACE + JOY + MORE LOVE.<o:p></o:p></div>
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LOVE feeds itself.
LOVE is the only food that Love needs.<o:p></o:p></div>
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<b><span style="font-size: 14.0pt;">Gentle is the Language of God<o:p></o:p></span></b></div>
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Learn to step into Humility GENTLY<o:p></o:p></div>
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Learn to Trust GENTLY.<o:p></o:p></div>
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Take Action GENTLY.<o:p></o:p></div>
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Truth will always flow GENTLY.<o:p></o:p></div>
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Love will always heal GENTLY.<o:p></o:p></div>
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<b>Gentle is the key to
progress. Learn to</b> …<o:p></o:p></div>
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LOVE yourself <b>gently</b>.<o:p></o:p></div>
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SPEAK about yourself (internally) and others <b>gently.<o:p></o:p></b></div>
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WALK in the world <b>gently.<o:p></o:p></b></div>
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EAT <b>gently</b> –
choose only loving foods.<o:p></o:p></div>
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INTERACT with yourself, others and God <b>gently.</b><o:p></o:p></div>
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GENTLE = LOVE<o:p></o:p></div>
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LOVE = GENTLE.<o:p></o:p></div>
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If what you are doing does not FEEL gentle it is out of
harmony with Love. <o:p></o:p></div>
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GENTLE = LOVE.<o:p></o:p></div>
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<b><span style="font-size: 14.0pt;">Gentle is the Language of God<o:p></o:p></span></b></div>
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Resistance is NOT gentle – <u>resistance is hard and harsh</u>.
Let go of resistance and soften into feeling the fear that lies beneath it.<o:p></o:p></div>
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Fear I s NOT gentle. <u>Fear
destroys</u>. Step into fear so that it might be released. Holding onto fear
creates pain and discomfort.<o:p></o:p></div>
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Anger is NOT gentle. <u>Holding onto anger is destructive</u>. Anger is begging to be released. Just like fire, anger, when released in a
loving way, can be helpful. But when we hold onto anger it is like a wildfire
that is totally out of control and very destructive. Release the anger so it can be harnessed into
something positive.<o:p></o:p></div>
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<b><span style="font-size: 14.0pt;">Gentle is the Language of God<o:p></o:p></span></b></div>
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If we want to communicate with God we must learn to be
gentle in every aspect of our lives 100% of the time.<o:p></o:p></div>
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<b><span style="font-size: 14.0pt;">Gentle is the Language of God</span></b>.<o:p></o:p></div>
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Gentle = Love<o:p></o:p></div>
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Gentle = Soft<o:p></o:p></div>
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Gentle = Trust<o:p></o:p></div>
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Gentle = Humility<o:p></o:p></div>
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Gentle = Truth.<o:p></o:p></div>
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<b><span style="font-size: 14.0pt;">Gentle is the Language of God.<o:p></o:p></span></b></div>
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When I allow fear to control I am avoiding personal
responsibility. I am allowing others to
direct my life so that I do not have to make decisions for myself.<o:p></o:p></div>
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I want others to make decisions for me because in the past I
got into severe trouble for making my own decisions - for following my desires.
I go into trouble for making my own decisions because my decisions created fear
in others.<o:p></o:p></div>
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They did not want to feel their fear. They did not want to be humble. They did not
want to trust God. Instead, they
punished me for following my desires. They
punished me for making decisions. They punished me for being the real me.<o:p></o:p></div>
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They did not want to feel their fear so instead, they
instilled fear in me. And they have used
fear to control me most of my life! <o:p></o:p></div>
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<b><u>AND I ALLOWED
IT!!!<o:p></o:p></u></b></div>
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Because of this, I have not yet lived the life that my soul
truly desires.<o:p></o:p></div>
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Am I going to allow this to continue?<o:p></o:p></div>
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The ONLY way to change this is to step into HUMILITY and
TRUST that God is holding me in this space <b>and</b>
I must TAKE ACTION to feel and release Anger and Fear and allow God's TRUTH and
LOVE to heal my broken soul.<o:p></o:p></div>
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I must be HUMBLE enough to TRUST and ACT before TRUTH and
LOVE can heal.<o:p></o:p></div>
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<b><span style="font-size: 14.0pt;">Gentle is the Language of God.<o:p></o:p></span></b></div>
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<u><span style="font-family: "french script mt"; font-size: 24.0pt;">Love's
only food is Love and Love has a <b>voracious</b>
appetite.<o:p></o:p></span></u></div>
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Lindahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06239949170313951993noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-255620325991409496.post-28932585220015414432014-04-14T10:26:00.000+10:002015-11-28T19:26:45.037+10:00Emotional Processing and Finding your Soulmate.<div>
A friend recently asked me to send her the four key indicators that I use when processing emotions to check
if I are in truth and processing my own stuff. These are the points that my
guides have given me and I have found them to be extremely helpful and 100%
accurate 100% of the time. I thought they might also be helpful to you in your own emotional work and progress towards God.</div>
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<ol>
<li> <strong>Deep diaphragmatic breathing</strong>. I have found when I do
this, if it is my emotion the deep breathing will take me deeper into the
emotion. If it doesn't then I am either crying about the effects or I am being
used by spirits. Either way I stop processing and pray to God about the blocks
to fully feeling the emotion. If I am being truly humble I am able to connect
again to the real emotion, if not I just stop the processing and do something
else. But I continue to pray about the blocks until I am able to really get
into the emotion at a later time.
</li>
<li><strong>Flow.</strong> by this I mean that the emotion flows freely. I
don’t have to think about it and there is a lot of tears and a lot of snot – I
use a lot of tissues/hankies etc. The grief is heart wrenching and deep.</li>
<li><strong>Truth.</strong> If I am truly in a causal emotion I will always
receive new realizations about my life and will often receive insights into what
the causal emotion is. If I am being truly humble and open to God’s truth and
love this is ALWAYS the case. If it isn't then I am most likely crying about
effects and I pray about the blocks to truth.
</li>
<li><strong>The fourth indicator is Love – Divine Love</strong>. If I am getting
to a causal emotion it is because the above three indicators are in play and I
will always receive Love in this process. Sometimes it is only a small amount –
most times it will be very overwhelming. I have found that this is usually
determined by the level of resistance that I have to knowing the truth. If it is
only a small amount I continually pray to overcome the resistance that I have to
feeling the whole truth and ask God to teach me to be truly humble. I always pray to God to help me to stay with the emotion until it is complete.</li>
</ol>
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The first three indicators need to be in play before the fourth one can be
felt and I have found that sincere, heartfelt prayer is always helpful.</div>
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<div>
My friend also asked my assistance with working her way through the emotions which block our knowledge of who our soulmate is. </div>
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About twelve months ago (maybe a little more) I went through this process. It took over twelve months of sincere longing and prayer. And it took a LOT of courage. But the sense of relief when I finally came to see God's truth was overwhelming. Knowing this truth now does not necessarily make my relationship with my soulmate any easier. In fact, sometimes it makes it harder because he does not yet want to know this truth for himself (even though we live together). And he does not yet want to engage in a true soulmate relationship (there are still many addictions at play in our relationship which I am slowly attempting to address). </div>
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This is what I have found to be true while working through my soulmate emotions. </div>
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<div>
You will not be able to access God’s truth
while ever you try to work out who your soulmate is in your head. It must be a soul-based
feeling. </div>
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Forget about the things that you see that you and the person you think might be your soulmate have in common, especially the intellectual stuff. <b>The key is to feel what your
true soul desires are.</b> There will be something that you and your soulmate have
in common that will link you together. </div>
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<div>
It will be a deep core desire, the reason why God created your complete soul. It will be what makes your soul unique.</div>
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<div>
Keep in
mind that one or both of you may not yet have activated this part of your soul
so it will not be at all helpful to reason it out – <b>you must FEEL this truth</b>.
For me, this process brought up a LOT of fear about stepping into my true soul’s
desires and it has, and continues to bring up a lot of unworthiness whenever I
am brave enough to activate even a small portion of this desire. I am learning
that unworthiness is what prevents the activation of the core soul desires and
this must be worked through before you can step into these desires.</div>
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</div>
<div>
When you are feeling into who your soulmate might be it will be extremely
helpful if you could focus on a few key indicators for each person you think could potentially be your soulmate.</div>
<ol>
<li><b>Who is the person really</b> – what does the real them feel like? (don’t focus
on intellectual stuff – try to feel the soul of the person – the real them). I found it extremely helpful to pray to God about this often until I got the answer.</li>
<li><b>Does this person feel like me?</b> In other words, how does this person fit with
me? Do they compliment me? </li>
</ol>
<div>
Try to let go of any preconceived ideas you might have about who your
soulmate is and ask God to help you feel the truth. If you do this with a
sincere heart all the way through the process you will get the answer. But you
have to be prepared for it to be totally unexpected and <b>be willing to go through
the process in faith and without judgement.</b></div>
<div>
<br /></div>
<div>
Be prepared to receive a LOT of spirit interference throughout this process.</div>
<div>
<br /></div>
<div>
There are groups of spirits in the spirit world who do not want us to find our soulmates. This is possibly because they don't believe in soulmates or they believe that they do not have a soulmate so are jealous of the soulmate relationship. When I was working through this process I found that the closer I became to being sure of who my soulmate is, the more interference I received. Because I was (and still am) carrying a LOT of unworthiness about being loved by my soulmate it was easy for malevolent spirits to influence me. This made the process much harder and it required a lot of faith, perseverance and trust in God and in myself. </div>
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<div>
At these times, when I felt under a lot of spirit attack, I would often stop and talk to the spirits with me about soulmates and how God had designed each and every soul to have a soulmate who was the perfect other half of them. And I would encourage them to seek their soulmate and reassure them that they too were deserving of this kind of love. I would always ask for celestial assistance, both for myself and for the spirits with me. I found that this helped both me and the spirits with me.</div>
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<div>
Throughout this process I had to learn to trust my own feelings. </div>
<div>
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<div>
<b>I had to learn to feel myself.</b></div>
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<div>
Eventually, with God's assistance, I got to the point where knowing the truth about my soulmate became the most important thing to me. I felt that if I truly loved my husband (who I believed was my soulmate) I owed it to him to know the truth. The absolute truth. </div>
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<div>
I found this process confusing, challenging, confronting, frightening and at times terrifying. </div>
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I had to become determined, humble, trusting, loving.</div>
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I had to let go of doubt and unworthiness.</div>
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I had to have FAITH.</div>
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<div>
As difficult as this process was, it has been the most rewarding part of my journey towards God and Love so far.</div>
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<div>
I wish you well on your journey towards God, Love and your soulmate.</div>
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<div>
You can learn more about soulmates <a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=38-9LUA_0rc&feature=youtu.be" target="_blank">here</a></div>
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Lindahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06239949170313951993noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-255620325991409496.post-50774657632084212592014-04-03T21:16:00.002+10:002015-11-28T19:07:18.436+10:00Walking in Community – Baby Steps<div class="MsoNormal">
<b>Walking in Community –
Baby Steps<o:p></o:p></b></div>
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About ten years ago I stepped back from an active role
within several community organizations.
I was burnt out. I had been
volunteering for all the wrong reasons – recognition, glory, acknowledgement,
acceptance etc. My health was suffering and I needed to focus on me and family
stuff. Actually, it would probably be
more accurate to say that I needed to focus on family stuff and me. At that point in my life I was struggling
with any sense of self. I was totally
overwhelmed with everything that was happening in my life and I was tired. Very
tired. So I stepped out of all but one voluntary role (and that was a minor role
anyway) and began focusing on what was important to me – learning to put me
first. A difficult road indeed!<o:p></o:p></div>
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About five years later I met AJ Miller, a man who claims to
be Jesus of Nazareth, reincarnated to re-teach the great Truths that he brought
to the world in the first century. His teachings have totally changed my life –
for the better. Gradually, as I began to
tentatively put his teachings in to practice, I began to see subtle changes
within myself. I began to love myself a
little more. I began to trust myself a
little more. I began to trust God a LOT
more.<o:p></o:p></div>
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<div class="MsoNormal">
With each error, or part thereof, that has been released
from my soul a greater confidence has been creeping in. Gradually more joy is
becoming a part of my life. I have
slowly been unlocking the hidden parts of myself which had been shut down as a
child because these parts of me were too confronting for the adults in my
world. Now, I have a growing certainty about why I am here and what my true
passions are. Little by little my real
self is being revealed and I am ever so grateful to God for His guidance and
unfailing support. <o:p></o:p></div>
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<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
Over the past few months I have been studying and plan to
launch a new business by the middle of this year. I feel really good about this. I am excited about this. I can't wait to get going! But the past couple of weeks this has all
been put on hold for a brief period as I begin to step back into
community. A few weeks ago I was
approached by a friend to join a Community organization which was (still is) in
turmoil. Then I was asked to run for the position of vice-president of this
organization and another friend convinced me to come on board.<o:p></o:p></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
My initial reaction was – "I'm not ready for
this!" "I don't think I will be strong enough to stand firm for Love
and Truth". "I don't know enough yet!" <o:p></o:p></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
In short – FEAR!<o:p></o:p></div>
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<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
I prayed a lot about this and felt into it as best I
could. I recognized fear and decided to
step into it and trust God. I'm really
glad that I did! <o:p></o:p></div>
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<div class="MsoNormal">
I have learnt so much about myself in the past couple of
weeks as a result of this and God has shown me more of my real self in the
process. I found myself remaining calm in
difficult situations. I found myself
having the courage to call other members on their unloving behaviour –
especially on projections of anger. And I found these people responding
positively to this. To say that I was
surprised was an understatement. Suddenly
I am noticing that people, many of whom I hardly know or have met for the first
time, are wanting to hear what I have to say and respecting my comments and
suggestions. Some are actively seeking
out my opinions and council. I felt valued even in a difficult situation. This
is new to me.<o:p></o:p></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
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<div class="MsoNormal">
As I reflected and prayed at the end of each day I could see
how things could have been done differently, in a more loving or truthful
way. I have been triggered big time in
lots of different ways. It has been so
much easier to step into challenging or difficult situations with God walking
firmly by my side, holding my hand. Fear
did not dominate. Love did. And I am
coming to realize that I love living this way – with God by my side and fear beneath
my feet!<o:p></o:p></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
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<div class="MsoNormal">
My passion for community has been reignited and I am ready
to fight the good fight, firmly grounded in truth and love. I know I will still make mistakes along the
way. I will no doubt miss opportunities
to speak truth or to act in an unconditionally loving way (towards others and
myself). But I am realizing that that really doesn't matter. The only thing that matters is that I trust
God and step into passion without letting fear dictate my actions (or not!).<o:p></o:p></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
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<div class="MsoNormal">
This is a good place to be.
