Stepping more fully into Passion and Desire

Have you ever noticed how much easier life is when you engage your soul and your passions fully? It has taken me a very long time to recognize this truth.  Too long.

Lately I have been allowing myself to step more fully into my passion for writing and I have been amazed how easily it is coming along and how much guidance I am receiving.  And I am extremely grateful.

For the past 15 – 20 years the idea for a book (several really) has been percolating in the recesses of my mind.  Locked there out of fear and doubt. I had been allowing the old unloving beliefs, instilled in me through the school system that I attended, to control my thinking and my desires.  For far too long I daren’t believe that I, who had a very poor scholastic record in English, could dare to dream about writing a book. What would I have to say? Who would bother reading it?

About seven years ago I came across a teacher who would help me to change these old unloving patterns and slowly begin to engage my soul.  His name is AJ Miller and he claims to be Jesus of the first century. Whilst I have a strong inkling that this is in fact the truth, I have yet to fully feel this in my soul. As a teenager I always had a strong sense that Jesus would return, that he would be known after the year 2000 and that I would meet him.  Call it fantasy, call it delusion, call it what you will, but this feeling was very strong and very persistent throughout my life.  So when I had the opportunity to watch the Secrets of the Universe DVD presentation in 2009 I embraced it. It was very confronting but something inside of my soul sang and I have become an avid follower of his teachings ever since. It has been my feeble attempts at putting into practice the teachings, which are freely available on the DivineTruth Website or the Divine Truth You Tube Channel, that have unlocked the blocks that I have to dismissing these false teachings of the educators of my youth. Doors that I never imagined opening for me are slowly beginning to open.  My soul is slowly being set free of the constraints of the errors of my childhood and it is beginning to sing. And I am loving it.

As I sit at the computer and write or research, time disappears.  Hours, days, weeks fly past in a whirl, and at times I find myself getting a little irritated if I have to leave my post to engage in everyday tasks – but not for long.

This process of writing is bringing up heaps of emotions for me and as I engage more fully with my passions more and more errors are being exposed and hopefully felt and released – at least in part.  And in their place God’s Divine Love floods in and fills the spaces left as the errors leave. This whole process is helping me to learn more about who I am – the real me, the me that God created, not the me that I learnt to become in order to gain approval or love of others through addictive and fear driven behaviour.

There are still many fears to be faced, many challenges to overcome, and many tears to be felt and released.  But the process has begun and I am gradually learning to embrace it. More and more I pray for humility and for the grace of God’s guidance, and I am still surprised when I receive it. But the layers of unworthiness are slowly being peeled away and I am grateful.

As I embark on this journey of self-discovery through engaging my passion for writing I am beginning to step out from behind my many masks. One of the masks I am now attempting to remove is my desire to remain hidden and anonymous.  So I am taking the steps to align this blog post with my other on-line presences – my business website and my business Facebook page.  This is not a decision that has been taken lightly but I feel that everything fits neatly under the banner of Linda Munster - Celebrating Beyond Beginnings.

This blog is really about my journey beyond the beginning of the search for my real self – my soul. So, welcome to the NEW blog for Linda Munster – Celebrating Beyond Beginnings as I Journey Towards Love. 

As I step more fully into the integration of all parts of my soul I will begin to share more of my professional journey as well as my deeply personal journey and I invite you to join me as I continue celebrating beyond this beginning.

Thanks for being a part of my journey.

Arrogance, Truth and New Beginnings

 It has been some time since I last wrote – over a year in fact.  At the assistance group with Jesus, Mary and Cornelius last August I was confronted with some very uncomfortable truths which sent my world into a spin. It has taken me much of this time to return from the stratosphere of emotional turmoil and feel centered enough to start writing again. In this time I have been searching for the little pieces of my shattered soul in an attempt to begin the arduous task of piecing the puzzle back together again.  I am not sure if I am yet capable of tackling this task or even if I really want to at a soul level.  This is a massive revelation for me and it is really quite shocking.

At the end of July last year I attended a ten day retreat in the beautiful Monkeri Valley in the foothills of the Barrington Tops in New South Wales with Jesus, Mary and Cornelius.  They termed it the ‘Assistance Groups’  and the aim was to bring together  people who are interested in learning about God’s Truth and growing in Divine Love.  It was an immense privilege, I feel, to be invited to attend this workshop.

