Authenticity

It is interesting isn't how the same messages are often relevant time and time again.  Take this message on Authenticity from my guide Peter - I received this in November 2014, almost a year ago and yet its potency still resonates with my soul.

I am still struggling to grasp what that truly means but I feel that I am getting stronger and braver in stepping into my own authenticity regardless of the perceived cost.  I am slowly finding the courage to use my voice and stand firm for truth and love.  It is not easy.

Recently I have been having a conversation with my family that has been difficult for us all, but I am learning to remain true to my authentic self and not modify myself in order to please.

Oh how I wish I could just go back to pleasing everyone - but I can't - the price is too high.  It is time to start loving my authentic self.

Challenging the status quo is difficult, challenging, confronting and triggering. But I am ever so grateful for these reminders from my guides and others who have walked this path before me that true happiness comes through Authenticity. It has been my willingness to sacrifice my authentic self that has resulted in dis-ease within my body.  Now it is time to reclaim my authenticity and learn to love me in the process.

I hope you find this message helpful.

Blessings

Linda

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4^th November 2014

Authenticity

True freedom comes through authenticity. If you cannot be your authentic self at all times then you are not free.  You are tied to the constraints of wanting/needing to please others in order to gain their approval and love. And in that space you are not being true to yourself, and your soul cries.  Your soul, your true self, craves authenticity and will do anything in its power to bring you back to authenticity.

When you sacrifice your authenticity you create a fertile ground for dis-ease and pain, and suffering WILL result.  There is no escaping this. It is a universal Law. God wants us to be our authentic selves.  There is power and beauty in authenticity but it is a subtle kind of power, a gentle beauty that the world does not yet understand.  In fact, the world is afraid of authenticity and the power and beauty that goes with it; because to embrace authenticity is to embrace difference and the world has been fighting for conformity and predictability for millenia.

The world is afraid of difference because difference means uncertainty.  Difference means that there is potential for chaos and chaos incites fear. But we are afraid of chaos only because we have not yet learnt to embrace authenticity.  Being your authentic self requires courage and commitment but brings freedom and joy.  The world does not yet understand this and so it clings to conformity and predictability out of fear.

There is a small but growing number of people on the planet who are awakening to the importance and potentiality of authenticity.  Being your authentic self requires commitment and the courage to swim against the current in the stream of life.  Once you begin to experience the freedom of authenticity you stop struggling and embrace the potentiality of a life much greater than you had previously experienced or even imagined, because true freedom comes through authenticity. And being authentic means recognizing every aspect of yourself no matter how ugly, dark or painful that might be.  Being authentic means being able to freely express yourself regardless of what you are feeling in any given moment.

Authenticity requires us to face the truth of our existence and to own up to the faults and flaws in our souls.  In a world that values conformity and predictability, authenticity is challenging because authenticity means having the courage to question everything and to feel the Truth for yourself.  Authenticity does not seek approval or guidance.  Authenticity seeks Truth, Love, Joy and Humility.

True freedom can only be achieved through authenticity.

Peter

Experiments, Judgement and Life

I am always grateful and often amazed at how generous our heavenly Parent is with Her assistance and guidance.  I do not consider myself to be a medium - I am a novice learning about communication of the soul and sometimes, when I am open and humble enough, I receive very poignant messages from my guides or other spirits who have a desire to assist us to grow in love.
Steven is one such spirit.  I had not met him previous to this message but I am extremely grateful for his insights.  As always it was extremely timely.

I share it here with you in the hope that it may be of some assistance to you also.

Please be mindful that I am not perfect and there will likely be inaccuracies in this message. Take from it that with resonates with your soul and leave the rest.

I would really appreciate any feedback from those of you whose mediumship gift is much more advanced than mine.

Enjoy.

31^st July 2015

Experiments, Judgement and Life

All of life is an experiment and not all experiments go to plan or achieve the expected or desired results.  This does not mean failure.  It simply means that we need to try something else.  Add or subtract something to / from the mix.  Change the order.  It does not really matter. 

What matters is that you keep trying.  Keep experimenting.  What one person sees as failure another may see as a triumph.  It is all a matter of perspective. 