A really good place to be.<o:p></o:p></div>
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Lindahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06239949170313951993noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-255620325991409496.post-71290854659796887522014-03-16T14:11:00.000+10:002015-11-28T19:09:29.854+10:00Little Glimpses of Joy<b>Little Glimpses of Joy </b><br />
<br />
It seems to me that the past fifteen years or so my life has been in chaos! At times, absolute chaos!!! Everything was difficult. Everything was a challenge. Life seemed to be constantly being propelled from one disaster or emergency to another, and we seemed to always be in the middle of it! Tragic deaths of close family members; serious illnesses of close family members; business disasters that seemed to go from one crises to another.<br />
<br />
For a while life was like a vortex spinning out of control and we just had to be carried along with it. Most of this I had no control over. Except for the business stuff, I had no part in its creation – well, that's what I believed at the time anyway. At times it was difficult to sleep. At times it was difficult to breathe. Most of the time it was difficult to get out of bed and face the day because I was afraid to see what disaster would greet me. This seems a bit dramatic but if I were to just list the things that were happening in my life simultaneously during this time, no one would believe me. Even the people who watched and supported us through all this could not comprehend how one family could be hit with so many seemingly negative events one after another.<br />
<br />
I now know that this was our Law of Attraction – MY Law of Attraction ramping up to get me to look at the errors in my soul, that part of me that was out of harmony with Love and Truth and God's ultimate plan for me. This is the clearest way that God has of communicating with each of Her children to let us know if we are on track and in harmony with God's Love and Truth or if our life needs some adjusting. My life needed a LOT of adjusting!!!<br />
<br />
I have always had a connection to God – well, for as long as I can remember anyway. God has always been a staple part of my life and I consulted Him regularly, especially when things were not going so well (which was most of the time anyway). And I consulted Him when things were going well too! Any time spent in nature, at the beach or in the rain forest, or simply sitting on our veranda was spent with God.<br />
<br />
Looking back I can see the times when I turned to God in total despair and God revealed my errors to me and in the release of these errors His Love flowed into me. I remember these times clearly now. I just didn't understand what was really happening and how to replicate the reception of God's Love. Or how the reception of His Love could and would change my life for the better.<br />
<br />
Slowly, through trial and error, God showed me the way and my path eventually led me to AJ Miller. AJ claims to be the reincarnation of Jesus of Nazareth and I feel this to be true. The first time I watched his introductory DVD –<a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=P5bglLEtU-c&feature=youtu.be" target="_blank"> The Secrets of the Universe,</a> I felt this to be true. In shock and disbelief I watched as he spoke of truths of the universe that had not yet been understood or acknowledged by mankind on earth. Something about this presentation opened a door in my soul – and opened it wide! I became a follower of AJ's teachings and began to apply them in my life.<br />
<br />
As I slowly released errors from my soul, little pieces of the real me became revealed, in all of my injuries and sadness; my anger and rage; my shame and guilt; my fear and terror. Slowly but surely each of these errors has begun to be exposed and with God's Grace and guidance I have been walking a somewhat winding, and at times treacherous path back to God – to my real parent – and to myself!<br />
<br />
It seems to me that in the past fifteen years or so I have not really been living life – I have been existing. Too often I have been existing for the approval of others in the hope that I might gain their love, something that I desperately craved. And in the process I have been selling off little pieces of my soul. I too often forgot that God's Love was all that I needed to sustain me (<a href="http://www.usccb.org/bible/matthew/6">Matthew 6 25-30)</a>, too often I still forget this truth! But as my soul has slowly been opening up to God's Truth and Love over the past four and a half years and little pieces of my soul have been restored. Bit by bit, one tiny piece at a time, my pristine soul is slowly being revealed and joy is beginning to return. It feels like it has been a long time since joy has been the driving factor in my life. In fact I could honestly say that this is the first time in my life that I am consciously aware that joy is more and more becoming the driving factor in my life; that passion and desire rather than approval is what motivates me in the decisions and choices that I now make.<br />
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And it feels GREAT!!!!!<br />
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It has been a long time since I looked forward to each new day with energy and excitement. And it has been a long time since I have been driven by a passion for life and love and all that I have to offer.<br />
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And it feels GREAT!!!!<br />
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So what has caused this seemingly sudden change you might ask?<br />
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Well, for one thing, it has by no means been sudden! It has taken a commitment to honouring God's Love and Truth, as best I can, on a day to day basis; and a desire to grow in true humility to help me get here. It has required a willingness to fully feel all of my emotions as they arise and a willingness to feel God's Truth about the errors in my soul. Even now I am still too often resistant to God's Truth and Love. At times I still turn a blind eye to the messages that God is trying to tell me. Mostly because, for me anyway, letting go of 'control' and allowing God to direct my life still feels too scary!<br />
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But, gradually I am learning to NOT let fear dictate my life. I am learning to acknowledge the fear, ask God for the truth and follow my heart. I am learning that no matter what decisions I may make – loving or otherwise, God always has my back – She will always be there with me every step of the way. I am learning to let go of the negative voices in my head – the ones that tell me that I can't do something that I really want to do; the ones that tell me not to trust myself; the ones that tell me not to trust God, that God doesn't care about me, that I am nobody and I should never aspire to be somebody!<br />
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Slowly, ever so slowly, I am learning that God DOES Love ME!!! And that God wants nothing more than for me to recognize my true potential and engage my unique talents and passions and in so doing bring another piece of the puzzle to God's universe.
More and more joy and passion occupy my days. I get increasingly engrossed in projects and time just disappears. I am finally doing what I love most of the time, on most days of the week. There are still many addictions for me to work through but the path is becoming wider and clearer as more light is being let in. And joy is becoming an increasingly prominent part of each day.<br />
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And it feels GREAT!!!!Lindahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06239949170313951993noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-255620325991409496.post-19419234682989574142014-02-16T18:16:00.001+10:002015-11-28T19:11:21.780+10:00The Transforming Power of God's Love<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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Today I though I would share with you some records of this journey that I have been on for a while. Below are some Aura photos that I have had taken over the past 12 years or so. I apologize for the lack of clarity in the photos, I'm not very good with scanning things into the computer and didn't want to use Photoshop to enhance the photos in any way (not that I really know how to do that yet anyway!) <br />
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If you have never had an Aura photo taken before I would highly recommend that you do as it gives you a glimpse of what is going on in your soul and that is reflected in your aura. <br />
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Wikipedia describes an aura thus - <em>"In </em><a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Parapsychology" title="Parapsychology"><em>parapsychology</em></a><em> and many forms of </em><a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Spirituality" title="Spirituality"><em>spiritual practice</em></a><em>, an <b>aura</b> is a field of subtle, luminous radiation surrounding a person or object (like the </em><a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Halo_(religious_iconography)" title="Halo (religious iconography)"><em>halo</em></a><em> or </em><a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Aureola" title="Aureola"><em>aureola</em></a><em> in </em><a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Religious_art" title="Religious art"><em>religious art</em></a><em>). The depiction of such an aura often connotes a person of particular power or holiness. Sometimes, however, it is said that all living things (including humans) and all objects manifest such an aura. Often it is held to be perceptible, whether spontaneously or with practice: such perception is at times linked with the </em><a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Third_eye" title="Third eye"><em>third eye</em></a><em> of Indian spirituality.<sup class="reference" id="cite_ref-1"><a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Aura_(paranormal)#cite_note-1">[1]</a></sup><sup class="reference" id="cite_ref-2"><a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Aura_(paranormal)#cite_note-2">[2]</a></sup> Various writers associate various personality traits with the colors of different layers of the aura.<sup class="reference" id="cite_ref-3"><a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Aura_(paranormal)#cite_note-3">[3]</a></sup><sup class="reference" id="cite_ref-4"><a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Aura_(paranormal)#cite_note-4">[4]</a></sup><sup class="reference" id="cite_ref-5"><a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Aura_(paranormal)#cite_note-5">[5]</a></sup> It has also been described as a map of the thoughts and feelings surrounding a person.</em><sup class="reference" id="cite_ref-6"><a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Aura_(paranormal)#cite_note-6"><em>[</em>6</a>"</sup><br />
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With each aura photo I have had taken I have been given an explanation of the colours in the aura. I was also told that "<em>The colour above you is what you experience for yourself right now. It is the colour that would best describe you right now. If the colour is high it means aspirations, or what you wish to be. The colour on your left is the vibration coming in to you. The closer it is the sooner it will be felt. And the colour on the right side is what you give out to the world. The vibrational frequency most likely to be felt by others. It is the energy you are putting out o the world".</em><br />
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The reasons I am posting these here is to show the transformational power of Divine Love on the soul.<br />
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This first one was taken on <strong>10th April 2002</strong>. This was during a time when we were under a great deal of stress and were uncertain if we would loose everything due to an unfortunate misunderstanding with the bank - its a LONG story that I'm not going to go into here. <br />
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Notice though that there is quite a bit of dark energy around me in the centre and to the right. Although they did not tell me this then, I now feel that this darker energy is probably due to the influence of darker spirits with me at the time. The edges of the aura are somewhat blurred. High above me and to the left side you can see areas of light - the presence of my guides. <br />
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At this point I was very connected to God - times of great upheaval and uncertainty can do that to you! I feel that I received some Divine Love during this time (although I did not recognize it as such then). <br />
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Green is the energy of healing, teaching, endurance, balance, perseverance, self-esteem, and self-love. Blue is the colour of communication, unity, depth of feeling, peach, spiritual love and grace. During this phase of my life I was in need of healing - physically, emotionally and spiritually. I also needed a LOT of perseverance, endurance and balance to get through what we were experiencing. I was struggling with self-love and self-esteem. A LOT of communication at all levels was needed. it was the presence of God's Love and my guides that got me through this time of my life. Notice that the colours are somewhat dark and muted in may areas.<br />
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This next photo was taken on the <strong>16th August 2006</strong>. This was another very difficult year for us in lots of ways. It was the year John's younger brother died from pancreatic cancer, another brother was diagnosed with a malignant brain tumour, his mother was very sick at this stage with John and Tim alternately sleeping at the farm with her, three young friends died tragically and we closed the family dairy after over 90years. </div>
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This next photo was taken on the <strong>27th October 2008</strong>. Again there are a lot of holes in my aura leaving me open to spirit attack and I am clearly visible in the photo. The light blue above me shows that I am more connected to God and my guides at this stage but still in need of a lot of healing - still struggling with issues of self-love and self-esteem. Difficult family issues meant that strong communication was needed - particularly in voicing my opinions and standing up for myself. The green around my heart shows that a healing is coming in to this area. The interpretive data describes healing as being important for me right now and the blue indicates a good time to learn. About ten months later I was introduced to AJ Miller and Divine Truth and have been learning ever since!</div>
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This final photo was taken on <strong>29th January 2014</strong>. I have been following the teachings of AJ and practicing Divine Truth (amidst much resistance) for four and a half years. </div>
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You will notice that the colours in this photo are much clearer, sharper and brighter and the outer boarder is much more well defined. The outer colour is Indigo witch represents universal nature, awareness of truth, clairvoyance, unlimited knowledge, deeply spiritual. </div>
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There is a LOT more light in this photo indicating the presence of God's Love and of my Guides. </div>
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There is also a lot more pink in this photo which is the colour of passion, sensitivity, softness, compassion, love and unconditional love. At this point I am opening up more and more to my true soul desires and beginning to ACT upon them. </div>
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There are much fewer holes in my aura and I am much more protected by my guides and God's Love. </div>
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The reason I wanted to share these with you is because so many people have doubts about the transformative powers of Divine Love. Most of the people in my immediate circle do not understand the healing benefits of personal responsibility and allowing the full expression of <strong>all </strong>of our emotions - particularly the difficult, dark emotions. They do not understand when I say that I am working through a particular emotion and wonder what I am on about. Outwardly they do not SEE any difference. My physical condition has not changed much although I can notice subtle changes in my body and in the way I perceive my world and myself. </div>
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When I shared this latest photo with John and then showed him the previous three - the ones before finding the Way to God - he was confronted. Here was the evidence that he had been looking for. He has watched and supported me on this journey for the past four and a half years not really understanding what I was going through, but at a soul level knowing that things were changing, that I was growing. Our relationship has grown enormously in that time but he could not understand why. He only knew that I often confronted him - so on some level he has grown too. And that is a good thing for us both.</div>
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I would like to encourage you all to go and have an aura photo taken and to record if you can the verbal interpretation of the photo - it will show you lots about your soul condition right now. </div>
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Walking the Way back to God is confronting and challenging and for me often brings up many doubts - Am I growing? Am I deceiving myself? Am I changing at the soul level? Am I doing this right? Having this record shows me that since beginning on the Way back to God I have changed. I have grown and my guides are with me - even if I still have a LOT of blocks to communicating freely with them. They are there. It is up to me to find a way to overcome these blocks and open my soul to clearer communication with God and my guides.</div>
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I wish you all well on your respective journeys and pray that you may find a way to walk with God as that really is the most transformative and rewarding way to live this life.</div>
<br />Lindahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06239949170313951993noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-255620325991409496.post-66447038071069093112014-02-08T12:03:00.001+10:002015-11-28T19:13:12.736+10:00Some Personal RemindersWhile cleaning out the office today I came across a copy of a couple of prayers that I would like to share here. They are particularly relevant to me and I suspect to just about everyone on the planet.<br />
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<em>I am a child of God. I am precious. I am loved.</em><br />
<em>I didn't earn it and I can't lose it.</em><br />
<em>It is God's gift to me.</em><br />
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<em>Before my parents knew I was 'on the way'</em><br />
<em>God created pathways for me to walk in.</em><br />
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<em>No one can live my life the way I can.</em><br />
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<em>God has preserved my life for me</em><br />
<em>and wants me to walk freely in it.</em><br />
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<em>I was not created to be a replacement for anyone else.</em><br />
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<em>I am ... because God destined me to be.</em><br />
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I feel that I have known for a very long time that I am God's child, I certainly knew that my 'children' were God's children and this made it easy for me to let them go, to be free to explore their world without a heap of projections form me about 'being safe'; I always knew <span style="font-family: "times new roman" , "serif"; font-size: 12pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-AU; mso-bidi-font-size: 11.0pt; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-bidi-theme-font: minor-bidi; mso-fareast-font-family: Calibri; mso-fareast-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-latin;">(well, mostly always,
sometimes I did let me fear override this knowing) </span>that God would protect them. Why then do I still struggle to know that <em><strong>I</strong> am precious, <strong>I </strong>am loved</em>? It has been a long hard road to get to the point of learning to accept this truth but doubt still creeps in from time to time which allows darker spirits to manipulate and control me as they play upon this doubt. <br />
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<em>I didn't earn it and I can't lose it. It is God's gift to me.</em> But in order to receive this gift I must activate my soul's longings for love and ask God to give it to me. God will always honour our free will and will never impose upon us anything that is not asked for. In my next post I'll show HOW God's Love can and does change our souls. But the key here is using our free will to activate or souls and ask for God's Love; and to continue to ask for God's Love as long as we exist. God's Love is abundant and infinite, we just need to learn how to tap into it remembering that Love is an emotion that must be felt and it can only enter us when error leaves. Love and error cannot co-exist. When error leaves, Love can enter; and error leaving is painful so in order to receive abundant qualities of God's Love we must be willing to feel and release our errors so that God's Love can heal us and make us whole. Receiving God's Love is an <strong>emotional transaction</strong> between God and any one of Her children. But we must <strong>ask</strong> in order to receive.<br />
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<em>My life is not a mistake.</em><br />
<em>God made me out of the love that He is.</em><br />
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<em>He called me into being at the right time</em><br />
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<em>He prepared a way for me.</em><br />
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<em>I am a privilege, not a burden;</em><br />
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<em>A joy and delight, not a disappointment;</em><br />
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<em>I am not an intrusion, I belong.</em><br />
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<em>I am a treasure just because I am, </em><br />
<em>not merely for what I can do.</em><br />
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<em>I am one of Mother God's own children</em><br />
<em>and She delights in me.</em><br />
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This prayer in particular resonates very strongly with me. <br />
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So often in my childhood I felt that maybe I was a mistake - I did not feel loved. I often felt like a burden, especially when I pushed my parents' buttons and they did not want to feel whatever it was that I was triggering in them. Instead, like most people, they dismissed their emotions and projected blame onto me. They didn't just do this with me but with all of my siblings and other kids as well - sometimes with other adults.