It can be very cold in this region at this time of year and we were blessed with beautiful winter’s weather – cold and fresh but not unbearably freezing as it had been a few weeks prior. I was extremely grateful that I was able to secure a single room as this gave me the space I needed to feel into the emotions that surfaced during the time there.

Over the course of the retreat Jesus, Mary and Cornelius expanded and deepened teachings that had already been presented on Truth, Love, God, the soul and more. And they offered their feedback (in a group setting) to a few who were brave enough to expose their errors publicly in a bid to grow in Love.

I recognize now, and this was a hugely shocking revelation for me, how arrogant I have become since awakening to God’s Truth and Love.  It is a trap that many fall into on this path, this Way to God.  But it really took a comment from Jesus, which hit me smack bang in the face, to wake me up. His comment (that I am assuming that John is my soulmate) totally took the wind out of my sails. 

What did this mean?

If you have read my earlier post on soulmates you will begin to see the depths of my dilemma.  This comment put me into such a spin that five months on I don’t think I have yet found my bearings.  Even now, some fourteen months on I am still struggling to find my way through the maze of confusion that has arisen as a result of this revelation.  Am I doing anything right? Has everything I have been doing been a lie? Has anything been real? How would I possibly know what is the truth and what is mischievous deception?

I cannot answer that yet – even now, over fourteen months later I still am not sure that I can answer that. I am still sifting through the debris of the fallout and trying to feel my way through this maze of lies, deception, truth, love, and hope.

Everything I think I know has been called into question.  Everything I thought I felt now has a dark cloud hanging over it. Everything.

I still feel strongly that John is my soulmate but I know that we are not in a soulmate relationship – not yet anyway.  This is something that we both must want wholeheartedly. It is something that can only happen when we both place God firmly at the center of our worlds.  And this is something that we both struggle with. While I feel that I have a strong desire for a relationship with God I have been forced to acknowledge, in a most shocking way, that I hold John up as my God.  And while ever I do this I am severely limiting my own progress towards having a real relationship with God.  It is impossible to have both. God must come first for any real progress to be made.

I am still reeling from this revelation.

I do not know what it means for me.  Am I strong enough, brave enough to desire a personal relationship with God above all else? I do not yet know. But I do know that I want to be.

There have been times when I have been very ragefull and resentful about the situation I now find myself in and many tears have been spilt as a result. But, what do I trust? What is the real truth? At this point I can’t answer that.  I have tried walking away from God and this Path to Love but that is too painful and the pull towards Love is too strong – I can’t do it.  At times I feel trapped and I get angry about that also.  But I have HUGE judgements about anger and I find it difficult to process through that.  The cushions and soft furnishings in the downstairs room are coping a great deal of bashing lately and the dust doesn’t settle for long! Old magazines are being torn to shreds in a bid to connect to and release some of the anger within my soul. But there is still so much yet to feel and at times I despair of ever breaking through the barriers that I have erected between me and God. 

I am learning just how unloving and destructive to the soul arrogance can be and how hard it is to let it go. I am also learning that the pull towards a relationship with God is stronger than any other kind of love that I have experienced and I am terrified of what that might mean for every other relationship.

I think I want 2016 to be the year for challenging addictions of every description – physical, emotional, food, relationships etc. Perhaps 2016 will be there year that I find the courage and the willingness to break down the barriers that prevent me from developing a relationship with God for real? Maybe this will be the year that I finally stop deceiving myself and learn to develop true humility? Because, in the end it doesn’t really matter right now if John is my soulmate, it only matters that love is the central premise of this and any other relationship.

And so I make this promise to myself – every day is a new beginning. Every day presents new opportunities to learn to love. I will strive to learn to let go of false teachings and unloving actions and thoughts – both about myself and others.  Every day I will reflect upon my thoughts and actions ask for forgiveness and guidance. Every day I will hold onto the hope that I truly am worthy of love and every day I will hold onto the faith I have that God is a loving, kind, forgiving and generous Being who wants all of His children (including me) to learn to grown in love and become at-one with Him.

