God’s voice calls me

This was written a little while ago but is just as relevant for me today as it was then.  Not one of my best peoms technically but still very powerful for me.  I am as grateful as always for the assistanc I receive when writing. I hope this is of some use to you as well.

God’s voice calls me

God’s voice calls softly to me

Gently encouraging me to feel the truth

To see the walls that I have built

So carefully around my heart

God’s voice calls gently to me

Reminding me that He is there

Reminding me that only I am trapped

Behind the wall around my heart

Tenderly He guides me

Patiently He waits

As I stumble and fumble

To find my way

But I feel afraid and alone

Not wanting to face the truth

That I alone constructed this wall

When I refused to let love in

I alone made the decision

That love was too painful

And to be avoided at all costs

I alone shut love out.

It is not that I am unlovable

Rather that I don’t want to be loved

For in my limited experiences

“Love” means pain

And so to avoid the pain that love brings

I built a wall to keep love out

To keep my heart safe

From the lies and abuse that imperfect love brings

But now behind my wall I hide

Alone and afraid and wondering why

Why does no one love me?

What have I done wrong?

Then God’s voice gently calls me

Supporting me to see the truth

That the child She created

Is beautiful and deserving of love

If only she would tear the wall down

And let in love

For she alone creates her pain

She alone blocks love out.

Open my heart and soul I pray

That my soul may learn to love one day

Open my heart and soul I pray

That Your Love may transform my pain.

Give me courage, give me strength

Teach me to love again.

Linda Munster

13.04.11

Lessons from the movie The Road

Yesterday I watched the movie “The Road” in an attempt to feel into some fears around earth changes which we will likely to be soon experiencing. 

This is a movie set in post war America some time in the future where the landscape is totally annihilated.  Everything is gray, bleak, dirty and cold, including the human condition.  I thought that this movie might trigger in me emotions around surviving earth changes but I found I had very little emotional connection with the movie.  Either I have worked through a lot of these emotions from watching “The Book of Eli” or I was in total denial.  I just could not believe that the human condition would sink so low in this time in history or even at some distant time in the future.  There has no doubt been a time in history when humans did sink this low (and perhaps even lower) and as always there remain little rays of hope in even the most desolate and desperate of conditions, but for me, this scenario did not seem real nor plausible at this time. And I would like to believe that as we raise our collective condition of love, with God’s Grace, there will never again be a time in human history when we revert to the bleakness and hopelessness that this picture portrays.  I suspect that it did however portray a fairly good depiction of life in the hells of the spirit world, a place that we all no doubt want to avoid.

After the movie I allowed myself to just sit with my feelings and watch what would surface.  Fear. Disbelief. Grief. 

I asked myself - how is it that the human condition could sink this low?  What is my part in this?

Eventually I had the realization that every time I choose to live in my fear and anger I contribute to the overall degradation of the human condition, but when I choose to face my fears and feel my grief love can now flow into my soul and the power of love is infinitely greater than the power of fear.  Jesus (as AJ) has taught us many times that Fear blocks Love.  Fear and Love can not exist in the same space.

My task then is to feel my fears, with God, release my anger, shame and grief and allow Love and Truth to govern every aspect of my life. This task is easier, quicker and much more effective if I allow God to guide me in this process.  This is called self-responsibility and God-reliance. 

I recognize that no mater how an error entered my soul, I alone am responsible for how that error affects my life. I alone can feel and release these errors, but when I relax into the process and Trust God, the process is much more rewarding.

I know this.

I have experienced this on numerous occasions.

So why then do I find it so difficult still to relax into trusting God totally in every situation?  What is the error, the block that I need to work through and overcome in order for me to trust God completely in every aspect of my life?

And why am I still choosing not to go there?

How can I change this?

For now prayer and faith are all that I have.  Faith that with God’s Guidance and Grace I will one day find the courage to remove these blocks, the obstacles that prevent love from flowing freely into and out of my soul.

Father, I kneel before You, your daughter, your servant, how may I help?  Give me the courage and the willingness, I pray, to face my fears and to step more fully into love, truth and trust.  Help me to be all that I was created to be so that I might better serve You through service to my brothers and sisters and all of Your creation.

Teach me to Love.

Linda

20.01.12

A Prayer to God my Father

Recently I have been concentrating on developing my relationship with God and prayig for an increased longing for Truth and Love.  This version of the prayer for Divine Love came to me during one such longing to God.  I recommend that you write your own prayer based on the prayer for Divine Love as given to James Padgett in the early 1900s.

with love

Linda

A Prayer to God my Father

Loving Father help me to always feel Your Love

and to know that I am truly Your child.

Forgive me my errors and help me to find the courage

and the willingness to feel the truth.

Give me the courage to let go of my errors

so that Your Truth and Love might fill my soul.

And with Your Love will come a faith

that allows me to know and understand that I am truly Your child

and that Your Love is waiting for me to transform my soul

and lift it higher and higher towards Your great Being.

Teach me to trust in Your Laws and to let go of my fears

so that I might surrender to Your Truth and Your Love.

Protect me from the unloving influences of darker spirits

and soften my soul with ever increasing compassion and love.

Help me to always remember that Your Love is waiting for me

and for all of Your children

and that I only have to ask with earnestness and sincerity

and Your help and guidance will be with me always.

Father I thank You for loving me

and for always being there to help, support and guide me.

Open my heart and soul in gratitude and trust in Your Love

so that I may better learn how to serve You in love and truth.

You alone are my true Father and I give myself to You

in deep gratitude and will all the love I am capable of giving now and always.

Amen.

11.12.11