And I have done this with my own and others' children.<o:p></o:p><br />
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Too often in my childhood I felt that I was an intrusion; "children should be seen and not heard" was the old adage that I was brought up with. And we were dismissed when we deemed to be a nuisance or our parents were entertaining adult friends - kids were a nuisance at these time - Not always, but often.<span style="font-family: "times new roman" , "serif"; font-size: 12pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-AU; mso-bidi-font-size: 11.0pt; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-bidi-theme-font: minor-bidi; mso-fareast-font-family: Calibri; mso-fareast-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-latin;">Unless we are willing
to challenge the accepted wisdom and rattle the status quo we end up repeating
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perceptions of proper parenting I have made many of the same mistakes.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>My only recourse now is to feel what that
felt like for me as well as for those I have hurt, to ask for God's forgiveness,
mercy and Love and pray that my children will do a better job than I have done.<br />
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As I work my way very slowly through all of my childhood injuries I am slowly learning that I actually am a treasure - I am a child of God, <em>'the greatest of Her creation and the object of Her Love and tenderest care</em>'*. I don't know that I ever felt like that from my birth parents and this is possibly the hardest truth for me to face, along with knowing that I am <em>'not the sinful, subservient and depraved creature that false teachers would have me to believe</em>'*. This truth was so heavily masked through my parents projections, the projections of the world around me and in particular through the teachings of the Catholic Church. I was taught that I was born a sinner when the truth is that I was created perfect in God's image and heavily tarnished by the unloving behaviours, attitudes and false beliefs of those around me from the moment of conception. I learnt to earn love through my actions; it was never enough to just be me. In fact being just me was very triggering for the adults in my world, especially my parents and I quickly learnt how NOT to be me and instead to be the person who would please the adults in my world (to be my façade) and thus get their affection (if I was lucky!).<br />
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<em>'I am one of Mother God's own children and She delights in me'</em>. Yes, ... well ... there is a LOT that I still have to feel here.<strong> <em>I am one of Mother God's own children and She delights in me - and in you too!</em></strong><br />
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<strong><em>* excerpts from the prayer for Divine Love - see post February 4th 2012</em></strong><br />
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<br />Lindahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06239949170313951993noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-255620325991409496.post-56826524359194497582014-01-14T21:03:00.003+10:002015-11-28T19:14:59.974+10:00Resistance to HumilityI seriously can't believe that it has been four months since I last wrote! Apparently I am still in huge resistance to humility. So today I thought I would write about resistance to humility from a personal perspective.<br />
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Why do I resist humility? Well the simple answer is FEAR! This might seem extreme but when being truly humble means that you are willing to fully feel all of your emotions as they arise, no matter where you are or who you are with, you can see how easy it could be to allow fear to dominate and shut down your true soul's desires! <br />
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For me personally my greatest fear is fear of judgement, ridicule, condemnation and banishment. What will people think if something they say or do brings to the surface something that makes me angry? How will they respond if I excuse myself mid conversation and start screaming or bashing something or throw a tantrum like I was two years old? Seriously, how would you feel if someone did that to you?<br />
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What if this emotion comes up when I am in a shopping centre? Will they think I am mad and call the police?<br />
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Now, my experience has been that unless you are aware of the teachings of Divine Truth <a href="http://www.divinetruth.com/">www.divinetruth.com</a> you will likely be confronted by such behaviour and have some judgement of it. And unless you are willing to feel that, you will be projecting your denied emotions back onto the person who is allowing the expression of their emotion. And unless they are very grounded in Truth there is a high likelihood that that person will stop feeling what they need to feel in order to feel safe.<br />
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It is rare for me to allow the expression of anger as it arises when in public, mostly because I am afraid of judgement, ridicule, criticism and condemnation. But what this really means is that I do not yet fully trust that God has my back. That God will protect me and that God's Love and approval is all that I really need. And that I already have that. This is a childhood fear resulting from the lack of approval from my parents when I was a child and their constant demands and projections that I be or do as they want me to in order to help them avoid their own emotions, their own fears. <br />
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This was not always the case - there were times when I did gain their approval but that was mostly when I was being or doing whatever made them happy. In short, I was not allowed to be my real self most of the time and quickly learnt to modify my behaviour and personality to suit them. And this has caused much grief within me - I feel that I am not good enough. I have spent most of my life afraid to be my real self. And so it makes sense that now that I want to challenge these errors within my soul that fear will arise whenever I attempt to be my real self - to feel what I am really feeling. It brings back childhood memories and fears that I must now work through if I ever want to be free of these errors and learn to be my authentic self - the me that God created.<br />
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I am getting better at allowing the expression of fear, shame or grief to surface when I am with others but far too often I do not remove myself in order to allow the full expression of the emotion without harming another person. I allow myself to touch upon and acknowledge the emotion but too often I prevent its full expression. But I rarely allow the expression of anger when I am in public or even when I am within earshot of others.<br />
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Why is this?<br />
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Well, if I am to be honest I would say that I still feel responsible for the emotions of others around me. What if, by feeling my emotions, someone else felt bad about themselves? This is an irrational fear I know - I am not responsible for anyone else's emotions unless they are my children. I might trigger something in someone else that makes them feel bad, sad, angry, ashamed, fearful - but I did not create that emotion in them - I am not responsible for their emotions. <br />
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Why then do I so often feel responsible? The real truth of this is that I was made to feel responsible for the emotions of the adults in my world when I was a small child - especially for my parents emotions. I had a job to do as a child (as most children do) and that was to make my parents feel better about themselves. I did this to my own children and am now finding that following the maze of emotions back to their original cause is difficult and often confronting - especially when I am with others. I am also experiencing great remorse as I feel how damaging this was to my child-self and how damaging it has been to my own children.<br />
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Allowing myself to be truly humble is especially confronting when I am with people who do not want to feel their own emotions - who still want me to make them feel better about themselves and help them to avoid their own pain. But this is not my job - it never has been my job as far as God is concerned. From God's perspective we are each responsible for every emotion within us regardless of how the error got there.<br />
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At this point it may be useful for me to explain a little about emotions and how they enter us. From the moment of conception the pristine soul, which is extremely sensitive, begins to absorb the emotions of its environment. This is the system that God designed for us to be able to come to know ourselves, through our emotions. This means that we begin to absorb everything - from our parents denied emotions, to their expressed emotions (good and bad), as well as the emotions of every person they/we come in contact with, and the prevailing societal emotions in the area we are brought up in. When a person denies their emotions they automatically project that emotion back into its environment. This is why I can be personally responsible for or have a part in the creation of negative world events. I am a part of this world therefore I contribute to the overall health or dis-ease of the world through my emotions - both good and bad. Now many people will feel that this is a little far fetched but if you allow yourself to really feel into this you will soon see the logic of this system. Science has already proven this (the butterfly effect) <a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Butterfly_effect">http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Butterfly_effect</a> <br />
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So emotions enter us from the moment of conception and continue to do so throughout our formative years. Most emotional errors enter us by the time we are seven or eight years of age and often effect our personalities. From about seven or eight we begin to make decisions for ourselves and by the time we are teenagers we are capable of making decisions independent of our parents. In fact we are capable of this at a much younger age but far too often we are not given the opportunity to do so. It is the decisions that we make based upon the emotions within us that create further damage to our souls or help us to grow in love. Regardless of how an emotion entered me I am the only person who can release it. I must be personally responsible for myself. There is no magic wand. <br />
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Emotion is in effect energy in motion. It is a feeling and negative emotions can only be released from our souls through allowing ourselves to feel them.<br />
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This is where humility comes in. And this is where fear so often prevents us from being truly humble. And the definition of humility that I am using is the ability to feel all of our emotions as they arise, to be our true authentic selves - not our façade self (the self we present to the world in order to feel loved and accepted).<br />
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So, getting back to resistance to humility - I have already mentioned that fear plays a large part in resistance to humility and for me it is the most important reason why I resist true humility. And fear, like any other emotion, is energy in motion and the only way I can overcome fear at the soul level is to feel it. This means that I will need to learn to allow myself to shake and to breathe deeply and diaphragmatically whenever I confront fear. I want to learn to do this more openly and honestly. <br />
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I want to challenge my fears as this is the only way that I will ever learn to be truly humble. So if you ever seem me shaking in public please, just allow me to feel my fear. I do not always know what it will be about but when I allow myself to get past the fear to the grief I will always learn the truth - the emotion tells me the truth as long as I do not try to control it or second-guess it (and this is another challenge with humility - allowing - trusting). And if I suddenly excuse myself and walk away and you hear me yelling or bashing - please - be grateful that I am not projecting my anger onto you and that I am allowing myself to be my authentic self. And if you need to, allow yourself to feel whatever you need to feel also without blame. This is self-responsibility. This is love in action. This is Humility.<br />
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<br />Lindahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06239949170313951993noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-255620325991409496.post-26729119112087030492013-09-06T12:08:00.000+10:002015-11-28T19:16:23.544+10:00Building Harmony With HumilityWell, once again it has been a while since I have written. I have been away for a couple of weeks and boy did that trip highlight how much I still have to learn about humility! I have been in such denial of my soul over the past couple of months really and this trip really helped me to see that.<br />
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I am so very grateful that God's Love never wavers and is always waiting for us to open our soul's to its reception through our desire. This past week I have been slowly letting go of resistance and endeavouring to allow myself to sink more comfortably into God-reliance. So much resistance in me means that it is a slow process.<br />
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Today I would like to share with you a message from the Judas Channellings on Humility. It has helped me greatly to 'get back on track' (so to speak). I hope it is of benefit to you also.<br />
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<a href="http://www.blogger.com/null" name="_Toc145753504"><span lang="EN-US"><em><span style="font-size: small;">Building Harmony With Humility</span></em></span></a><span lang="EN-US"><o:p></o:p></span></h2>
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<span lang="EN-US">January 14th, 2002<o:p></o:p></span></div>
<span lang="EN-US">Received by H.R.<o:p></o:p></span><br />
<st1:place w:st="on"><st1:city w:st="on"><span lang="EN-US">Cuenca</span></st1:city><span lang="EN-US">, <st1:country-region w:st="on">Ecuador</st1:country-region></span></st1:place><span lang="EN-US">.<o:p></o:p></span><br />
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<span lang="EN-US">Hello H___, I see that you do not feel so
well today. But allow me to give you some advice. <o:p></o:p></span><br />
<span lang="EN-US">After Jesus’ death, the new church, which
in fact was not a church as you understand it today, spread all over the Roman
Empire, and even beyond its limits, towards Mesopotamia and <st1:country-region w:st="on"><st1:place w:st="on">India</st1:place></st1:country-region>. In the
big cities, communities formed of more or less influence in society, and their
leaders were recognized by the faithful ones as the new apostles, messengers of
the Glad Tidings. </span><br />
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<span lang="EN-US">These leaders, unfortunately, very soon
fought between themselves, in a fight for power. And I am not necessarily
referring to political power, but there were many disputes over who was right.
This was a very lamentable, but also a very human development. Because in human
movements, somebody has to decide where to go. </span></div>
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<span lang="EN-US">Now, when you have the impression that this
is repeating, although your movement has not spread so spectacularly over the
face of the earth, it is necessary to meditate and to not commit the same
mistakes that have already been made once. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
<span lang="EN-US">You have to learn how to control yourself
and to try to lose your great pride. On many occasions we have pointed out
that, in fact, humility is one of the most important characteristics that
distinguish people who seek the Father's Love. Emotional outbreaks, as you
showed recently, don't fit into the harmony amongst people, who are supposed to
work together. <o:p></o:p></span><br />
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<span lang="EN-US">Instead of exploding and creating an open
conflict, you could say, “I respect your ideas, but I don't agree with
them." It is so simple. With that, you don't hurt anybody. <o:p></o:p></span><br />
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<span lang="EN-US">I believe that you understand that humility
does not mean weakness. Be humble but firm, firm in your decisions and in your
objectives. You are receiving guidance through us, as anyone may receive
guidance through us. After all, we are but guides, you decide your destination,
which is at-onement with God through His Love, and we try to guide you along
the safest and most efficient road. You are the captain of your ship of life; I
am your pilot, guiding your ship safely to the harbor of its destination. Also
in your efforts for spreading the message of Love, we try to give you our
advice. How can you spread a message of Love, if you are not capable of
manifesting love in front of your neighbours? <o:p></o:p></span></div>
<span lang="EN-US">Humility is strength, provided it is
accompanied by steadfastness. And you can only have steadfastness, when you
have faith, that is to say, the certain knowledge that what you are doing is
the correct thing. <o:p></o:p></span><br />
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<span lang="EN-US">You remember that we once talked about the
quarrel between the disciples over who was the first. None of them was prepared
to assume a slave's work, preparing water and washing the others’ feet. Jesus
did it. That is humility. Seeing how little his disciples understood of what he
was preaching still did not lead him to give up his efforts to fulfil the
Heavenly Father's Will. Even seeing the risk he ran did not lead him to abandon
his mission and to seek less dangerous roads. This is what I call
steadfastness. <o:p></o:p></span><br />
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<span lang="EN-US">What actually distinguishes a great soul,
are the qualities of love, humility and steadfastness. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
<span lang="EN-US">Collaborate in everything, where you feel
the impulse to collaborate. If something displeases you, say so immediately,
and so you will avoid future confrontations. <o:p></o:p></span><br />
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<span lang="EN-US">This is all for today. It is a simple
advice. Be firm in your decisions, be generous with others, and whatever you
do, do it with love. If you cannot put your love in some action, let it go. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-US">Your brother in Heaven, <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-US">Judas <o:p></o:p></span></div>
Lindahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06239949170313951993noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-255620325991409496.post-67833770740218811102013-07-31T18:41:00.002+10:002015-11-28T19:27:45.944+10:00Lessons in Humility - part 3<br />
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This past month has been particularly challenging for me - lots of emotions have been wanting to surface and I have not been very humble with this process. Far too often I have not allowed the full expression of the emotions and have probably been wasting a lot of time - this is not humility. Today I realized that I have been allowing myself to be a slave to my fear and this is where I now need to start - but that's another post. Here is the long awaited third part to lessons in humility. Hopefully it will not be so long before part four gets posted.</div>
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Humility Session 3 – Humility in Practice<o:p> </o:p></div>
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<!--[if !supportLists]--><span style="mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";"><span style="mso-list: Ignore;">1.<span style="font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font: 7pt/normal "Times New Roman";">
</span></span></span><!--[endif]-->Humility is the doorway to Truth.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>The truths that we do not accept are the most
difficult to work through.</div>
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<span style="color: #2f5496; mso-themecolor: accent5; mso-themeshade: 191;">The past month has seen me skirt around this truth and
therefore I have not been very humble.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I
have been avoiding God’s Truth on many issues and pretending to be better than
I really am.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>As I write this now I feel
a sense of shame creeping in.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I am a fraud!<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But while I have been avoiding many truths in
the past month I have to be careful that I do not revert to the old pattern of
blaming or belittling myself.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I need to
remind myself, yet again, that there is nothing that I can do that God cannot
forgive and I need to have some compassion for myself – something that I am
still learning to do. </span><span style="color: black; mso-themecolor: text1;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
<span style="color: black; mso-themecolor: text1;"><o:p></o:p></span><br />
<div class="MsoListParagraph" style="margin: 0cm 0cm 0pt 18pt; mso-add-space: auto; mso-list: l0 level1 lfo1; text-indent: -18pt;">
<!--[if !supportLists]--><span style="color: black; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-themecolor: text1;"><span style="mso-list: Ignore;">2.<span style="font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font: 7pt/normal "Times New Roman";"> </span></span></span><!--[endif]--><span style="color: black; mso-themecolor: text1;">Humility is a willingness to be
overwhelmed by your own emotions and by God.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>It is an openness to God’s Truth and Love.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It begins with opening your heart to yourself
first and then opening your heart to God’s emotions – allowing yourself to
become overwhelmed.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="color: #2f5496; mso-themecolor: accent5; mso-themeshade: 191;">The thing I struggle with most here is opening my heart to
myself – having compassion for my injured self and not berating myself when I
do not get it ‘right’!<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>There have been
times when I have been able to do this and as a result I have been able to
connect to God’s emotions and allow the overwhelm to embrace me.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>There are still far too many times when I
resist humility, mostly out of fear of judgement and/or ridicule.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I am holding onto this emotion rather than
allowing it to be released.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Why?<o:p></o:p></span></div>
<span style="color: #2f5496; mso-themecolor: accent5; mso-themeshade: 191;"><o:p></o:p></span><br />
<div class="MsoListParagraph" style="margin: 0cm 0cm 0pt 18pt; mso-add-space: auto; mso-list: l0 level1 lfo1; text-indent: -18pt;">
<!--[if !supportLists]--><span style="color: black; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-themecolor: text1;"><span style="mso-list: Ignore;">3.<span style="font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font: 7pt/normal "Times New Roman";"> </span></span></span><!--[endif]--><span style="color: black; mso-themecolor: text1;">Humility is self-awareness.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It is not a false sense of being lower than
others and it is a willingness to see yourself as you really are – as God sees
you. Humility accepts that God knows everything and is willing to discover what
God knows. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="color: #2f5496; mso-themecolor: accent5; mso-themeshade: 191;">As I go through these points that I have noted from this
discussion I realize that I have a very long way to go before I become truly
humble. The truth is that far too much of the time I do feel that I am less
that others – I am not worthy of God’s Love and in this state God connot
connect to me because I am not being in truth.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>If I was being truly humble I would allow these feelings of unworthiness
to bubble forth out of my soul and allow God’s Truth to enter – that I am the
greatest of Her Creation and the most wonderful of Her handiworks and the
object of Her great Love and tender care. But I would still rather hold onto
the false belief that I am less than and as long as I hold onto that I can
never become truly humble.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>If I am
willing to see myself as God truly sees me I would accept that I am powerful
beyond measure and capable of greatness – we all are.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But I still fight what God wants me to see
and feel.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I am not very humble at all
and my willingness to discover what God knows is still very tentative and
uncertain.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Actually a better word would
be resistive. And resistance indicates a lack of humility.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
<span style="color: #2f5496; mso-themecolor: accent5; mso-themeshade: 191;"><o:p></o:p></span><br />
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<!--[if !supportLists]--><span style="color: black; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-themecolor: text1;"><span style="mso-list: Ignore;">4.<span style="font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font: 7pt/normal "Times New Roman";"> </span></span></span><!--[endif]--><span style="color: black; mso-themecolor: text1;">There is a HUGE emotion of
condemnation of being wrong on the planet and condemnation of another is a lack
of humility.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Humility does not impose
its own emotions onto others; it understands (<i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">and has compassion</i>).<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="color: #2f5496; mso-themecolor: accent5; mso-themeshade: 191;">This is a big emotion for me – fear of being wrong. And so
far I have not been willing to really challenge this emotion – if I had been it
would not hold such power over me as it does.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Consequently, I occasionally find myself judging others but much more
often, judging myself.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And this is not
humility either – it is fear!<o:p></o:p></span></div>
<span style="color: #2f5496; mso-themecolor: accent5; mso-themeshade: 191;"><o:p></o:p></span><br />
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<!--[if !supportLists]--><span style="color: black; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-themecolor: text1;"><span style="mso-list: Ignore;">5.<span style="font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font: 7pt/normal "Times New Roman";"> </span></span></span><!--[endif]--><span style="color: black; mso-themecolor: text1;">You need to consciously desire to connect
to your own soul and desire wholeheartedly to experience all emotions all the
time.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="color: #2f5496; mso-themecolor: accent5; mso-themeshade: 191;">While I feel that I do consciously desire to connect to my
own soul I do not desire wholeheartedly to experience all my emotions as they
arise.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>If I did I would not be so
resistive to God’s truth and I would not honour fear.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>The question then is – how do I cultivate
this desire to wholeheartedly feel all of my emotions as they arise?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I feel that faith and prayer are the answers
here as well as consciously activating my own will in this regard.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
<span style="color: #2f5496; mso-themecolor: accent5; mso-themeshade: 191;"><o:p></o:p></span><br />
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responsibility for my own error without reservation.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Only I can feel my pain no matter how it got
in me.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Humility is a choice to grow in
love.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="color: #2f5496; mso-themecolor: accent5; mso-themeshade: 191;">I feel that this is one area of humility that I am OK
at.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I accept that only I can feel my own
pain and I have come to learn that it is the choices that I have made over my
lifetime that have enhanced the errors.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>I have always had free will but I have not always used that will in a
loving way.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>The movie “August Rush”
really helped me to understand this.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
<span style="color: #2f5496; mso-themecolor: accent5; mso-themeshade: 191;"><o:p></o:p></span><br />
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fear of humiliation – investment in the opinions of others – needing nice
feelings from others.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Deal with these
emotions first.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="color: #2f5496; mso-themecolor: accent5; mso-themeshade: 191;">Fear of humiliation – check; investment in the opinions of
others – check; needing nice feelings from others – check!<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Crap!!!<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Fear of humiliation is a big one for me – all those school assemblies
being hauled out in front of the whole school and being ridiculed because I
‘did something wrong’!<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>What was that all
about and how could it possibly instil more loving behaviour in others?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Consequently this emotion piggybacks into the
others – if others think I am OK I’ll avoid humiliation and they’ll like
me.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>This has been my whole life – seeking
the approval of others, avoiding humiliation and in the process I have lost
sight of my real self which makes it much more difficult now to reconnect with
the me that God created because the façade self has become so powerful.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And I now have to wade through this mountain
of façade in order to become truly humble.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Fortunately God is patient and compassionate – something I am slowly
learning to be with myself.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
<span style="color: #2f5496; mso-themecolor: accent5; mso-themeshade: 191;"><o:p></o:p></span><br />