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In a bid to help me break through some of these barriers to a real relationship with God, I was fortunate enough to work with a wonderful therapist in Ipswich.  The incredible lengthy sessions we have had together have focused mostly on assisting me to break through false beliefs and begin to see the truth about myself.  I have struggled with excess weight for many years and it doesn’t seem to matter what I try – nothing works – I can’t seem to shift the excess weight. I learnt from Linda that the emotions connected with the Thyroid is RAGE. If I can get past the blocks that I have about feeling and releasing the anger and rage that is buried deep within my soul (much of it generational) I can then begin to heal my body – but only then.   Working with Linda provided the permission I needed to feel the rage within my soul – but it is still a struggle and resistance is still high.

It is always reassuring to me to have the same message repeated by several different sources, this is when I know I need to pay attention. So when Linda began talking about many of the truths that I had been learning through Jesus and Mary I knew I was in the right place. It has been a huge gift to be able to work through some deeply buried issues in such a loving and accepting space and I feel blessed.

The other gift I have received in this time is the opportunity to work with a dear friend, Lainee, who has a gift for assisting others to access their deeper blocks. In the coming days and weeks I will share with you some of the revelations I have had following some profound emotional releases. From here on in I will endeavour to write regularly regardless of where I am at.  I hope and pray that I have scaled the barriers to growing humility but I wonder if in saying that I am displaying arrogance?  I do not know; but I do know that I have a strong desire to grow in Love and foster a relationship with God – my aim is to get to the place where my relationship with God becomes the most important relationship in my life – for all eternity. 

I hope that by sharing my journey with you, you might find little bits that will assist you in your own journey wherever that takes you.

Emotional Processing and Finding your Soulmate.

A friend recently asked me to send her the four key indicators that I use when processing emotions to check if I are in truth and processing my own stuff.  These are the points that my guides have given me and I have found them to be extremely helpful and 100% accurate 100% of the time. I thought they might also be helpful to you in your own emotional work and progress towards God.

1.  Deep diaphragmatic breathing.  I have found when I do this, if it is my emotion the deep breathing will take me deeper into the emotion.  If it doesn't then I am either crying about the effects or I am being used by spirits.  Either way I stop processing and pray to God about the blocks to fully feeling the emotion.  If I am being truly humble I am able to connect again to the real emotion, if not I just stop the processing and do something else.  But I continue to pray about the blocks until I am able to really get into the emotion at a later time.
2. Flow.  by this I mean that the emotion flows freely.  I don’t have to think about it and there is a lot of tears and a lot of snot – I use a lot of tissues/hankies etc.  The grief is heart wrenching and deep.
3. Truth. If I am truly in a causal emotion I will always receive new realizations about my life and will often receive insights into what the causal emotion is. If I am being truly humble and open to God’s truth and love this is ALWAYS the case.  If it isn't then I am most likely crying about effects and I pray about the blocks to truth.
4. The fourth indicator is Love – Divine Love. If I am getting to a causal emotion it is because the above three indicators are in play and I will always receive Love in this process.  Sometimes it is only a small amount – most times it will be very overwhelming.  I have found that this is usually determined by the level of resistance that I have to knowing the truth. If it is only a small amount I continually pray to overcome the resistance that I have to feeling the whole truth and ask God to teach me to be truly humble.  I always pray to God to help me to stay with the emotion until it is complete.

The first three indicators need to be in play before the fourth one can be felt and I have found that sincere, heartfelt prayer is always helpful.

My friend also asked my assistance with working her way through the emotions which block our knowledge of who our soulmate is. 

About twelve months ago (maybe a little more) I went through this process.  It took over twelve months of sincere longing and prayer. And it took a LOT of courage. But the sense of relief when I finally came to see God's truth was overwhelming.  Knowing this truth now does not necessarily make my relationship with my soulmate any easier.  In fact, sometimes it makes it harder because he does not yet want to know this truth for himself (even though we live together). And he does not yet want to engage in a true soulmate relationship (there are still many addictions at play in our relationship which I am slowly attempting to address). 

This is what I have found to be true while working through my soulmate emotions. 

You will not be able to access God’s truth while ever you try to work out who your soulmate is in your head.  It must be a soul-based feeling. 

Forget about the things that you see that you and the person you think might be your soulmate have in common, especially the intellectual stuff.  The key is to feel what your true soul desires are.  There will be something that you and your soulmate have in common that will link you together. 

It will be a deep core desire, the reason why God created your complete soul. It will be what makes your soul unique.