To judge the results is to say that you are superior. There is no need to judge and no benefit in judgement.  The experiment simply IS. It is never right nor wrong; good nor bad. It is just what it is – an experiment with a particular result.  If the result is not to your liking change the parameters or the components of the experiment.  It is that simple.  There is no need to complicate things. 

Now I know that judgement is a large part of your experience, shall we say.  When in the past you have 'failed' at something, you have been judged, sometimes harshly, for that.  But have you really failed?  By whose standards have you 'failed'? Certainly not God's.

 In God's world there is no 'failure'.  There are simply a series of experiments with certain results. It is only we who perceive these results to be bad or good and we do this through the errors in our souls.  When you have cleared all the errors and live a life in harmony with Love and Truth you will see this clearly.  There will be no judgement. You will then be free, truly free, to continue to explore and experiment, changing paths or direction at times perhaps.  But you will do this without judgement and with a sense of awe and wonder. 

It is possible for you to reach this place whilst still on earth.  Continue to step more and more into God-reliance.  Let go of control and let God, the Master and Commander who sees and knows all, direct your life. 

Have faith that our Father loves you and wants only the best for you.  Trust that He will lead you on the right path. 

Look at judgement for what it is – a fear-based reaction born from a lack of understanding. 

The more you know about yourself and about God's Love and Truth, the less you will need to judge.  The more you grow in Love and Truth the greater compassion you will have for 'failed' experiments in life – of yourself and of others.  And the more you will come to know this truth as a certainty. 

Let go of judgement (of yourself especially), it is a very harmful emotion.  Embrace all of life's opportunities with an open heart and an open mind.

Experiment.

Remember, there are NO failures, only results.

Thank you for the opportunity to talk with you today.  I am Steven and I lived on earth in the 16^th Century.  I am now living in our Father's kingdom and I have a great desire to assist my brothers and sisters to find their way to God.  I was a scientist and a philosopher when on earth.

Arrogance, Truth and New Beginnings

 It has been some time since I last wrote – over a year in fact.  At the assistance group with Jesus, Mary and Cornelius last August I was confronted with some very uncomfortable truths which sent my world into a spin. It has taken me much of this time to return from the stratosphere of emotional turmoil and feel centered enough to start writing again. In this time I have been searching for the little pieces of my shattered soul in an attempt to begin the arduous task of piecing the puzzle back together again.  I am not sure if I am yet capable of tackling this task or even if I really want to at a soul level.  This is a massive revelation for me and it is really quite shocking.

At the end of July last year I attended a ten day retreat in the beautiful Monkeri Valley in the foothills of the Barrington Tops in New South Wales with Jesus, Mary and Cornelius.  They termed it the ‘Assistance Groups’  and the aim was to bring together  people who are interested in learning about God’s Truth and growing in Divine Love.  It was an immense privilege, I feel, to be invited to attend this workshop.

It can be very cold in this region at this time of year and we were blessed with beautiful winter’s weather – cold and fresh but not unbearably freezing as it had been a few weeks prior. I was extremely grateful that I was able to secure a single room as this gave me the space I needed to feel into the emotions that surfaced during the time there.

Over the course of the retreat Jesus, Mary and Cornelius expanded and deepened teachings that had already been presented on Truth, Love, God, the soul and more. And they offered their feedback (in a group setting) to a few who were brave enough to expose their errors publicly in a bid to grow in Love.

I recognize now, and this was a hugely shocking revelation for me, how arrogant I have become since awakening to God’s Truth and Love.  It is a trap that many fall into on this path, this Way to God.  But it really took a comment from Jesus, which hit me smack bang in the face, to wake me up. His comment (that I am assuming that John is my soulmate) totally took the wind out of my sails. 

What did this mean?

If you have read my earlier post on soulmates you will begin to see the depths of my dilemma.  This comment put me into such a spin that five months on I don’t think I have yet found my bearings.  Even now, some fourteen months on I am still struggling to find my way through the maze of confusion that has arisen as a result of this revelation.  Am I doing anything right? Has everything I have been doing been a lie? Has anything been real? How would I possibly know what is the truth and what is mischievous deception?

I cannot answer that yet – even now, over fourteen months later I still am not sure that I can answer that. I am still sifting through the debris of the fallout and trying to feel my way through this maze of lies, deception, truth, love, and hope.