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<!--[if !supportLists]--><span style="color: black; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-themecolor: text1;"><span style="mso-list: Ignore;">8.<span style="font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font: 7pt/normal "Times New Roman";"> </span></span></span><!--[endif]--><span style="color: black; mso-themecolor: text1;">The Law of Attraction shows the way –
pay attention and choose to act.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="color: #2f5496; mso-themecolor: accent5; mso-themeshade: 191;">While I am getting better at noticing what the Law of
Attraction is showing me I am still very slow in recognizing it.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It is often not until several minutes (on a
good day), hours or even days before I recognize what God was trying to show
me.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But I am learning to reflect more
and trying not to berate myself for being slow and I find that when the penny
does drop I am allowing the connection to the truth much more easily – so
that’s progress I guess!<o:p></o:p></span></div>
<span style="color: #2f5496; mso-themecolor: accent5; mso-themeshade: 191;"><o:p></o:p></span><br />
<div class="MsoListParagraph" style="margin: 0cm 0cm 0pt 18pt; mso-add-space: auto; mso-list: l0 level1 lfo1; text-indent: -18pt;">
<!--[if !supportLists]--><span style="color: black; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-themecolor: text1;"><span style="mso-list: Ignore;">9.<span style="font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font: 7pt/normal "Times New Roman";"> </span></span></span><!--[endif]--><span style="color: black; mso-themecolor: text1;">Humility is seeing yourself as you
really are and be willing to take responsibility for that.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It is a willingness to feel your own damage
and a willingness to be your real self in public.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>True humility is not involved in lying,
deceit or façade.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="color: #2f5496; mso-themecolor: accent5; mso-themeshade: 191;">I can see how I have grown in this area and find that I am
becoming much more real with myself and God most of the time (not all the time
though). It is becoming easier to be my real self in public although there are
still a few people who I guard my real self from. And it is becoming easier to
be truthful with most people but I do still occasionally catch myself avoiding
truth and if I can I attempt to correct that.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
<span style="color: #2f5496; mso-themecolor: accent5; mso-themeshade: 191;"><o:p></o:p></span><br />
<div class="MsoListParagraph" style="margin: 0cm 0cm 0pt 18pt; mso-add-space: auto; mso-list: l0 level1 lfo1; text-indent: -18pt;">
<!--[if !supportLists]--><span style="color: black; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-themecolor: text1;"><span style="mso-list: Ignore;">10.<span style="font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font: 7pt/normal "Times New Roman";"> </span></span></span><!--[endif]--><span style="color: black; mso-themecolor: text1;">You need to look at the fears below
the addiction.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Step 1 – identify the
addiction and reflect; Step 2 - identify the fears below the addiction; Step 3
– embrace the steps for discovering the truth.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="color: #2f5496; mso-themecolor: accent5; mso-themeshade: 191;">Facing fear is something I have a LOT of trouble with which
makes this process difficult for me to engage. Consequently I do not always
identify the addiction – mostly I want to hold onto the addiction because it
feels familiar and comfortable, even rewarding.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>But fear is the biggest cause of disharmony on this planet and if I am
to have any hope of helping this earth to become a more loving place then I
need to confront my fears.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I am getting
better at this – with some fears.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Time
to challenge ALL fears.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
<span style="color: #2f5496; mso-themecolor: accent5; mso-themeshade: 191;"><o:p></o:p></span><br />
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<!--[if !supportLists]--><span style="color: black; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-themecolor: text1;"><span style="mso-list: Ignore;">11.<span style="font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font: 7pt/normal "Times New Roman";"> </span></span></span><!--[endif]--><span style="color: black; mso-themecolor: text1;"><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Humility means working with the resources in
your own location to create abundance. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="color: #2f5496; mso-themecolor: accent5; mso-themeshade: 191;">So I guess this means becoming truly God-reliant.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Allowing God to show me what gifts He has
provided for us in my local area and how these gifts can be used for the
benefit of all.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I am a long way from
stepping into this at the moment – I have so many fears still of making a fatal
mistake.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
<span style="color: #2f5496; mso-themecolor: accent5; mso-themeshade: 191;"><o:p></o:p></span><br />
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<!--[if !supportLists]--><span style="color: black; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-themecolor: text1;"><span style="mso-list: Ignore;">12.<span style="font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font: 7pt/normal "Times New Roman";"> </span></span></span><!--[endif]--><span style="color: black; mso-themecolor: text1;">How do I contribute to the oppression
of poorer peoples or nations? <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="color: #2f5496; mso-themecolor: accent5; mso-themeshade: 191;">If I am being totally honest here I would have to admit
that by pandering to my fears of lack of abundance and therefore creating much
more waste than is necessary I am contributing to the oppression of the poor.
This is a fear that I am still unwilling to face/challenge.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Why is this?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>What am I afraid of? Purchasing goods that are cheap but not ethical
also contributes to the oppression of others and I have been guilty of this
also – fear of lack – again.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I really
need to look at this.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
<span style="color: #2f5496; mso-themecolor: accent5; mso-themeshade: 191;"><o:p></o:p></span><br />
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<!--[if !supportLists]--><span style="color: black; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-themecolor: text1;"><span style="mso-list: Ignore;">13.<span style="font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font: 7pt/normal "Times New Roman";"> </span></span></span><!--[endif]--><span style="color: black; mso-themecolor: text1;">God helps us constantly through the
Law of Attraction, other people, animals (reflect our soul condition) and all
creation (reflect our collective soul condition).<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>When we are willing to be truthfully taught
by God we will have no emotional resistance and an openness to emotional
communication with God and others.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="color: #2f5496; mso-themecolor: accent5; mso-themeshade: 191;">As I am going over these notes I realize just how far I
have to go to becoming truly humble.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Far
too often I disregard, ignore of just miss what the LoA is telling me and I am
still unwilling to feel what our domestic pets are telling me and I have a
tendency to blame everyone else for unfavourable weather conditions – its not
my fault – its everyone else who needs to get their act together – what
arrogance!!! CRAP!<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I still have so much
to learn about humility!<o:p></o:p></span></div>
<span style="color: #2f5496; mso-themecolor: accent5; mso-themeshade: 191;"><o:p></o:p></span><br />
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<!--[if !supportLists]--><span style="color: black; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-themecolor: text1;"><span style="mso-list: Ignore;">14.<span style="font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font: 7pt/normal "Times New Roman";"> </span></span></span><!--[endif]--><span style="color: black; mso-themecolor: text1;">My actions are a reflection of my true
soul condition and demonstrate where I am out of harmony with Love and
Truth.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>If I am truly living in my
damaged self (as opposed to my façade self) I will see where and why I am not
humble AND be willing to address the reasons why.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I will work through the blocks that I have to
truth.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="color: #2f5496; mso-themecolor: accent5; mso-themeshade: 191;">I guess if I am being truly honest I would have to admit
that at least half of the time my actions are out of harmony with truth and
love and are based upon addiction – probably more than this.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But I do strive to live in my damaged self
and be real with everyone around me no matter how challenging that might be – I
am not always successful but can usually see upon reflection how I have failed
in this area and can then pray about this.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Lately I have been really struggling with working through my blocks to
humility and am realizing that it is because I have not been truthful with
myself with what is really going on.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I
had a big realization about this today and as a result I was able to connect
with my guides and gain some truth that I am still to work fully through – but
it is a start.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>What I have found is that
God ALWAYS helps me when I am in truth – if I feel that God is not helping me
than I have only to look at myself and the resistance I have to truth and
sincerely pray about that – God always comes through for me.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
<span style="color: black; mso-themecolor: text1;"><o:p></o:p></span><br />
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you have learnt.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="color: #2f5496; mso-themecolor: accent5; mso-themeshade: 191;">So – how do I do this? Do I do this? Challenging my fears
more consistently.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Learning to step into
God-reliance. Being truthful with myself and others as much as possible and
correcting my mistakes when I recognize them. Learning to put my relationship
with God above all other relationships and feeling the fear that that brings
up, especially when I put God and myself before family. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
<span style="color: #2f5496; mso-themecolor: accent5; mso-themeshade: 191;"><o:p></o:p></span><br />
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guides.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It is developing a longing for
feedback from more loving people and it embraces truth.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Am I willing to be refined by God?<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="color: #2f5496; mso-themecolor: accent5; mso-themeshade: 191;">The thing I have the most difficulty with here is
connecting with my guides and I am beginning to see that when I am out of
harmony with love and truth I block their connection and when I am truthful
with myself and God the connection is easier and clearer so this is a big indication
of my level of humility (or lack of it).<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>I do have a strong desire for truth and truthful feedback and am willing
to embrace truth as I have found it the fastest way to grow through the pain
and errors.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Intellectually I feel that I
am willing to be refined by God but my resistance to truth at times tells me
otherwise – this is a work in progress.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
<span style="color: #2f5496; mso-themecolor: accent5; mso-themeshade: 191;"><o:p></o:p></span><br />
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love no matter what the circumstances – even if it means that I risk losing
everything?<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="color: #2f5496; mso-themecolor: accent5; mso-themeshade: 191;">Honestly, I would have to say – not quite yet.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I have a lot of fear to work through to get
to this point but it is only in challenging the fear that I will get
there.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>What is stopping me? Fear?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Then it becomes a vicious cycle doesn’t
it?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I am learning that fear is the
biggest impediment that I have to true humility and fear prevents me from
trusting God – I am making fear my god and that has to stop.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Courage and faith will lead me to Humility
and prayer will lead me to courage and faith.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Please God, help me to overcome all the resistance that I have to true
humility.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Teach me to love.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
Lindahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06239949170313951993noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-255620325991409496.post-75816091062982518812013-06-28T13:12:00.001+10:002015-11-28T20:42:59.366+10:00SoulmatesAfter talking to Dave the other day my soul was open to
soulmate love and when reflecting and praying the following day I was able to
tap into this enormous soul love that I feel for my beautiful soulmate.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><br />
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So many people are struggling to identify their soulmates
and yet, for some reason, I have had the privilege of living with my soulmate
for the past 32 years.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Now don't get me
wrong, just because I have lived with my soulmate for this length of time
doesn't mean our relationship has been all peaches and cream.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Far from it!<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>It has been a roller coaster ride to match the scariest ride in the
world!!!<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>We have shared some amazing
highs and some soul-destroying lows over that time.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But the thing that has kept us together
through all of this is our willingness to look honestly at what is going on in
the relationship and want to fix it.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></div>
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There have been several times in the past 32 years that I
have wanted to leave, the pain I was feeling was too overwhelming, but this
incredible soul pull has allowed me to have the courage to ask "what is wrong
and how can we fix this?"<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></div>
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What I have noticed is that each time we drift apart there
is a huge ache in my heart and it has generally brought up lots of fear and
anger in me.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>BUT, when I have the
courage to confront the fear and we take the time to talk openly and honestly
about what is going on for each of us, we find ourselves in a much better place
– the next high.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And I can honestly say
that the highs are worth ten times the lows.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Our relationship is always better when we are in truth for it is truth
that allows us to really love each other unconditionally.<o:p></o:p></div>
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Since opening my soul more fully to God's Love and Truth I
have noticed a strengthening of our soulmate bond and a softening towards each
other.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>There is a growing desire, in me
anyway, to want to know my soulmate more fully.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>To want to understand him.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>To
want to share more openly and fully with him. To want to love him
unconditionally. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And to want to work
through the blocks in me that prevent our relationship from growing.<o:p></o:p></div>
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Some people have asked me "how do you KNOW that he is
your soulmate?'<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Well, this is not
easy.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>At some level I feel I have always
known that he is my soulmate but it is only since discovering <b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=38-9LUA_0rc&feature=youtu.be" target="_blank">Divine Truth</a></b> that I have understood
fully what that means.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>When we met I was
not in a very good place.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I was distant
and withdrawn from everyone around me for a week or so.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I was unsure where I was in my previous
relationship – had we broken up? I didn't know what was going on and I was
hurting.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I prayed a lot about this in
the weeks previous to meeting my soulmate.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>I wanted to know the truth. So when I found myself on a camping trip for
six weeks with him and when my friend Helen said "you know, John really
likes you" I began to feel about that.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>First there was denial.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Then lots
of questioning (internally).<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Then I
began to really look at who this man was – the essence of him – and I looked
beyond what he looked like (not particularly handsome), and what he did for a
living (then he was a truckie and I was a snob!). I looked closely at WHO he
was and what was in his heart.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And I
fell in love with him (in a matter of weeks I KNEW he was the one for me).<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I had learnt to listen to me heart.<o:p></o:p></div>
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Since discovering <b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><a href="http://www.divinetruth.com/" target="_blank">DivineTruth</a></b> I have begun to really open my soul to my soulmate and I have
encountered LOTS of resistance along the way.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>So much so that I have had spirits drop into my head that someone else
was my soulmate.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Because of my own
self-doubt and unworthiness I began to question if that was right.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>This other man was born in Trinidad, as I
was.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I had known him for most of my
life, we had lots in common.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But I
didn't feel anything special towards him.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Still the doubt lingered for almost a year and I felt myself withdrawing
from my soulmate in my confusion.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>As
time went on my confusion and doubt grew.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>I realized that in this state I was being very unloving to my
soulmate.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I had to know the truth. This
turmoil was now a raging tornado inside of me!<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>What would it mean if this other man was my soulmate?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Our relationship probably wouldn't survive
this. It would hurt so many people! What would it mean for me? I can't tell you
how great this anxiety was in me – lots and lots of fear! But I realized that
if I truly loved this man that I was living with, as I believed I did, then I
owed it to him (and to myself) to KNOW the truth even at the risk of loosing everything that I had.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Eventually knowing the Truth became more
important than holding onto my fear and with God's Grace I found the courage to
delve deep into the emotions that had been stirring in me. I went through the
full cycle of emotions – anger, shame, fear, doubt, rage, terror and buckets of
grief until at last God showed me the truth.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>As I purged doubt from my soul and opened to God's Truth the image of
this other man began to fade and the image of John grew clearer, brighter,
bigger and closer.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>More buckets of grief
followed as I sunk into God's loving embrace and rested in the relief of knowing
the Truth.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><o:p></o:p></div>
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And things changed in our relationship – it got better
(confirmation from God).<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><o:p></o:p></div>
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It is still a bit of a roller coaster ride but the lows are
not so dramatic now and it is easier to be in truth with each other. I guess
this will continue until we are both able to work through the errors that we
have that stop us loving each other perfectly.</div>
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What I noticed after the conversation with Dave was a huge
desire to know and love my soulmate more.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>And I found myself reflecting the next day on how I know that he is my
soulmate. Here is what I came up with.<o:p></o:p></div>
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<strong>My soulmate</strong>.<o:p></o:p></div>
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</span></span></span><!--[endif]-->I feel that he is the most beautiful man in the
world – ever!<o:p></o:p></div>
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</span></span></span><!--[endif]-->He touches my soul when he looks at me.<o:p></o:p></div>
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</span></span></span><!--[endif]-->He is totally accepting of me – warts and all.<o:p></o:p></div>
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</span></span></span><!--[endif]-->He wants to understand me.<o:p></o:p></div>
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</span></span></span><!--[endif]-->He allows me to be me even when that hurts him.<o:p></o:p></div>
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</span></span></span><!--[endif]-->He feels me.<o:p></o:p></div>
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</span></span></span><!--[endif]-->He supports me emotionally.<o:p></o:p></div>
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</span></span></span><!--[endif]-->He feels like me – like the part of me that is
missing.<o:p></o:p></div>
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</span></span></span><!--[endif]-->He wants me to be happy even if that means that
we need to spend some time apart.<o:p></o:p></div>
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</span></span></span><!--[endif]-->He trusts me implicitly. <o:p></o:p></div>
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</span></span></span><!--[endif]-->He makes my heart sing when I am near him or
when I think about him.<o:p></o:p></div>
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</span></span></span><!--[endif]-->Only God is more important to me than him and he
is a very close second.<o:p></o:p></div>
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</span></span></span><!--[endif]-->When I put my relationship with God before my
relationship with my soulmate it enhances my relationship with him.<o:p></o:p></div>
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</span></span></span><!--[endif]-->He loves me unconditionally.<o:p></o:p></div>
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</span></span></span><!--[endif]-->He is my soulmate.<o:p></o:p></div>
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</span></span></span><!--[endif]-->He is me.<o:p></o:p></div>
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I hope that this sharing has helped you in some way. I pray
that you will have the courage to trust God and KNOW who your soulmate is
because loving your soulmate is the second most important and beautiful
relationship you will ever have.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>The
first is your personal relationship with God, your Creator and most loving
Parent.</div>
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PS: Part Three on Humility is coming soon.<o:p></o:p></div>
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Lindahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06239949170313951993noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-255620325991409496.post-11868231979556686342013-06-04T13:25:00.000+10:002015-11-28T20:45:27.759+10:00Humility Interview 2 – Practical Aspects of Humility<br />
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There has been a lot going on over the past few weeks - my youngest daughter's wedding took precedence and brought with it much that I needed to feel, hence the delay in this next post on Humility. This is my reflections on the second <a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Je_WlNmPFUE&feature=youtu.be">Interview with Jesus and Mary on Humility</a>. </span></strong><br />
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<strong><span style="font-size: small;">In black you will find the notes I took during the talk and in green are my deeper and more personal reflections on those points. I hope this is of some benefit to you in your own journey towards love.</span><br />
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If you do not feel God's Love flowing into your heart it is
a sign that you are not humble or do not have a desire for God's love in that
moment.<o:p></o:p>
<span style="color: #538135; mso-themecolor: accent6; mso-themeshade: 191;">There are times when I feel God's Love flowing into my heart
but it is still not a moment by moment basis. At these times this Love is so
overwhelming I can't help but cry for the joy of receiving it.<o:p></o:p></span>
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Humility is the cornerstone of the Way to God and we don't
need anything else.<o:p></o:p></div>
<span style="color: #538135; mso-themecolor: accent6; mso-themeshade: 191;">This is why it is so important to develop humility.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Through humility I can grow my relationship
with God.<o:p></o:p></span>
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Judgement is a form of arrogance.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>How am I judging myself? How am I judging
others? Lack of judgement is a sign of growing humility.<o:p></o:p></div>
<span style="color: #538135; mso-themecolor: accent6; mso-themeshade: 191;">Judgement is something that I have struggled with a lot but
notice that I am becoming much less judgemental of others and of myself but it
is my relationship with myself that I still struggle with at times.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It is hard letting go of judgement when you
have had a lifetime of judgement projected at you – it almost seems 'normal'.<o:p></o:p></span>
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When I am invested in the opinions of others I am preventing
my connection with God.<o:p></o:p></div>
<span style="color: #538135; mso-themecolor: accent6; mso-themeshade: 191;">This is a big one for me and it is challenging learning to
let it go.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I have spent most of my life
seeking out the approval of others in order to feel some sort of self-worth so
to now be challenged to let this go is difficult and very confronting but I
want to know my real self so I have to let go of the opinions of others and
learn to trust God's opinion of me instead.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>It is a work in progress.<o:p></o:p></span>
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God only connects with me as I truly am. She cannot connect
with the façade. <o:p></o:p></div>
<span style="color: #538135; mso-themecolor: accent6; mso-themeshade: 191;">I feel that this is the most difficult task I have ever
undertaken – to find my real self, buried deep beneath the façade that has been
created to hide the pain. But I want this connection with God and it is slowly
becoming the greatest desire of my soul – slowly!<o:p></o:p></span>
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Humility = a wholehearted desire to feel all of my emotions
as they arise and leads to me making my relationship with God my first
priority.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Humility is a passionate
burning desire to feel without addiction. When I am truly humble my longing for
God will be stronger than my longing for any other experience and I will not be
invested in the opinions of others.<o:p></o:p></div>
<span style="color: #538135; mso-themecolor: accent6; mso-themeshade: 191;">I still struggle with this.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>There constantly seems to be some manufactured excuse why it is not
appropriate to feel my real self in any given situation.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But I am becoming more humble to my real self
and I am slowly, very slowly, learning to honour my soul and my relationship
with God.<o:p></o:p></span>
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When I avoid being humble I am in that moment worrying more
about my relationship with others or myself over my relationship with God. <span style="color: #538135; mso-themecolor: accent6; mso-themeshade: 191;">This is still
an issue for me but becoming less so.</span> Am I willing to lose everything in
order to have this relationship with God? <span style="color: #538135; mso-themecolor: accent6; mso-themeshade: 191;">Honestly?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I struggle with this.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>My addiction to security and safety and
reassurance is still very strong but I am feeling a growing desire to challenge
this addiction.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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Is my relationship with God my first and highest
priority?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="color: #538135; mso-themecolor: accent6; mso-themeshade: 191;">Not yet. </span>If not, why not?