Keep in mind that one or both of you may not yet have activated this part of your soul so it will not be at all helpful to reason it out – you must FEEL this truth.  For me, this process brought up a LOT of fear about stepping into my true soul’s desires and it has, and continues to bring up a lot of unworthiness whenever I am brave enough to activate even a small portion of this desire.  I am learning that unworthiness is what prevents the activation of the core soul desires and this must be worked through before you can step into these desires.

When you are feeling into who your soulmate might be it will be extremely helpful if you could focus on a few key indicators for each person you think could potentially be your soulmate.

1. Who is the person really – what does the real them feel like? (don’t focus on intellectual stuff – try to feel the soul of the person – the real them).  I found it extremely helpful to pray to God about this often until I got the answer.
2. Does this person feel like me? In other words, how does this person fit with me? Do they compliment me?

Try to let go of any preconceived ideas you might have about who your soulmate is and ask God to help you feel the truth.  If you do this with a sincere heart all the way through the process you will get the answer.  But you have to be prepared for it to be totally unexpected and be willing to go through the process in faith and without judgement.

Be prepared to receive a LOT of spirit interference throughout this process.

There are groups of spirits in the spirit world who do not want us to find our soulmates. This is possibly because they don't believe in soulmates or they believe that they do not have a soulmate so are jealous of the soulmate relationship.  When I was working through this process I found that the closer I became to being sure of who my soulmate is, the more interference I received.  Because I was (and still am) carrying a LOT of unworthiness about being loved by my soulmate it was easy for malevolent spirits to influence me.  This made the process much harder and it required a lot of faith, perseverance and trust in God and in myself.  

At these times, when I felt under a lot of spirit attack, I would often stop and talk to the spirits with me about soulmates and how God had designed each and every soul to have a soulmate who was the perfect other half of them.  And I would encourage them to seek their soulmate and reassure them that they too were deserving of this kind of love. I would always ask for celestial assistance, both for myself and for the spirits with me. I found that this helped both me and the spirits with me.

Throughout this process I had to learn to trust my own feelings.  

I had to learn to feel myself.

Eventually, with God's assistance, I got to the point where knowing the truth about my soulmate became the most important thing to me.  I felt that if I truly loved my husband (who I believed was my soulmate) I owed it to him to know the truth.  The absolute truth. 

I found this process confusing, challenging, confronting, frightening and at times terrifying. 

I had to become determined, humble, trusting, loving.

I had to let go of doubt and unworthiness.

I had to have FAITH.

As difficult as this process was, it has been the most rewarding part of my journey towards God and Love so far.

I wish you well on your journey towards God, Love and your soulmate.

You can learn more about soulmates here

Resistance to Humility

I seriously can't believe that it has been four months since I last wrote!  Apparently I am still in huge resistance to humility.  So today I thought I would write about resistance to humility from a personal perspective.

Why do I resist humility?  Well the simple answer is FEAR! This might seem extreme but when being truly humble means that you are willing to fully feel all of your emotions as they arise, no matter where you are or who you are with, you can see how easy it could be to allow fear to dominate and shut down your true soul's desires! 

For me personally my greatest fear is fear of judgement, ridicule, condemnation and banishment.  What will people think if something they say or do brings to the surface something that makes me angry?  How will they respond if I excuse myself mid conversation and start screaming or bashing something or throw a tantrum like I was two years old?  Seriously, how would you feel if someone did that to you?

What if this emotion comes up when I am in a shopping centre?  Will they think I am mad and call the police?

Now, my experience has been that unless you are aware of the teachings of Divine Truth  www.divinetruth.com you will likely be confronted by such behaviour and have some judgement of it.  And unless you are willing to feel that, you will be projecting your denied emotions back onto the person who is allowing the expression of their emotion. And unless they are very grounded in Truth there is a high likelihood that that person will stop feeling what they need to feel in order to feel safe.

It is rare for me to allow the expression of anger as it arises when in public, mostly because I am afraid of judgement, ridicule, criticism and condemnation.  But what this really means is that I do not yet fully trust that God has my back.  That God will protect me and that God's Love and approval is all that I really need.  And that I already have that. This is a childhood fear resulting from the lack of approval from my parents when I was a child and their constant demands and projections that I be or do as they want me to in order to help them avoid their own emotions, their own fears. 