Everything I think I know has been called into question.  Everything I thought I felt now has a dark cloud hanging over it. Everything.

I still feel strongly that John is my soulmate but I know that we are not in a soulmate relationship – not yet anyway.  This is something that we both must want wholeheartedly. It is something that can only happen when we both place God firmly at the center of our worlds.  And this is something that we both struggle with. While I feel that I have a strong desire for a relationship with God I have been forced to acknowledge, in a most shocking way, that I hold John up as my God.  And while ever I do this I am severely limiting my own progress towards having a real relationship with God.  It is impossible to have both. God must come first for any real progress to be made.

I am still reeling from this revelation.

I do not know what it means for me.  Am I strong enough, brave enough to desire a personal relationship with God above all else? I do not yet know. But I do know that I want to be.

There have been times when I have been very ragefull and resentful about the situation I now find myself in and many tears have been spilt as a result. But, what do I trust? What is the real truth? At this point I can’t answer that.  I have tried walking away from God and this Path to Love but that is too painful and the pull towards Love is too strong – I can’t do it.  At times I feel trapped and I get angry about that also.  But I have HUGE judgements about anger and I find it difficult to process through that.  The cushions and soft furnishings in the downstairs room are coping a great deal of bashing lately and the dust doesn’t settle for long! Old magazines are being torn to shreds in a bid to connect to and release some of the anger within my soul. But there is still so much yet to feel and at times I despair of ever breaking through the barriers that I have erected between me and God. 

I am learning just how unloving and destructive to the soul arrogance can be and how hard it is to let it go. I am also learning that the pull towards a relationship with God is stronger than any other kind of love that I have experienced and I am terrified of what that might mean for every other relationship.

I think I want 2016 to be the year for challenging addictions of every description – physical, emotional, food, relationships etc. Perhaps 2016 will be there year that I find the courage and the willingness to break down the barriers that prevent me from developing a relationship with God for real? Maybe this will be the year that I finally stop deceiving myself and learn to develop true humility? Because, in the end it doesn’t really matter right now if John is my soulmate, it only matters that love is the central premise of this and any other relationship.

And so I make this promise to myself – every day is a new beginning. Every day presents new opportunities to learn to love. I will strive to learn to let go of false teachings and unloving actions and thoughts – both about myself and others.  Every day I will reflect upon my thoughts and actions ask for forgiveness and guidance. Every day I will hold onto the hope that I truly am worthy of love and every day I will hold onto the faith I have that God is a loving, kind, forgiving and generous Being who wants all of His children (including me) to learn to grown in love and become at-one with Him.

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In a bid to help me break through some of these barriers to a real relationship with God, I was fortunate enough to work with a wonderful therapist in Ipswich.  The incredible lengthy sessions we have had together have focused mostly on assisting me to break through false beliefs and begin to see the truth about myself.  I have struggled with excess weight for many years and it doesn’t seem to matter what I try – nothing works – I can’t seem to shift the excess weight. I learnt from Linda that the emotions connected with the Thyroid is RAGE. If I can get past the blocks that I have about feeling and releasing the anger and rage that is buried deep within my soul (much of it generational) I can then begin to heal my body – but only then.   Working with Linda provided the permission I needed to feel the rage within my soul – but it is still a struggle and resistance is still high.

It is always reassuring to me to have the same message repeated by several different sources, this is when I know I need to pay attention. So when Linda began talking about many of the truths that I had been learning through Jesus and Mary I knew I was in the right place. It has been a huge gift to be able to work through some deeply buried issues in such a loving and accepting space and I feel blessed.

The other gift I have received in this time is the opportunity to work with a dear friend, Lainee, who has a gift for assisting others to access their deeper blocks. In the coming days and weeks I will share with you some of the revelations I have had following some profound emotional releases. From here on in I will endeavour to write regularly regardless of where I am at.  I hope and pray that I have scaled the barriers to growing humility but I wonder if in saying that I am displaying arrogance?  I do not know; but I do know that I have a strong desire to grow in Love and foster a relationship with God – my aim is to get to the place where my relationship with God becomes the most important relationship in my life – for all eternity. 

I hope that by sharing my journey with you, you might find little bits that will assist you in your own journey wherever that takes you.