What is blocking my relationship with God? <span style="color: #538135; mso-themecolor: accent6; mso-themeshade: 191;">Fear mostly and I need to challenge
this if I am ever to get past this block to my relationship with God.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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There can be NO addiction in my relationship with God
(addiction is born out of fear and a willingness to avoid my real self and God
will only connect with my real self). What is the investment that I have with
my errors that block my relationship with God?<o:p></o:p></div>
<span style="color: #538135; mso-themecolor: accent6; mso-themeshade: 191;">If I am honest here I will admit that I still feel that I
want or need the approval of others. I want to be liked and respected which
indicates that I did not feel liked or respected as a child. There is still
much pain here for me to feel especially around the way children were treated
in Catholic schools when I was growing up.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Fear was a powerful weapon in gaining submission and control and I still
find it difficult to face my fear.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>With
God's help I will get through this.<o:p></o:p></span>
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When I have a truly passionate desire for God my
relationship with God becomes my highest priority and I will be humble in every
interaction I have with all of God's creation.<o:p></o:p></div>
<span style="color: #538135; mso-themecolor: accent6; mso-themeshade: 191;">I feel that this is, and will continue to be, a work in
progress until I become at one with God.<o:p></o:p></span>
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When I fully embrace my relationship with God every other
relationship WILL be challenged. <span style="color: #538135; mso-themecolor: accent6; mso-themeshade: 191;">Don't I know it!!!<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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Humility will never attempt to shut down or reprogram my
emotions (doesn’t engage in addictive behaviour).<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Humility will engage every situation that
will help me connect to God and my real self. <span style="color: #538135; mso-themecolor: accent6; mso-themeshade: 191;">I am slowly learning this.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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Humility gives up control and embraces life fully (without
fear). <span style="color: #538135; mso-themecolor: accent6; mso-themeshade: 191;">This
is a tough one – giving up control!<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>In
order to avoid my pain I have learnt to control everything around me.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Letting go of control is very challenging but
also rewarding because when I do let of of control I am letting God direct<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>my life and who better to have at the helm
than the supreme commander of the universe and all that is? </span><span style="color: black; mso-themecolor: text1;">When I am humble I will not try to
juggle my life or control every situation, I will allow God to show me the way
forward</span><span style="color: #538135; mso-themecolor: accent6; mso-themeshade: 191;">. Letting go of control is HARD!!<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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When I am humble I will be willing to embrace emotional
terror and not try to manage it.<o:p></o:p></div>
<span style="color: #538135; mso-themecolor: accent6; mso-themeshade: 191;">I struggle, struggle, struggle with this and pray for God's
assistance.<o:p></o:p></span>
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Humility never gets angry, resentful or blaming of others,
the environment or the situation.</div>
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When you are humble you will not feel that you have to give
up anything.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Do I really have anything
without God?</div>
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<span style="color: #538135; mso-themecolor: accent6; mso-themeshade: 191;">I feel that I am getting better at this – letting go of
anger or resentment and allowing myself to feel what is beneath it – most of
the time!<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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Humility has faith that God WILL provide everything that I
will ever need.</div>
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<span style="color: #538135; mso-themecolor: accent6; mso-themeshade: 191;">So to challenge this fear that I have that God won't bother
about me, I need to step into the fear and risk everything trusting that I am
truly the creates of God's creation, the most wonderful of Her handiwork and
the object of Her love and tenderest care.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>If God provides everything for all of Her other creatures surely She
will provide for me.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Right?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>This still feels scary to me at the moment. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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When I am humble I will be willing to be as I truly am and
to take full responsibility for EVERY aspect of my life.<o:p></o:p></div>
<span style="color: #538135; mso-themecolor: accent6; mso-themeshade: 191;">I feel that I am growing here – slowly. <o:p></o:p></span>
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Humility recognizes that I am the only person who is capable
of changing me and when I do this with God's help the process is faster and
complete. <span style="color: #538135; mso-themecolor: accent6; mso-themeshade: 191;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
<span style="color: #538135; mso-themecolor: accent6; mso-themeshade: 191;">When I began this process I found I was constantly wanting
to shift the blame, wanting someone else to take responsibility and take away
my pain.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I wanted to be rescued. But God
does not rescue and I have had to learn to be fully responsible for all the
errors that are in my soul no matter how they got there.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It doesn't matter how the errors got into my
soul – they are there and I have acted upon them to cause further error –
mostly by trying to avoid the pain or cover it up.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>So now it is up to me to release the error –
no one else can do that for me because no one else fully knows the extent of
the error and the pain in my soul.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>God
can assist with this process but only when I am willing to take full
responsibility and acknowledge the extent of the pain within me and the pain I
have caused others because of these errors. </span>Humility teaches that I must
honour myself – my entire experience. <span style="color: #538135; mso-themecolor: accent6; mso-themeshade: 191;">If I am willing to do this I will be willing to
feel all of my pain and release it.<o:p></o:p></span>
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Humility acknowledges my own unloving behaviour without
minimization or dismissal.<o:p></o:p></div>
When I am truly humble I will desire with all of my heart to
experience the Law of compensation.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I
won't avoid acknowledging my own unloving behaviour and I will want to know the
full extent of the harm I have caused others (especially my own children). A
humble heart is repentant and contrite about their unloving actions.<br />
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<span style="color: #538135; mso-themecolor: accent6; mso-themeshade: 191;">Repentance is a powerful healer and helps to fast-track the
healing process. I have shed many tears for the harm I have caused my children
and others due to the errors in my soul and there are many more still to
flow.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>There is still much resistance to
this at times but when I am humble God can assist me in the process and the
reward of His love flowing into my soul is worth every tear shed, every pain
felt.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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Humility is NOT self-punishment.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Self-punishment is a form of arrogance.<o:p></o:p></div>
<span style="color: #538135; mso-themecolor: accent6; mso-themeshade: 191;">Unfortunately the subtleties of self- punishment make it
easy to dismiss but I am learning that when I refuse to be humble and allow the
full expression of my pain I am punishing myself.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Why?<o:p></o:p></span>
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When I am truly humble I will desire wholeheartedly to feel
the causal emotion in me about my unloving behaviour regardless of what that
emotion is. When I am truly humble I won't need courage I will just Feel.</div>
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<span style="color: #538135; mso-themecolor: accent6; mso-themeshade: 191;">Again, I still have a long way to go to be at this point, I
still need lots of courage to get me into and through an emotional error and
into truth and love.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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Humility is a desire to become a trusting child of God again
– soft, open, vulnerable, honest and sensitive. <span style="color: #538135; mso-themecolor: accent6; mso-themeshade: 191;">This desire is growing.</span></div>
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Humility opens the doorway to Love and Truth – lack of
humility blocks your connection with your guides. In order to feel Love you
need to be humble and soft.</div>
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Reflection</b>.<o:p></o:p></div>
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</span></span></span><!--[endif]-->Do I tend to justify or minimize anger or rage? <span style="color: #538135; mso-themecolor: accent6; mso-themeshade: 191;">Yes – often. I
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</span></span></span><!--[endif]-->Do I have a strong resistance to feeling my
fear? <span style="color: #538135; mso-themecolor: accent6; mso-themeshade: 191;">Yes
– if I didn't I would allow the expression of fear without judgement or trying
to control it.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But I am more accepting
og allowing the experience of my fear than I am of anger.</span><o:p></o:p></div>
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</span></span></span><!--[endif]-->Do I use my intellect to tell myself that I am
over that now? <span style="color: #538135; mso-themecolor: accent6; mso-themeshade: 191;">No.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>If anything it is the
opposite.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I tend to tell myself that
there is still more to go.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I find it
hard to accept that God could have healed that part of my soul.</span><o:p></o:p></div>
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</span></span></span><!--[endif]-->Do I resist seeing the damage that I have done
and avoid taking full responsibility for the harm I have caused? <span style="color: #538135; mso-themecolor: accent6; mso-themeshade: 191;">I don't think
so.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I have a huge desire to learn to
love and part of that is taking responsibility for the harm I have caused and
correcting that.</span><o:p></o:p></div>
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</span></span></span><!--[endif]-->Do I want someone to rescue me? <span style="color: #538135; mso-themecolor: accent6; mso-themeshade: 191;">Often I do but
this is growing less and my desire to take full personal responsibility grows.</span><o:p></o:p></div>
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Divine Love and Divine Love leads to the transformation of the soul.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Must learn to be Humble if we want to become
a Divine Child of God</strong>.<o:p></o:p></div>
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<br />Lindahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06239949170313951993noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-255620325991409496.post-22504692647262170842013-05-09T12:27:00.000+10:002015-11-28T20:47:37.436+10:00Humility in Practice - Learning to embrace Every opportunity and God's great Love.<br />
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<span style="font-family: "calibri";">This journey towards understanding and living humility is much more challenging that I thought and it is taking longer than I had imagined. I guess that is a good thing. In the midst of the final wedding preparations for my youngest daughter's wedding I am finding that I am easily distracted by earthly things and not taking every opportunity to focus and grow in humility. My reflections on the second interview on humility will follow in the coming days in the meanwhile I would like to share this entry from my journal from this morning as I feel that it fits well here.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "calibri";">Thursday 9<sup><span style="font-size: x-small;">th</span></sup> May 2013<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "calibri";">This past week has been one of resistance.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Everything has been difficult.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I have been tired all of the time and not
sleeping very well.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Lots of fear is
coming up when I go to bed at night and it is often well past midnight before I
get to sleep. I feel overwhelmed and confused and have been making very poor
food choices – not eating vegan and as a result eating foods that I am now
finding disagree with me – mostly white bread and dairy which have been my
comfort foods.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I guess God is showing me
that what appears to be short term comfort actually produces long term
discomfort. It is just not worth it! And all this is occurring I the midst of a
two month focus on humility!<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It is
showing me that I am not yet very humble and that I do not yet trust God fully.