This was not always the case - there were times when I did gain their approval but that was mostly when I was being or doing whatever made them happy. In short, I was not allowed to be my real self most of the time and quickly learnt to modify my behaviour and personality to suit them.  And this has caused much grief within me - I feel that I am not good enough.  I have spent most of my life afraid to be my real self.  And so it makes sense that now that I want to challenge these errors within my soul that fear will arise whenever I attempt to be my real self - to feel what I am really feeling.  It brings back childhood memories and fears that I must now work through if I ever want to be free of these errors and learn to be my authentic self - the me that God created.

I am getting better at allowing the expression of fear, shame or grief to surface when I am with others but far too often I do not remove myself in order to allow the full expression of the emotion without harming another person.  I allow myself to touch upon and acknowledge the emotion but too often I prevent its full expression. But I rarely allow the expression of anger when I am in public or even when I am within earshot of others.

Why is this?

Well, if I am to be honest I would say that I still feel responsible for the emotions of others around me.  What if, by feeling my emotions, someone else felt bad about themselves?  This is an irrational fear I know - I am not responsible for anyone else's emotions unless they are my children.  I might trigger something in someone else that makes them feel bad, sad, angry, ashamed, fearful - but I did not create that emotion in them - I am not responsible for their emotions. 

Why then do I so often feel responsible?  The real truth of this is that I was made to feel responsible for the emotions of the adults in my world when I was a small child - especially for my parents emotions.  I had a job to do as a child (as most children do) and that was to make my parents feel better about themselves.  I did this to my own children and am now finding that following the maze of emotions back to their original cause is difficult and often confronting - especially when I am with others.  I am also experiencing great remorse as I feel how damaging this was to my child-self and how damaging it has been to my own children.

Allowing myself to be truly humble is especially confronting when I am with people who do not want to feel their own emotions - who still want me to make them feel better about themselves and help them to avoid their own pain.  But this is not my job - it never has been my job as far as God is concerned.  From God's perspective we are each responsible for every emotion within us regardless of how the error got there.

At this point it may be useful for me to explain a little about emotions and how they enter us.  From the moment of conception the pristine soul, which is extremely sensitive, begins to absorb the emotions of its environment.  This is the system that God designed for us to be able to come to know ourselves, through our emotions.  This means that we begin to absorb everything - from our parents denied emotions, to their expressed emotions (good and bad), as well as the emotions of every person they/we come in contact with, and the prevailing societal emotions in the area we are brought up in.  When a person denies their emotions they automatically project that emotion back into its environment.  This is why I can be personally responsible for or have a part in the creation of negative world events.  I am a part of this world therefore I contribute to the overall health or dis-ease of the world through my emotions - both good and bad.  Now many people will feel that this is a little far fetched but if you allow yourself to really feel into this you will soon see the logic of this system.  Science has already proven this (the butterfly effect) http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Butterfly_effect

So emotions enter us from the moment of conception and continue to do so throughout our formative years.  Most emotional errors enter us by the time we are seven or eight years of age and often effect our personalities.  From about seven or eight we begin to make decisions for ourselves and by the time we are teenagers we are capable of making decisions independent of our parents.  In fact we are capable of this at a much younger age but far too often we are not given the opportunity to do so.  It is the decisions that we make based upon the emotions within us that create further damage to our souls or help us to grow in love.  Regardless of how an emotion entered me I am the only person who can release it.  I must be personally responsible for myself.  There is no magic wand. 

Emotion is in effect energy in motion.  It is a feeling and negative emotions can only be released from our souls through allowing ourselves to feel them.

This is where humility comes in.  And this is where fear so often prevents us from being truly humble.  And the definition of humility that I am using is the ability to feel all of our emotions as they arise, to be our true authentic selves - not our façade self (the self we present to the world in order to feel loved and accepted).

So, getting back to resistance to humility - I have already mentioned that fear plays a large part in resistance to humility and for me it is the most important reason why I resist true humility.  And fear, like any other emotion, is energy in motion and the only way I can overcome fear at the soul level is to feel it.  This means that I will need to learn to allow myself to shake and to breathe deeply and diaphragmatically whenever I confront fear. I want to learn to do this more openly and honestly. 

