God’s voice calls me

This was written a little while ago but is just as relevant for me today as it was then.  Not one of my best peoms technically but still very powerful for me.  I am as grateful as always for the assistanc I receive when writing. I hope this is of some use to you as well.

God’s voice calls me

God’s voice calls softly to me

Gently encouraging me to feel the truth

To see the walls that I have built

So carefully around my heart

God’s voice calls gently to me

Reminding me that He is there

Reminding me that only I am trapped

Behind the wall around my heart

Tenderly He guides me

Patiently He waits

As I stumble and fumble

To find my way

But I feel afraid and alone

Not wanting to face the truth

That I alone constructed this wall

When I refused to let love in

I alone made the decision

That love was too painful

And to be avoided at all costs

I alone shut love out.

It is not that I am unlovable

Rather that I don’t want to be loved

For in my limited experiences

“Love” means pain

And so to avoid the pain that love brings

I built a wall to keep love out

To keep my heart safe

From the lies and abuse that imperfect love brings

But now behind my wall I hide

Alone and afraid and wondering why

Why does no one love me?

What have I done wrong?

Then God’s voice gently calls me

Supporting me to see the truth

That the child She created

Is beautiful and deserving of love

If only she would tear the wall down

And let in love

For she alone creates her pain

She alone blocks love out.

Open my heart and soul I pray

That my soul may learn to love one day

Open my heart and soul I pray

That Your Love may transform my pain.

Give me courage, give me strength

Teach me to love again.

Linda Munster

13.04.11