And I am paying the price for this!</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "calibri";">There have been many opportunities to welcome humility in
the past couple of weeks, some of which I have embraced, many of which I have
brushed aside. And I am realizing over and over again just how far away I feel
from God on a moment by moment basis.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "calibri";">But then, in the midst of my denial and avoidance there have
been some precious moments of connection - both with God and with my
ever-patient soulmate. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "calibri";">And this is what keeps me going.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "calibri";">It is as if God is reaching out a hand and touching my heart
and saying “<i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">I’m still here – do not give
up”.</i></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "calibri";">I am so very grateful for these moments of connection,
however fleeting they may be, because they remind me of God’s unwavering Love
and bring me back to myself.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Without
these precious moments of connection it would be all too easy to give up and go
back to a life of avoidance and addiction, of blindness and error.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "calibri";">But these moments are so powerful and moving and it is as if
I can hear God saying “<i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">Don’t give up. I
am here with you every step of the way.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>I will never leave you.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>You are
not alone.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Have faith and you will find
your way back to Me. I will help you clear away all of the muck and debris that
blocks your path home. Trust this. Do not give up.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>The road back is fraught with danger while
the road ahead might be bumpy, and at times seem overwhelming, it is the only
way home and you must have faith and courage and forge ahead.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I am waiting to show you My Kingdom.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I am walking beside you every step of the
way.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Turn to Me when in doubt and I will
find a way to help you.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Trust this.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Trust Me. I love you – you are my precious
child and you are only just beginning to tap into and understand the depth of
My Love for you.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Don’t give up. Stay the
course and your rewards will be great.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Trust this.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Trust My Love for
you. I am here with you. Always.”</i></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "calibri";">As I write this I can feel my heart opening and tears are
flowing as the warmth of the autumn sun caresses my back and the cool autumn
breeze kisses my face.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>This has come
through me and not from me and I am grateful.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>I know that God is real and that She is kind, patient, loving and
persistent.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>She does not judge, she just
observes and waits and Loves.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And I
realize that these are qualities that are still so foreign to me that I find
myself longing to be like God in these qualities. Far too often I find myself
becoming impatient, judging or criticizing myself or others or just giving up
temporarily because it all seems too hard.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "calibri";">And it is hard because I do not yet fully trust God in this
process. And because I am not yet humble enough to simply embrace what God is
trying to teach me without question. I find that I still question everything<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>- I still look for an easier way out.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I still look for that ever elusive fast
forward button – and there is none! There is only here and now - this moment. My
challenge it to learn to embrace every moment and to be fully present in my
life.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>To learn to catch myself drifting
away without judgement or criticism and have empathy and compassion for my
injured self – without excuses!<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I need
to let go of despair and doubt and embrace humility more fully and completely.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I need to grow in faith and hope that God’s
Love can and will transform my soul <b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">if I
will allow it.</b></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "calibri";">I pray for more moments of deep connection to light my path.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "calibri";">Where would I be without God in my life? What would my life
look like? I can only imagine the answers to these questions.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>So, for me now the only way forward is with
God.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "calibri";">Please Mother teach me to trust. Teach me to embrace fully
every opportunity that You give me to grow in humility and love. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Please Father, help me to overcome the
obstacles that prevent Your Love from transforming my soul into a divine child
of God. Teach me to love.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
Lindahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06239949170313951993noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-255620325991409496.post-20076377069420790112013-04-30T16:30:00.000+10:002015-11-28T20:49:28.989+10:00Lessons in Humility - session 1<br />
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<span style="font-family: "calibri";">Today (15<sup><span style="font-size: x-small;">th</span></sup> April 2013) I am beginning what will
likely become a two month focus on lessons in Humility.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "calibri";">My plan is to re-listen to each of the five interviews on
Humility with Jesus and Mary and allow myself to feel and reflect upon the points
that touch my soul.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I plan to listen to
one talk each week, however some talks might flow over a couple of week, and
pray that I will find the courage and the willingness to fully embrace the
lessons in each talk.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "calibri";">If you would like to join me on this journey I would welcome
your thoughts, feelings and insights as we work our way through the talks
together.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "calibri";">Each week I’ll post a link to the relevant talk here and at
the end of the week I’ll share my learnings, challenges, revelations and joys
as I step more fully into Humility and God reliance.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I don’t expect that this will be a flawless but
the intention is there and I’ll do my best to stick to the original plan of one
interview each week for five weeks.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-family: "calibri";"><a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=16wUk3ZhuqA&feature=youtu.be">Lesson One – AnIntroduction to Humility – 1.04.00hrs</a></span></b></div>
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<span style="font-family: "calibri";">The points in this talk that spoke to me.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="color: black; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri; mso-bidi-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-themecolor: text1;"><span style="mso-list: Ignore;"><span style="font-family: "calibri";">1.</span><span style="font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font: 7pt/normal "Times New Roman";">
</span></span></span><span style="font-family: "calibri";">Humility is the most essential quality that we
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<span style="font-family: "calibri";">Jesus’ definition of humility – a passionate desire to feel
and experience all of my emotions, whether they are pleasurable or painful,
without blaming or attempting to control my environment in any way.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="color: #2f5496; mso-themecolor: accent5; mso-themeshade: 191;"><span style="font-family: "calibri";">I am noticing that I still often judge the emotion too much
– especially anger – and especially when I am in the company of others. I am
allowing fear to dictate most of my life instead of humility. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And when I do have the humility to allow the
emotion to surface in the company of others I allow others to shut the emotion
down rather than challenge them as to why they do not want me to feel my
emotions. I want to fit in – to feel ‘normal’. But what the world considers
‘normal’ is far from God’s definition of normal.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>If I had to guess at what God’s definition of
‘normal’ might be I would say that Normal is to live a life of passion and
desire where we feel all of our emotions as they arise, without fear of
judgement, condemnation or criticism. Normal is to be our true selves, as God
created us to be, and to rejoice in our differences and uniqueness.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Instead what I see and feel in this world is
a world where we are made to toe the line, to not stand out, to make others
feel better about themselves, even at our own expense. And this is not
love.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>No wonder this world is in such a
mess right now.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>What we need is more
humility and I can begin to impact the world by growing my soul, especially in
humility because it is the doorway to God’s Truth and Love.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: black; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri; mso-bidi-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-themecolor: text1;"><span style="mso-list: Ignore;"><span style="font-family: "calibri";">2.</span><span style="font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font: 7pt/normal "Times New Roman";">
</span></span></span><span style="color: black; mso-themecolor: text1;"><span style="font-family: "calibri";">Humility
teaches me that I must learn to submit to my own emotions – not those of
others.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It teaches me to desire a clear
understanding of my true self as I currently am at this moment.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #2f5496; mso-themecolor: accent5; mso-themeshade: 191;"><span style="font-family: "calibri";">I still struggle with this.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Who am I really?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Who is the me
that God created? Who would I be if I did not have these errors in my
soul?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>What would my true passions and
desires be? What would my life look and feel like?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>From a very young age the world has conspired
against us and we have been taught to conform to the image that others have of
us – to be the person that will cause the least amount of distress to our
parents, teachers, community. And in that process we lose our real selves.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I want to find me again – the real me that
God created.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>To do this I must first
grow in humility, then open my soul to God’s Truth so that I might grow in Love
and understanding.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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</span></span></span><span style="color: black; mso-themecolor: text1;"><span style="font-family: "calibri";">Humility
allows us to be our true self in each moment without having to think about
ourselves in that moment.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It is being
comfortable with ourselves as we are and allows interactions based upon
feelings and not thoughts. Pre-humility is when we are filtering our emotions
through our thoughts.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #2f5496; mso-themecolor: accent5; mso-themeshade: 191;"><span style="font-family: "calibri";">I feel that I am very much in a state of pre-humility.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I still feel most of the time that I am not
allowed to feel what I feel and I find myself constantly monitoring the
situation – avoiding – avoiding Truth, avoiding Love – avoiding perceived pain.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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</span></span></span><span style="color: black; mso-themecolor: text1;"><span style="font-family: "calibri";">Humility
is knowing who you are without elevation or deprecation. True humility is a
journey towards at-onement with God. We need to allow ourselves to be the
injured mess, to know that we have injuries and allow ourselves to be that
injured person – not the façade self that we learnt to create in order to avoid
the pain that we were not allowed to feel.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #2f5496; mso-themecolor: accent5; mso-themeshade: 191;"><span style="font-family: "calibri";">Fear prevents full acceptance of my injured self because I
don’t like what I see.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I need to learn
to break through the fear in order to see God’s truth about me. At the moment I
am still very much taking baby steps.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I
have faith that change is possible but too often I allow fear to prevent me
from accessing the causal grief that will allow my soul to heal.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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is a willingness to feel childlike and powerless.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It has a respect for God and God’s Truths<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "calibri";"><span style="color: #2f5496; mso-themecolor: accent5; mso-themeshade: 191;">I still struggle with allowing myself to feel powerless and
vulnerable <b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">all</b> the time. I am
challenging myself to follow God’s Laws by firstly challenging myself to follow
man’s laws (at least the ones which are made in some sort of love) – stopping
at stop signs that don’t need to be there when a give way sign would be just as
effective – driving 40kmhr through road works or 60kmph in areas that really
could safely be 70 or 80kmph and feeling the projections of anger and rage from
those behind me. </span><span style="color: #2f5597; mso-style-textfill-fill-alpha: 100.0%; mso-style-textfill-fill-color: #2F5597; mso-style-textfill-fill-themecolor: accent5; mso-themecolor: accent5; mso-themeshade: 191;">I find this is at time quite challenging and often frustrating but
if I find it difficult to obey man’s laws I will find it impossible (at times)
to obey all of God’s Laws which are not negotiable).<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: black; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri; mso-bidi-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-themecolor: text1;"><span style="mso-list: Ignore;"><span style="font-family: "calibri";">6.</span><span style="font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font: 7pt/normal "Times New Roman";">
</span></span></span><span style="font-family: "calibri";"><span style="color: black; mso-themecolor: text1;">To
be humble all of the time you will have the ability to be your injured self all
the time</span>s<span style="color: black; mso-themecolor: text1;"> without being
conscious of yourself very much at all (no self-judgement or
self-consciousness).<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #2f5496; mso-themecolor: accent5; mso-themeshade: 191;"><span style="font-family: "calibri";">I notice that I still constantly monitor myself based upon
who I am with – I am much more my injured self with some people (mostly others
on the path who do not judge my injured self as much).<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: black; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri; mso-bidi-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-themecolor: text1;"><span style="mso-list: Ignore;"><span style="font-family: "calibri";">7.</span><span style="font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font: 7pt/normal "Times New Roman";">
</span></span></span><span style="color: black; mso-themecolor: text1;"><span style="font-family: "calibri";">To
be humble all of the time we will feel everything as we feel it – our emotions
are written on our faces and we allow the complete reflection of our
true/injured self in every situation. We will be who we truly are and will be
less defensive about what we are feeling.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "calibri";"><span style="color: #2f5496; mso-themecolor: accent5; mso-themeshade: 191;">I am getting better at this but still do not allow the full
expression of the emotion for fear of judgement.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I don’t often remove myself from others and
allow the emotion to be fully expressed as it surfaces (fear of judgement). I
then have to re-access the emotion at a later date – if I remember what it was.
I often judge the emotion and myself rather than allow the full expression of
it – but I am getting better at this. </span><span style="color: #2f5597; mso-style-textfill-fill-alpha: 100.0%; mso-style-textfill-fill-color: #2F5597; mso-style-textfill-fill-themecolor: accent5; mso-themecolor: accent5; mso-themeshade: 191;">I am noticing how
confronted people are when they turn up at my house and I am feeling into stuff
<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>– mostly they immediately want to make
me feel better (so they don’t have to feel their stuff). Or when I am out and
emotions surface people want to avoid me and I can often feel their projections
of ‘what’s the matter with her?’<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: black; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri; mso-bidi-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-themecolor: text1;"><span style="mso-list: Ignore;"><span style="font-family: "calibri";">8.</span><span style="font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font: 7pt/normal "Times New Roman";">
</span></span></span><span style="font-family: "calibri";"><span style="color: black; mso-themecolor: text1;">When
you are humble you will always talk about truth and love and act in harmony
with truth and love – not in defence of self but in honour of truth and love.
You will not be concerned about the judgement of others and will honour God’s
Love and Truth above yourself even if you are afraid. Humility allows you to
focus on saying the truth in harmony with love and you will examine yourself
first against the general principles of Love and Truth. </span><span style="color: #2f5496; mso-themecolor: accent5; mso-themeshade: 191;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #2f5496; mso-themecolor: accent5; mso-themeshade: 191;"><span style="font-family: "calibri";">I love talking about God’s Truth and Love – the problem is
that very few people want to engage a conversation about God’s Truth and
Love.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I guess fear is the reason
why.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Fear is the reason why I do not
always engage a discussion about Truth and Love preferring instead to say
nothing.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I am noticing that once the
basic pleasantries are out of the way conversation lulls – it gets boring as
people want me to pander to their addictions.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>I am beginning to challenge myself more to speak the truth about what I am
feeling in an interaction regardless of the consequences and to do this I must
push through fear.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I must learn to feel
myself first and let go of the intellect and trust my feelings. Too often still
I pander to my fear – I allow it to control me and this has to stop.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: black; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri; mso-bidi-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-themecolor: text1;"><span style="mso-list: Ignore;"><span style="font-family: "calibri";">9.</span><span style="font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font: 7pt/normal "Times New Roman";">
</span></span></span><span style="color: black; mso-themecolor: text1;"><span style="font-family: "calibri";">When
you are humble you will treat yourself the same as others. “The only reason
that you would modify yourself in company is because you are so afraid of
somebody else treating you badly as a result of you being who you are or you
have a lot of self-judgement about being who you are and both of these
positions are positions of arrogance actually, not humility” (29.39min)<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #2f5496; mso-themecolor: accent5; mso-themeshade: 191;"><span style="font-family: "calibri";">I still struggle with this and often put others before
myself – my challenge is to learn to love and honour myself as God loves and
honours me – the same as everyone else. I also need to let go of self-judgement
and learn to acknowledge and accept my injured self.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
<br />
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<span style="color: black; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri; mso-bidi-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-themecolor: text1;"><span style="mso-list: Ignore;"><span style="font-family: "calibri";">10.</span><span style="font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font: 7pt/normal "Times New Roman";">
</span></span></span><span style="color: black; mso-themecolor: text1;"><span style="font-family: "calibri";">When
others treat me unlovingly I will always look at myself first – what is the
error in me that allowed this person to harm me?<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #2f5496; mso-themecolor: accent5; mso-themeshade: 191;"><span style="font-family: "calibri";">I feel that I am getting better at this one – I find that
less and less I am blaming another for their unloving treatment of me but
rather looking at what in me allowed this interaction to occur.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It is tough.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: black; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri; mso-bidi-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-themecolor: text1;"><span style="mso-list: Ignore;"><span style="font-family: "calibri";">11.</span><span style="font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font: 7pt/normal "Times New Roman";">
</span></span></span><span style="color: black; mso-themecolor: text1;"><span style="font-family: "calibri";">Humility
is honouring God’s Laws and gifts.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Humility has no need to compete.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>It recognizes that we all have unique gifts and talents and that God has
created a universe which allows each and every one of Her children to shine and
revel in our passions and desires.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #2f5496; mso-themecolor: accent5; mso-themeshade: 191;"><span style="font-family: "calibri";">I so wish that the world would get this – there is no need
for competition. When I honour God’s Laws and God’s gifts I will have
everything that I will ever need.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>One of
God’s Laws and gifts that I am struggling with at the moment is insects – God
created all creation to be of benefit to humanity – including those pesky
insects that I find so annoying, so what is the injury in me that allows me to
kill God’s creation without remorse?<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: black; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri; mso-bidi-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-themecolor: text1;"><span style="mso-list: Ignore;"><span style="font-family: "calibri";">12.</span><span style="font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font: 7pt/normal "Times New Roman";">
</span></span></span><span style="color: black; mso-themecolor: text1;"><span style="font-family: "calibri";"><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>When you are humble you will only examine yourself
through God’s eyes.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>You will know that
you are allowed to be who you are and won’t worry about what anyone else thinks
even when you know they feel badly about you.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #2f5496; mso-themecolor: accent5; mso-themeshade: 191;"><span style="font-family: "calibri";">This point will happen when we are at-one with God – it is
a slow process and one that will be achieved through persistence, patience and the
exercise of my own will.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I need to let
go of judgement of the process being too slow and embrace faith more fully –
faith that change is possible, that I can become at-one with God while still on
earth.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: black; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri; mso-bidi-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-themecolor: text1;"><span style="mso-list: Ignore;"><span style="font-family: "calibri";">13.</span><span style="font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font: 7pt/normal "Times New Roman";">
</span></span></span><span style="font-family: "calibri";"><span style="color: black; mso-themecolor: text1;">To
enter into a relationship with God and to receive Truths from God you have got
to be in a very humble place emotionally.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>It is our interactions with God that are a true test of humility.
Humility is the cornerstone of my relationship with God and we must exercise
our will in order to exercise true humility.</span><span style="color: #2f5496; mso-themecolor: accent5; mso-themeshade: 191;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #2f5496; mso-themecolor: accent5; mso-themeshade: 191;"><span style="font-family: "calibri";">This point raises the question – how much do I want a
relationship with God? Is my relationship with God the most important thing in
my life? Truthfully I would have to say no – I still too often put my
relationship with my soulmate before my relationship with God.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>The problem with this is that this soulmate
relationship is still very addictive and this actually keeps me away from
God.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But I want the security that this relationship
brings and I am not yet willing to trust God enough to know that He will
provide for me even better than my soulmate can.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>In this I am avoiding a lot of personal
responsibility and I am not loving myself very much – I love my mate more – I
want to nurture and care for him.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>This
is really very arrogant as in doing this I am denying him his relationship with
God – wow!!! What does this mean now?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Where do I go from here? When will I learn to trust that when I focus on
God first all else will be added to me?<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: black; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri; mso-bidi-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-themecolor: text1;"><span style="mso-list: Ignore;"><span style="font-family: "calibri";">14.</span><span style="font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font: 7pt/normal "Times New Roman";">
</span></span></span><span style="color: black; mso-themecolor: text1;"><span style="font-family: "calibri";">God
existed before me therefore God must know more than me.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>We must be humble in order to learn from God.