I want to challenge my fears as this is the only way that I will ever learn to be truly humble.  So if you ever seem me shaking in public please, just allow me to feel my fear.  I do not always know what it will be about but when I allow myself to get past the fear to the grief I will always learn the truth - the emotion tells me the truth as long as I do not try to control it or second-guess it (and this is another challenge with humility - allowing - trusting).  And if I suddenly excuse myself and walk away and you hear me yelling or bashing - please - be grateful that I am not projecting my anger onto you and that I am allowing myself to be  my authentic self.  And if you need to, allow yourself to feel whatever you need to feel also without blame.  This is self-responsibility.  This is love in action.  This is Humility.

Soulmates

After talking to Dave the other day my soul was open to soulmate love and when reflecting and praying the following day I was able to tap into this enormous soul love that I feel for my beautiful soulmate. 

So many people are struggling to identify their soulmates and yet, for some reason, I have had the privilege of living with my soulmate for the past 32 years.  Now don't get me wrong, just because I have lived with my soulmate for this length of time doesn't mean our relationship has been all peaches and cream.  Far from it!  It has been a roller coaster ride to match the scariest ride in the world!!!  We have shared some amazing highs and some soul-destroying lows over that time.  But the thing that has kept us together through all of this is our willingness to look honestly at what is going on in the relationship and want to fix it. 

There have been several times in the past 32 years that I have wanted to leave, the pain I was feeling was too overwhelming, but this incredible soul pull has allowed me to have the courage to ask "what is wrong and how can we fix this?" 

What I have noticed is that each time we drift apart there is a huge ache in my heart and it has generally brought up lots of fear and anger in me.  BUT, when I have the courage to confront the fear and we take the time to talk openly and honestly about what is going on for each of us, we find ourselves in a much better place – the next high.  And I can honestly say that the highs are worth ten times the lows.  Our relationship is always better when we are in truth for it is truth that allows us to really love each other unconditionally.

Since opening my soul more fully to God's Love and Truth I have noticed a strengthening of our soulmate bond and a softening towards each other.  There is a growing desire, in me anyway, to want to know my soulmate more fully.  To want to understand him.  To want to share more openly and fully with him. To want to love him unconditionally.  And to want to work through the blocks in me that prevent our relationship from growing.

Some people have asked me "how do you KNOW that he is your soulmate?'  Well, this is not easy.  At some level I feel I have always known that he is my soulmate but it is only since discovering Divine Truth that I have understood fully what that means.  When we met I was not in a very good place.  I was distant and withdrawn from everyone around me for a week or so.  I was unsure where I was in my previous relationship – had we broken up? I didn't know what was going on and I was hurting.  I prayed a lot about this in the weeks previous to meeting my soulmate.  I wanted to know the truth. So when I found myself on a camping trip for six weeks with him and when my friend Helen said "you know, John really likes you" I began to feel about that.  First there was denial.  Then lots of questioning (internally).  Then I began to really look at who this man was – the essence of him – and I looked beyond what he looked like (not particularly handsome), and what he did for a living (then he was a truckie and I was a snob!). I looked closely at WHO he was and what was in his heart.  And I fell in love with him (in a matter of weeks I KNEW he was the one for me).  I had learnt to listen to me heart.

Since discovering DivineTruth I have begun to really open my soul to my soulmate and I have encountered LOTS of resistance along the way.  So much so that I have had spirits drop into my head that someone else was my soulmate.  Because of my own self-doubt and unworthiness I began to question if that was right.  This other man was born in Trinidad, as I was.  I had known him for most of my life, we had lots in common.  But I didn't feel anything special towards him.  Still the doubt lingered for almost a year and I felt myself withdrawing from my soulmate in my confusion.  As time went on my confusion and doubt grew.  I realized that in this state I was being very unloving to my soulmate.  I had to know the truth. This turmoil was now a raging tornado inside of me!  What would it mean if this other man was my soulmate?  Our relationship probably wouldn't survive this. It would hurt so many people! What would it mean for me? I can't tell you how great this anxiety was in me – lots and lots of fear! But I realized that if I truly loved this man that I was living with, as I believed I did, then I owed it to him (and to myself) to KNOW the truth even at the risk of loosing everything that I had.  Eventually knowing the Truth became more important than holding onto my fear and with God's Grace I found the courage to delve deep into the emotions that had been stirring in me. I went through the full cycle of emotions – anger, shame, fear, doubt, rage, terror and buckets of grief until at last God showed me the truth.  As I purged doubt from my soul and opened to God's Truth the image of this other man began to fade and the image of John grew clearer, brighter, bigger and closer.  More buckets of grief followed as I sunk into God's loving embrace and rested in the relief of knowing the Truth. 