“Humility opens my soul enough for me to hear God.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Without humility we cannot hear God …to hear
God we must be in a very, very humble place … I am going to hear God through my
feelings …humility is all about emotions therefore I must be in an emotionally
humble place … so I can hear God’s feeling about every matter… without humility
there is no truth … when you are humble you hear with your heart.”<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #2f5496; mso-themecolor: accent5; mso-themeshade: 191;"><span style="font-family: "calibri";">Over the past four years I have had the privilege of
hearing God’s truth about me on several occasions – God has shown me why I have
certain errors in my soul and how to let these go.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>He has shown me what I need to focus on and
what I need to feel but I need to allow myself to be truly humble to my
emotions for this to occur. I wish I could hear God more often – obviously I am
not humble enough yet – there is much pride, arrogance, fear and anger that I
need to let go of in order to become truly humble.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: black; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri; mso-bidi-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-themecolor: text1;"><span style="mso-list: Ignore;"><span style="font-family: "calibri";">15.</span><span style="font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font: 7pt/normal "Times New Roman";">
</span></span></span><span style="color: black; mso-themecolor: text1;"><span style="font-family: "calibri";">Humility
is the doorway to Divine Truth. Divine Truth is the doorway to Divine
Love.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>God is constantly trying to get us
into humility.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>God loves everything
about you, if you are truly humble you will let God tell you about you.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>The best course of action is humility –
humility needs to be the first course of action.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Learn from every experience.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>When we are truly humble we will never try to
manage our emotions ever again.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #2f5496; mso-themecolor: accent5; mso-themeshade: 191;"><span style="font-family: "calibri";">God speaks to us through the Law of Attraction – everything
that happens to me is a result of God’s Law of Attraction showing me where I am
at with my relationship with God.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I love
that God has made it so simple for us to monitor our progress but I am still so
bound up in fear to even notice what God is telling me most of the time. I pray
that I will be able to stop honouring fear and trust in God’s Love and Truth in
every moment.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: black; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri; mso-bidi-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-themecolor: text1;"><span style="mso-list: Ignore;"><span style="font-family: "calibri";">16.</span><span style="font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font: 7pt/normal "Times New Roman";">
</span></span></span><span style="color: black; mso-themecolor: text1;"><span style="font-family: "calibri";">“God
has this beautiful ideal of our potential, the thing that He created us to be
and what we are so bound up in is our own impressions of ourselves that while
we are so bound up in these impressions it is impossible for us to ever be what
God created us to be.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>To be what God
created us to be we have got to throw out what our current perceptions of
ourselves currently is and we have got to allow God, through this relationship,
to show us what we truthfully are.” (49.00min)<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #2f5496; mso-themecolor: accent5; mso-themeshade: 191;"><span style="font-family: "calibri";">There is still so much arrogance for me to work through
beginning with the arrogant stand that I have had that I am not arrogant – such
a furphy from God’s perspective.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>If I am
not truly humble as Jesus teaches us to be humble then I am in arrogance.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Arrogance prevents humility. WOW! There is
much here for me to feel.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: black; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri; mso-bidi-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-themecolor: text1;"><span style="mso-list: Ignore;"><span style="font-family: "calibri";">17.</span><span style="font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font: 7pt/normal "Times New Roman";">
</span></span></span><span style="color: black; mso-themecolor: text1;"><span style="font-family: "calibri";">The
two steps to Humility <o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<div class="MsoListParagraphCxSpMiddle" style="margin: 0cm 0cm 0pt 54pt; mso-add-space: auto; mso-list: l0 level1 lfo2; text-indent: -18pt;">
<span style="color: black; font-family: "symbol"; mso-bidi-font-family: Symbol; mso-fareast-font-family: Symbol; mso-themecolor: text1;"><span style="mso-list: Ignore;">·<span style="font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font: 7pt/normal "Times New Roman";"> </span></span></span><span style="color: black; mso-themecolor: text1;"><span style="font-family: "calibri";">Learn to become as the child was in
humility – no judgement, ridicule or criticism – of self or others. Go back to
the time and place when I was a child.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>This needs to be a positive choice.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Go back to the little child (innocent, trusting, full of wonder and joy,
vulnerable and open).<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<div class="MsoListParagraphCxSpLast" style="margin: 0cm 0cm 8pt 54pt; mso-add-space: auto; mso-list: l0 level1 lfo2; text-indent: -18pt;">
<span style="color: black; font-family: "symbol"; mso-bidi-font-family: Symbol; mso-fareast-font-family: Symbol; mso-themecolor: text1;"><span style="mso-list: Ignore;">·<span style="font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font: 7pt/normal "Times New Roman";"> </span></span></span><span style="color: black; mso-themecolor: text1;"><span style="font-family: "calibri";">Become an everlasting student of
everything and allow every feeling and truth that God has to enter you.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Allow your soul to perpetually grow and
expand.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Become like a sponge – absorb
everything that God want to teach you.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Expand our ability to absorb more of God’s Truth and Love.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>The childlike state causes God-reliance.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>We need to have a child-like humility to grow
beyond the 6<sup><span style="font-size: x-small;">th</span></sup> sphere.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
Lindahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06239949170313951993noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-255620325991409496.post-55973153067468544002013-04-07T15:04:00.000+10:002015-11-28T20:50:56.973+10:00Forgiveness<br />
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<span style="font-family: "times new roman" , "serif"; font-size: 12pt; line-height: 107%;">As I continue to work my way through the errors in my soul I find that I continually stumble at understanding forgiveness - especially forgiveness of myself for all the hurt I have caused through acting out in my fears and errors. I am eternally grateful for the patience and love of my Celestial guides who wait patiently for me to be ready to hear what they want to teach me. Recently one of my guides, Peter shared this with me on forgiveness. I hope it is of benefit to you also.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "times new roman" , "serif"; font-size: 12pt; line-height: 107%;"><em>True forgiveness is allowing God’s Love to wash over
you and replace the hurt that you hold inside about the event that caused you
pain.<o:p></o:p></em></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "times new roman" , "serif"; font-size: 12pt; line-height: 107%;"><em>True forgiveness is unconditional love and
compassion.<o:p></o:p></em></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "times new roman" , "serif"; font-size: 12pt; line-height: 107%;"><em>True forgiveness holds no memory of pain.<o:p></o:p></em></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "times new roman" , "serif"; font-size: 12pt; line-height: 107%;"><em>True forgiveness is love.<o:p></o:p></em></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "times new roman" , "serif"; font-size: 12pt; line-height: 107%;"><em>True forgiveness can only be achieved when we allow
ourselves to feel the full extent of our pain and let it go.<o:p></o:p></em></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "times new roman" , "serif"; font-size: 12pt; line-height: 107%;"><em>True forgiveness replaces every negative thought or
feeling that we have about that event with truth and love.<o:p></o:p></em></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "times new roman" , "serif"; font-size: 12pt; line-height: 107%;"><em>True forgiveness brings a deep and lasting peace
that can never be shattered.<o:p></o:p></em></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "times new roman" , "serif"; font-size: 12pt; line-height: 107%;"><em>With true forgiveness only love remains.<o:p></o:p></em></span></div>
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<em><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-family: "times new roman" , "serif"; font-size: 12pt; line-height: 107%;">You
need to be willing to accept forgiveness as well as to forgive</span></b><span style="font-family: "times new roman" , "serif"; font-size: 12pt; line-height: 107%;">.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>God has already forgiven you – now it is up
to you to forgive yourself. There is nothing that God cannot forgive.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>He has already forgiven.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Let go of self-punishment and trust this.<o:p></o:p></span></em></div>
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<em>Question:
how do I let go of self-punishment? <o:p></o:p></em></div>
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<span style="font-family: "times new roman" , "serif"; font-size: 12pt; line-height: 107%;"><em>Write this down repeatedly:<o:p></o:p></em></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "times new roman" , "serif"; font-size: 12pt; line-height: 107%;"><em>God loves me.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>God has already forgiven me. I am loved. I am forgiven. Now I forgive
myself. Now I can learn to love myself.<o:p></o:p></em></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "times new roman" , "serif"; font-size: 12pt; line-height: 107%;"><em>God loves <b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">me.</b><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>God has already <b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">forgiven me</b>. <b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">I</b> am loved.
<b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">I </b>am forgiven. Now <b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">I forgive</b> myself. Now I can learn to <b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">love myself</b>.<o:p></o:p></em></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "times new roman" , "serif"; font-size: 12pt; line-height: 107%;"><em>God <b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">loves me</b>.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>God has <b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">already
forgiven</b> me. I am<b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"> loved</b>. I am<b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"> forgiven</b>. Now <b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">I forgive myself</b>. Now I can learn to <b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">love myself</b>.<o:p></o:p></em></span></div>
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<em><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-family: "times new roman" , "serif"; font-size: 12pt; line-height: 107%;">God
loves me.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>God has already forgiven me. I
am loved. I am forgiven. Now I forgive myself. Now I can learn to love myself</span></b><span style="font-family: "times new roman" , "serif"; font-size: 12pt; line-height: 107%;">.
I AM LOVED. I AM FORGIVEN.<o:p></o:p></span></em></div>
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<span style="font-family: "times new roman" , "serif"; font-size: 12pt; line-height: 107%;">………………………………………………………………..<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "times new roman" , "serif"; font-size: 12pt; line-height: 107%;">I am very grateful to Peter for his guidance and am
continuing to work through this – but my resistance has been strong and
progress has been slow.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I am eternally
grateful for God’s patience and guidance and for the assistance of my guides. I
pray that this post will be of assistance to you also.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "times new roman" , "serif"; font-size: 12pt; line-height: 107%;">With much love<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "times new roman" , "serif"; font-size: 12pt; line-height: 107%;">Linda <o:p></o:p></span></div>
Lindahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06239949170313951993noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-255620325991409496.post-24379776438552641472013-04-04T14:41:00.003+10:002015-11-28T20:53:17.268+10:00Connecting to Mother God and Facing Personal Truth<br />
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<span style="font-family: "times new roman" , "serif"; font-size: 12pt; line-height: 107%;">For most of my life I have struggled to connect with
Mother God.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I was taught that God was a
wrathful, vengeful male who would exact punishment for my every wrongdoing. God
is my Father.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Not until I was in my
forties did I consider that God could also be my Mother.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And this brought up a lot of confusion and
guilt for me.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Would I be struck down for
daring to consider that there was a Feminine nature to God?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>After all, the Catholic Church has promoted a
very masculine and powerful God and this seemed to be supported by teachings in
the Bible. Who was I then, to even consider challenging this concept?<o:p></o:p></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "times new roman" , "serif"; font-size: 12pt; line-height: 107%;">Then I met AJ Miller, a man claiming to be Jesus of
the first century.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And I began to
question everything I thought I knew about God.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>The bible teaches us that God created Man in His image.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>If this is a truth and God created both male
and female, would it not then stand to reason that God must also have both
masculine and feminine qualities?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Could
it be that God is both my Mother and my Father?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "times new roman" , "serif"; font-size: 12pt; line-height: 107%;">If I allow myself to feel God’s truth on this matter
I can see that there are distinct differences between the masculine and
feminine qualities of Mankind.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Surely
then this would indicate that God, the Supreme Creator of all that is, would
also have distinct masculine and feminine qualities? If not how would He know
what the feminine was? <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "times new roman" , "serif"; font-size: 12pt; line-height: 107%;">I feel that this is the truth but I struggle to
connect to my Mother God.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Why is
this?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "times new roman" , "serif"; font-size: 12pt; line-height: 107%;">In an attempt to connect more fully with my Mother
God I have again listened to the talk on <a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=G8VzVIYHpOE">“Emotions and the Mother Taboo”</a> . </span><span style="font-family: "times new roman" , "serif"; font-size: 12pt; line-height: 107%;">At around 51mins into the talk AJ shared this statement
“<i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">When you suppress anger what finishes up
happening is called resentment … if you are a woman suppressing anger towards
mother you’re going to end up resenting yourself as a woman as well as
resenting your mother.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It is the same if
you are a man suppressing your anger towards your father</i>.” And I had to
accept the truth that I do indeed resent myself as a woman. I do not yet know
how to love myself as a woman, warts and all.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "times new roman" , "serif"; font-size: 12pt; line-height: 107%;">Unless I am willing to face the truth of these
emotions in my soul I will never be able to fully connect to my Mother God. I
have been praying about this a lot lately and finally found the courage to
write honestly about how I feel about the feminine.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It has taken me three and a half years to get
to this point (I’m a bit stubborn and a low learner)! This is an exercise I
would encourage everyone to do – both towards the feminine and the
masculine.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I will not share the list
with you here as it is long – a couple of pages – but I will share how I came
up with the list.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "times new roman" , "serif"; font-size: 12pt; line-height: 107%;">After praying to God to show me the truth about how
I feel about the feminine I wrote whatever came to mind about women – every
woman I have ever had a negative encounter with – my mother, teachers, nuns,
acquaintances, friends, sisters, colleagues, shop assistants – and rolled them
all into one ‘she’.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I included
everything I could remember from when I felt hurt or betrayed by a woman (and
I’m sure there are more still to be included).<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>This has been a very cathartic experience and has brought up a lot of
anger, rage and grief for me to feel into. As I was feeling into some aspects
of my ‘list’ I began to realize that I myself have some of these traits that
have caused me so much pain and that I too have inflicted pain upon others
because of these unhealed errors in my soul – more grief, remorse and shame
flowed!<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Unfortunately the objects of
this pain has all too often been our children.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>I asked God these questions - How could I do this to them?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">Why </b>did
I do this to them? <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<u><span style="font-family: "times new roman" , "serif"; font-size: 12pt; line-height: 107%;">And this is what I realized about myself</span></u><span style="font-family: "times new roman" , "serif"; font-size: 12pt; line-height: 107%;">:<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "times new roman" , "serif"; font-size: 12pt; line-height: 107%;">I didn’t want to feel powerless. I wanted to feel in
control.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "times new roman" , "serif"; font-size: 12pt; line-height: 107%;">I wanted to be respected – not brushed aside.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "times new roman" , "serif"; font-size: 12pt; line-height: 107%;">I wanted to be listened to – not ignored.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "times new roman" , "serif"; font-size: 12pt; line-height: 107%;">I didn’t want to feel how out of control my life
felt – how powerless I felt.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I wanted to
feel powerful.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "times new roman" , "serif"; font-size: 12pt; line-height: 107%;">I wanted to be noticed – not ignored.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "times new roman" , "serif"; font-size: 12pt; line-height: 107%;">At times I allowed anger to take control. I didn’t
care about the children in these instances, about how they felt – I only wanted
to avoid my pain.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I was like the devil
incarnated.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I wanted to punish them for
my weaknesses and fears.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I didn’t even
care or think about how my rage would affect them – I just wanted some sort of
control in a life that I felt I had no control over.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "times new roman" , "serif"; font-size: 12pt; line-height: 107%;">I wanted respect but went about gaining it the wrong
way – no one ever respects a person who threatens and uses violence to get what
they want.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Only fear responds in a
façade of respect.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>This is NOT
Love!<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I used a weapon against my own
children – how could this possibly be love?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>It is NOT.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It is REVENGE!!! I
wanted revenge on my parents and on the priests and nuns and teachers who
instilled fear in me but they were out of my reach so I took out my revenge
upon my own children – innocent souls entrusted to me by God and I abused that
trust because I wanted to avoid feeling powerless.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I wanted to avoid feeling unloved.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "times new roman" , "serif"; font-size: 12pt; line-height: 107%;">So much shame, remorse and grief needed to be
experienced in order to even receive these truths from my guides and I am
grateful for their assistance. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I pray
that my children can forgive me.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I pray
that I can learn to forgive myself.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I am
struggling with this. As I worked my way through this one of my guides – Peter
taught me about forgiveness.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I will post
his message in the next couple of days as this is already a long post. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "times new roman" , "serif"; font-size: 12pt; line-height: 107%;">My prayer is that we will all have the courage and
the willingness to begin this process of healing through Truth and Love.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It takes courage, determination, persistence,
faith and humility and I often find myself resisting the process.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Prayer is the only way through it. Humility
is what I struggle with most.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I have
found that I have been under a lot of spirit attack (mostly on my physical body
– cuts, burns, rashes, tinea, pain on my left side) since I began this earnest
quest to know God’s Truth about the feminine – about my real self – in order to
connect more fully with my Mother God. But I know that with God’s Love and
guidance I will get through it.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I will
one day know and understand the feminine aspects of God - my Mother God…. One
day!<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "times new roman" , "serif"; font-size: 12pt; line-height: 107%;">I wish you well on your own personal journey towards
God and healing.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "times new roman" , "serif"; font-size: 12pt; line-height: 107%;">With love<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "times new roman" , "serif"; font-size: 12pt; line-height: 107%;">Linda<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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Lindahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06239949170313951993noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-255620325991409496.post-10571326567621380072013-03-22T14:55:00.000+10:002015-11-28T20:54:59.672+10:00How I became a Madman<br />
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<span style="font-family: "times new roman" , "serif"; font-size: 12pt; line-height: 107%;"><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I was doing
some reflecting recently and found myself once again going to the messages from
Judas which were received by Hans Radix in 2002.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>One of my favourites is the message on <b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">Faith, Knowledge, Understanding and Trust -
January 30<sup>th</sup> 2002</b>.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>In
this message Hans quotes a poem from <b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">Kahlil
Gibran – How I became a Madman</b>.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>As I
reflected upon the words in this poem I began to see many parallels with
walking the Way to God. Here are my reflections on this great work.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "times new roman" , "serif"; font-size: 12pt; line-height: 107%;">First – The Complete Poem.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-family: "times new roman" , "serif"; font-size: 12pt; line-height: 107%;">HOW
I BECAME A MADMAN<o:p></o:p></span></b></div>
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<span style="font-family: "times new roman" , "serif"; font-size: 12pt; line-height: 107%;">You ask me how I became a madman. It happened thus:
One day, long before many gods were born, I woke from a deep sleep and found
all my masks were stolen,-the seven masks I have fashioned an worn in seven
lives,-I ran maskless through the crowded streets shouting, “Thieves, thieves,
the cursed thieves.” <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "times new roman" , "serif"; font-size: 12pt; line-height: 107%;">Men and women laughed at me and some ran to their
houses in fear of me. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "times new roman" , "serif"; font-size: 12pt; line-height: 107%;">And when I reached the market place, a youth
standing on a house-top cried, “He is a madman.” I looked up to behold him; the
sun kissed my own naked face for the first time. For the first time the sun
kissed my own naked face and my soul was inflamed with love for the sun, and I
wanted my masks no more. And as if in a trance I cried, “Blessed, blessed are
the thieves who stole my masks.” <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "times new roman" , "serif"; font-size: 12pt; line-height: 107%;">Thus I became a madman. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "times new roman" , "serif"; font-size: 12pt; line-height: 107%;">And I have found both freedom of loneliness and the
safety from being understood, for those who understand us enslave something in
us. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "times new roman" , "serif"; font-size: 12pt; line-height: 107%;">But let me not be too proud of my safety. Even a
Thief in a jail is safe from another thief.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "times new roman" , "serif"; font-size: 12pt; line-height: 107%;">………………<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "times new roman" , "serif"; font-size: 12pt; line-height: 107%;">How it fits with Walking the Way to God – my interpretations.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "times new roman" , "serif"; font-size: 12pt; line-height: 107%;">You ask me how I became a madman <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"><span style="color: #4472c4; mso-themecolor: accent5;">(how I came to look at the world differently and how I began to be
seen as ‘mad’ by those with a mind closed to truth).</span></i><span style="color: #4472c4; mso-themecolor: accent5;"> <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></i></span>It happened thus: One
day, long before many<i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"> </i>gods were born <span style="color: #4472c4; mso-themecolor: accent5;">(<i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">before the world placed many interpretations upon God</i></span><i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">) </i>I woke from a deep sleep <span style="color: #4472c4; mso-themecolor: accent5;">(<i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">from a life that I was living unconsciously</i></span><i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">) </i>and found that all of my masks were
stolen <span style="color: #4472c4; mso-themecolor: accent5;">( <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">my masks are</i> <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">the façades that I had created in order to cover over my injured self)</i>,
</span>- the seven masks that I had fashioned and worn in seven lives (<i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"><span style="color: #4472c4; mso-themecolor: accent5;">the different ways I present myself to the world according to who I am
with and what side of me I want to present – partner, children, family, friends,
work colleagues, church or religious associates, strangers</span>) – </i>I ran
maskless through the crowded streets<i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"> <span style="color: #4472c4; mso-themecolor: accent5;">(revealing my real self for the
first time to everyone around me</span>) </i>shouting “thieves, thieves, the
cursed thieves” <span style="color: #4472c4; mso-themecolor: accent5;">(<i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">afraid and exposed I want to blame others
for the flaws which are now revealed for all to see)</i></span><i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"><span style="color: black; mso-themecolor: text1;">.<o:p></o:p></span></i></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "times new roman" , "serif"; font-size: 12pt; line-height: 107%;">Men and women laughed at me and some ran into their
houses in fear of me <span style="color: #4472c4; mso-themecolor: accent5;">(<i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">they could not understand how someone could
be so exposed and allow themselves to be seen as they truly are.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>They laughed at what they themselves are
afraid of in order to cover their fear, and hid more carefully behind their façade
masks)</i>.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "times new roman" , "serif"; font-size: 12pt; line-height: 107%;">And when I reached the market place, a youth
standing on a house top cried, “He is a Madman” <span style="color: #4472c4; mso-themecolor: accent5;">(<i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">people don’t
want to be confronted by error and imperfection and generally consider those
brave enough to begin to ‘tear away their masks’ to be mad.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>They don’t understand courage and prefer the
safety of the herd mentality where it is easy to remain hidden amongst those
who are the same as they are</i></span><i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">).</i>
I looked up to behold him; and the sun kissed my naked face for the first time <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"><span style="color: #4472c4; mso-themecolor: accent5;">(it is only when I am willing to drop my façade and expose the
nakedness of my soul, with all of its blemishes and imperfections, that the
love of God can kiss my soul</span>).</i> For the first time the sun kissed my
own naked face and my soul was inflamed with love for the sun and I wanted my
masks no more <span style="color: #4472c4; mso-themecolor: accent5;">(<i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">the Love of God is so powerful, so magical,
that when I dare to drop the façade and expose all of my flaws and open up my
soul to God’s Love and Grace; only then, can I not imagine a life without God’s
Love.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It is like a drug and I constantly
seek to have more of it – this healing Love that helps me to see and know the
real me)</i></span><i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">.</i> <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And as if in a trance I cried, “Blessed,
blessed are the thieves who stole my masks” <span style="color: #4472c4; mso-themecolor: accent5;">(<i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">because now I
realize that it is my masks, my façade that prevents me from knowing God and
feeling Her Love embrace my bare soul)</i></span><i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">. <o:p></o:p></i></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "times new roman" , "serif"; font-size: 12pt; line-height: 107%;">Thus I became a madman <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"><span style="color: #4472c4; mso-themecolor: accent5;">(no longer a part of
the herd mentality but willing to learn to be my real, authentic, unique self –
the self that God created)</span>.</i><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "times new roman" , "serif"; font-size: 12pt; line-height: 107%;">And I have found both freedom and safety in my
madness <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"><span style="color: #4472c4; mso-themecolor: accent5;">(the freedom to be myself and safety in God’s loving
embrace)</span></i>; the freedom of the loneliness <span style="color: #4472c4; mso-themecolor: accent5;">(<i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">happy and
content to be by myself with God)</i></span><i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">
</i>and the safety from being understood, for those who understand us enslave something
in us<i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"> <span style="color: #4472c4; mso-themecolor: accent5;">(understanding implies that from this point onwards I
will remain the same; but my goal is to continually expand and grow, to change
and discover new aspects of myself and God’s universe. I don’t want to be
understood so much as to be known for who I truly am and I want to know you too)</span></i>.