And things changed in our relationship – it got better (confirmation from God). 

It is still a bit of a roller coaster ride but the lows are not so dramatic now and it is easier to be in truth with each other. I guess this will continue until we are both able to work through the errors that we have that stop us loving each other perfectly.

What I noticed after the conversation with Dave was a huge desire to know and love my soulmate more.  And I found myself reflecting the next day on how I know that he is my soulmate. Here is what I came up with.

My soulmate.

·       I feel that he is the most beautiful man in the world – ever!

·       He touches my soul when he looks at me.

·       He is totally accepting of me – warts and all.

·       He wants to understand me.

·       He allows me to be me even when that hurts him.

·       He feels me.

·       He supports me emotionally.

·       He feels like me – like the part of me that is missing.

·       He wants me to be happy even if that means that we need to spend some time apart.

·       He trusts me implicitly.

·       He makes my heart sing when I am near him or when I think about him.

·       Only God is more important to me than him and he is a very close second.

·       When I put my relationship with God before my relationship with my soulmate it enhances my relationship with him.

·       He loves me unconditionally.

·       He is my soulmate.

·       He is me.

I hope that this sharing has helped you in some way. I pray that you will have the courage to trust God and KNOW who your soulmate is because loving your soulmate is the second most important and beautiful relationship you will ever have.  The first is your personal relationship with God, your Creator and most loving Parent.

PS: Part Three on Humility is coming soon.

The Prayer for Divine Love

A while back I posted a prayer that I wrote to God which was based upon the Prayer for Divine Love or the original Our Father.  Some time later it occurred to me that some of you may not have read the original prayer so I have posted it here for you.  The bits in italics are the bits that I add for my own personal version of the prayer.  It helps me to continue to strive to really FEEL the truth  in the prayer and mostly acknowledges that most of the time I do not yet fully feel the truth in my soul.  When I add in my own personal touches it helps me to stay in the feelings contained within the prayer and has a greater likelihood of reaching the Father on a soul to Soul basis.  Feel free to personalize the prayer for your own use and direct it to either our Father or Mother God as your soul needs.

I hope it helps you also have a deeper connection with God in Prayer.

love
Linda


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Our Father, who is in heaven, I recognize that You are all Holy and Loving and Merciful, help me to truly know (and) that I am Your child, and not the subservient, sinful and depraved creature that my false teachers would have me believe.  Help me to know That I am the greatest of Your creation, and the most wonderful of all Your handiworks, and the object of Your great Soul's love and Tenderest care.

Loving Father, I (recognize that) help me to understand that Your will is that I become at one with You, and partake of Your great love which You have bestowed upon me through Your mercy and desire that I (name) become, in truth, Your child; through love, and not through the sacrifice and death of any one of Your creatures.

O loving Father I pray that You will open up my heart and my soul to the inflowing of Your Divine Love and Truth, and that then may come Your Holy Spirit to bring into my soul this, Your Divine Love in great abundance, until my soul shall be transformed into the very essence of Yourself; and I pray that there may come to me faith--such faith as will cause me to realize that I are truly Your child and one with You in very substance, and not in image only.

Merciful God, let me have such faith as will cause me to know that You are my Father, and the bestower of every good and perfect gift, and that only I, myself, can prevent Your love changing me from the mortal to the immortal. Please Father, help me to understand why it is that I would want to prevent Your Love!

Let me never cease to realize that Your Love is waiting for me and for each and all of us, and that when I come to You in faith and earnest aspiration, Your love will never be with-held from me.

Please Father, Keep me in the shadow of Your Love every hour and moment of my life, and help me to overcome all temptations of the flesh, and the influence of the powers of the evil ones, which so constantly surround me and endeavor to turn my thoughts away from You to the pleasures and allurements of this world.

Loving Father, I thank You for Your Love and the privilege of receiving it, (and I believe) help me to know that You are my Father--the loving Father who smiles upon me in my weakness, and is always ready to help me and take me to Your arms of love. 

I pray this with all the earnestness and sincere longings of my soul, and trusting in Your Love, I give You all the glory and honour and love that my finite soul can give.      

Amen                                                                                                                                                                      

http://www.thepadgettmessages.net/v1/prayer3.htm