<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "times new roman" , "serif"; font-size: 12pt; line-height: 107%;">But let me not be too proud of my safety.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Even a Thief in jail is safe from another
thief<i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"> <span style="color: #4472c4; mso-themecolor: accent5;">(pride is the opposite of humility and humility is what
is needed if I am to walk maskless in this world. I want to get to that point
in my progression towards Love and Truth where, like Judas, I can say “now for
me it is no longer a question of believing or not believing, now I simply know.
I have felt the sunbeams of God’s Love on the naked skin of my soul.”(page 137))</span>.<o:p></o:p></i></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "times new roman" , "serif"; font-size: 12pt; line-height: 107%;">So now the questions I must continually ask myself
is “Why do I still cling so tightly to my masks as if I am guarding them with
my very life?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>What is preventing me from
completely stripping off my masks and allowing God’s Love to kiss the nakedness
of my bare soul, to hold it (me) firmly in Her Loving Embrace? How can I
overcome the barriers that prevent me from stepping into full Humility, Love
and Truth?<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "times new roman" , "serif"; font-size: 12pt; line-height: 107%;">Please God, show me the Way Home.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"><span style="font-family: "times new roman" , "serif"; font-size: 12pt; line-height: 107%;">(If
you would like a copy of the full message referred to above or a complete copy
of the Judas Messages please email me and I will forward it to you – munjolin@bigpond.com)<span style="color: black; mso-themecolor: text1;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></i></div>
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Lindahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06239949170313951993noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-255620325991409496.post-18604209017215306272013-03-17T14:52:00.000+10:002015-11-28T20:56:03.658+10:00Learning to Let Love in.<br />
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<span style="color: black; font-family: "times new roman" , "serif"; font-size: 12pt; mso-themecolor: text1;">I have
been struggling with loving myself most of my life.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It is as if there is a deep self-loathing
that I don’t yet fully understand and I am finding it difficult to work my way
through this emotionally.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I received a
clue to this recently when I re-listened to the Divine Truth Talk on Emotions
and the Mother Taboo (</span><a href="http://www.divinetruth.com/"><span style="font-family: "times new roman" , "serif"; font-size: 12pt;"><span style="color: #0563c1;">www.divinetruth.com</span></span></a><span style="color: black; font-family: "times new roman" , "serif"; font-size: 12pt; mso-themecolor: text1;"> - June 26<sup>th</sup> 2010 – also on the Divine Truth
YouTube channel <a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=G8VzVIYHpOE&list=PLF04C988375DCDF23&index=47">http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=G8VzVIYHpOE&list=PLF04C988375DCDF23&index=47</a> ). At around 51mins into the talk AJ shared this statement <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">When you suppress anger what finishes up
happening is called resentment … if you are a woman suppressing anger towards
mother you’re going to end up resenting yourself as a woman as well as
resenting your mother.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It is the same if
you are a man suppressing your anger towards your father.</i> <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="color: black; font-family: "times new roman" , "serif"; font-size: 12pt; mso-themecolor: text1;">I know
I have a lot of repressed anger in my soul.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>My body has been telling me this for years – acne, thrush, tinea – these
are all ‘angry’ conditions in the body characterized by inflammation and I have
had them all.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But it is difficult to
access or work through anger fully when you have a deep fear of anger.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It is not so much the underlying fear that I
am afraid of (although it could be) but more a fear of the anger itself that I
need to access in order to get to the deeper cause of the dis-ease in my
soul.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="color: black; font-family: "times new roman" , "serif"; font-size: 12pt; mso-themecolor: text1;">I hate
anger!<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="color: black; font-family: "times new roman" , "serif"; font-size: 12pt; mso-themecolor: text1;">I hate
receiving it.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="color: black; font-family: "times new roman" , "serif"; font-size: 12pt; mso-themecolor: text1;">I hate
expressing it!<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="color: black; font-family: "times new roman" , "serif"; font-size: 12pt; mso-themecolor: text1;">Anger
terrifies me and I have a lot of judgements about it all of which are born from
my childhood (as are most of the errors in our souls).<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But if I am ever to heal the errors in my
soul, and therefore my body, I need to let go of the judgements that I have
about anger and allow my soul to express all of the anger which has been pent
up for most of my life.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>This is a huge
challenge for me and is blocking me from accessing the deeper grief within my
soul which is preventing my connection with God from growing.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I have been praying about this a lot lately.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="color: black; font-family: "times new roman" , "serif"; font-size: 12pt; mso-themecolor: text1;">Recently
when I was working through some emotions I had a bit of a revelation. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="color: black; font-family: "times new roman" , "serif"; font-size: 12pt; mso-themecolor: text1;">God
loves me. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="color: black; font-family: "times new roman" , "serif"; font-size: 12pt; mso-themecolor: text1;">God
loves me despite my faults and errors.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="color: black; font-family: "times new roman" , "serif"; font-size: 12pt; mso-themecolor: text1;">God
loves ME despite my unloving thoughts, feelings and actions.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="color: black; font-family: "times new roman" , "serif"; font-size: 12pt; mso-themecolor: text1;">God
loves ME despite my imperfection.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="color: black; font-family: "times new roman" , "serif"; font-size: 12pt; mso-themecolor: text1;">God
loves me even though I am fat and often feel stupid and inadequate.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "times new roman" , "serif"; font-size: 12pt; mso-themecolor: text1;">God has always loved me.<o:p></o:p></span></b></div>
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<span style="color: black; font-family: "times new roman" , "serif"; font-size: 12pt; mso-themecolor: text1;">And God
does not make mistakes.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Ever.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>So if God loves me and I have felt this love
and know it is real, and if God does not make mistakes; that means that I must
be loveable. This is God’s Truth.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">I am supremely loveable as I currently am</b>.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I do not need to be slim, fit, young, smart
and beautiful to be loveable.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>God loves
me as I currently am.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I am one of the
greatest of God’s creation, the most wonderful of His handiworks and the object
of Her great love and tenderest care.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="color: black; font-family: "times new roman" , "serif"; font-size: 12pt; mso-themecolor: text1;">God
loves me as I currently am therefore I must be loveable as I currently am.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I don’t need to be anyone other than myself
to be loveable. I have repeated this a lot here because I still don’t get this
emotionally – at a soul level. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I
understand this intellectually but I struggle to ‘get it’ at the soul
level.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="color: black; font-family: "times new roman" , "serif"; font-size: 12pt; mso-themecolor: text1;">I have
spent much of my life modifying myself in order to please others.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Searching for love any way I can.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>What I didn’t understand was that God loves
me exactly as I am.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>God created me as a
perfect human being, a perfect half of a soul and I don’t need to be anything
other than myself.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="color: black; font-family: "times new roman" , "serif"; font-size: 12pt; mso-themecolor: text1;">The
problem is that for most of my childhood being myself didn’t seem to be
acceptable.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I was taught ‘to be a good
girl’; ‘to behave myself’; ‘to not do this or that’.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It seemed that I was never good enough, smart
enough, pretty enough.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I was moulded to ‘fit’
the accepted norm at the time.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And I
didn’t understand this connection that God wants with all of Her children; that
God craves from all of His children. The Catholic Church doesn’t teach about a
personal relationship with God.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It taught
me that I need a priest in order to have a relationship with God.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>That I must obey its laws – most of which are
not in harmony with God’s Laws and are manipulative, controlling and driven by
fear, power and control. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>This is what I
grew up with.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="color: black; font-family: "times new roman" , "serif"; font-size: 12pt; mso-themecolor: text1;">Now I
am learning that I do not need anyone else to have a relationship with God;
that my relationship with God is personal and unique. And it feels right. My
challenge is now to accept the gift of God’s Love and come to believe what God
already knows – that as Her daughter I am supremely loveable.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I am a prefect creation of God’s and She does
not make mistakes – EVER!<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I AM loveable
just as I am in this moment.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="color: black; font-family: "times new roman" , "serif"; font-size: 12pt; mso-themecolor: text1;">While a
tiny flicker of a light is going on in my soul as this truth begins to take
hold the demon I am really struggling with right now is to learn to love
myself, to learn to forgive myself for all of the unloving actions I have taken
in the past (and there have been many).<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Until I can learn to do that – to forgive myself – it will be very
difficult to learn to love myself or others.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>I need to remind myself of this truth every day.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="color: black; font-family: "times new roman" , "serif"; font-size: 12pt; mso-themecolor: text1;">God
loves me exactly as I am in this moment.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>She has never stopped loving me.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="color: black; font-family: "times new roman" , "serif"; font-size: 12pt; mso-themecolor: text1;">I have
felt God’s Love and I know it is real.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>God loves me therefore I am loveable.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="color: black; font-family: "times new roman" , "serif"; font-size: 12pt; mso-themecolor: text1;">This
needs to become my daily mantra.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>My
daily prayer needs to be “Please God, help me to overcome the barriers that
prevent me from accepting Your Truth – that I am loveable exactly as I am.”<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="color: black; font-family: "times new roman" , "serif"; font-size: 12pt; mso-themecolor: text1;">I still
struggle with this but with God’s help and Grace I will eventually allow this
truth to sink deep into my soul and become a knowing, a reality.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>When I can do this I will be able to love
others more freely and without expectation.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>I will be able to give more of myself.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="color: black; font-family: "times new roman" , "serif"; font-size: 12pt; mso-themecolor: text1;">There
is a lot of grief that I need to feel still as to why this is not already a
truth in my soul.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
Lindahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06239949170313951993noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-255620325991409496.post-38501077751749060142013-02-01T16:10:00.002+10:002015-11-28T20:57:17.811+10:00Gifts from GodThis morning I was reflecting upon the message I posted yesterday and I thought I would share with you some of my reflections.<br />
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While reading the message again it struck me that God has given us so many gifts – <span style="color: magenta;">BEAUTY</span> <span style="color: #3366ff;">LOVE</span> <span style="color: #339966;">CLARITY</span> <span style="color: #9900ff;">TREASURES</span> <span style="color: #00ccff;">REST</span> <span style="color: #a50021;">AWARENESS</span> <span style="color: #66ff66;">FREEDOM </span><span style="color: #ffcc00;">FORGIVNESS </span>SAFETY <span style="color: #ff6600;">KINDNESS. </span><span style="color: black;">And there are many others but these seem to be highlighted in this message. <o:p></o:p></span><br />
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<span style="color: black;">While reflecting I wondered – <o:p></o:p></span><br />
<span style="color: black;">Am I willing to accept these gifts unconditionally? <o:p></o:p></span><br />
<span style="color: black;">Am I willing to work to remove the barriers that prevent me from receiving them?<o:p></o:p></span><br />
<span style="color: black;">Am I willing to give these gifts freely in return?<o:p></o:p></span><br />
<span style="color: black;">Do I expect anything in return?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>From others?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>From God? <o:p></o:p></span><br />
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<span style="color: black;">In order to become at-one with God I must learn to be like God – generous, kind, compassionate, open, forgiving, passionate, imaginative, desirous and be willing to love unconditionally – everyone (not just my favourite people).<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It is these God-like qualities that make us beautiful.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><o:p></o:p></span><br />
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<span style="color: black;">I am slowly learning that I must play my part in this process – I must be willing to </span><span style="color: #3333ff;">TRUST</span><span style="color: black;"> </span><span style="color: #00cc00;">DESIRE</span><span style="color: black;"> </span><span style="color: #ff9900;">REFLECT</span><span style="color: black;"> </span><span style="color: teal;">SERVE </span><span style="color: #9933ff;">SURRENDER</span><span style="color: black;"> </span><span style="color: #ff3399;">SOFTEN</span><span style="color: black;"> and live with </span><span style="color: red;">PASSION</span><span style="color: black;"> in order to access the gifts from God. <o:p></o:p></span><br />
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<span style="color: black;">I must work to wash away the mud that has been flung at my soul from my environment from the moment of incarnation onwards in order to see the precious gem that lies hidden within.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><o:p></o:p></span><br />
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<span style="color: black;">With God’s help all things are possible. With God’s help every little flicker of light can become a beacon of love and hope. <o:p></o:p></span><br />
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<span style="color: black;">He is holding my heart in His hands.<o:p></o:p></span><br />
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<span style="color: black;">Do I trust this?<o:p></o:p></span><br />
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