Forgiveness

As I continue to work my way through the errors in my soul I find that I continually stumble at understanding forgiveness - especially forgiveness of myself for all the hurt I have caused through acting out in my fears and errors.  I am eternally grateful for the patience and love of my Celestial guides who wait patiently for me to be ready to hear what they want to teach me.  Recently one of my guides, Peter shared this with me on forgiveness.  I hope it is of benefit to you also.

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True forgiveness is allowing God’s Love to wash over you and replace the hurt that you hold inside about the event that caused you pain.

True forgiveness is unconditional love and compassion.

True forgiveness holds no memory of pain.

True forgiveness is love.

True forgiveness can only be achieved when we allow ourselves to feel the full extent of our pain and let it go.

True forgiveness replaces every negative thought or feeling that we have about that event with truth and love.

True forgiveness brings a deep and lasting peace that can never be shattered.

With true forgiveness only love remains.

You need to be willing to accept forgiveness as well as to forgive.  God has already forgiven you – now it is up to you to forgive yourself. There is nothing that God cannot forgive.  He has already forgiven.  Let go of self-punishment and trust this.

Question: how do I let go of self-punishment?

Write this down repeatedly:

God loves me.  God has already forgiven me. I am loved. I am forgiven. Now I forgive myself. Now I can learn to love myself.

God loves me.  God has already forgiven me. I am loved. I am forgiven. Now I forgive myself. Now I can learn to love myself.

God loves me.  God has already forgiven me. I am loved. I am forgiven. Now I forgive myself. Now I can learn to love myself.

God loves me.  God has already forgiven me. I am loved. I am forgiven. Now I forgive myself. Now I can learn to love myself. I AM LOVED. I AM FORGIVEN.

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I am very grateful to Peter for his guidance and am continuing to work through this – but my resistance has been strong and progress has been slow.  I am eternally grateful for God’s patience and guidance and for the assistance of my guides. I pray that this post will be of assistance to you also.

With much love

Linda

God's Love is Waiting

This past week has been difficult for me as I settle back into 'normal' life after a beautiful week away. I have been finding it difficult to connect to the deeper, more painful emotions, but on Monday I was able to allow myself to feel deeply into my pain and grief. It was a difficult processing to go through but for over three and a half hours I worked my way through fear, anger, shame, grief as the emotions seemed to cycle through many different paths. I find it challenging and often confusing - always confronting and I am very grateful for the Paryer for Divine Love that Jesus gave to James Padgett (see the Divine Truth web site ) and which I constantly repeat (in part or whole) as I work my way through the errors in my soul. One part of the prayer that I am particularly grateful for is the following - a part that I often reflect upon, especially when I am feeling very overwhelmed, this reflection was written on the fifteenth Feb 2011 but has also been very relevant this past week. I hope it helps.

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“Let us never cease to realize that Your Love is waiting for each and all of us and that when we come to You in Faith and earnest aspiration Your Love will never be withheld from us….”

When I am stuck in my pain and confusion I often forget that God’s love is waiting for me and that all I have to do is to ask! This I feel is a self-punishment action and I am working on letting this go and on opening up my soul fully to God’s Love and Grace in my life.

I find that I am often questioning God about how earnest I need to be in order for this error to be lifted from my soul? Usually I am reminded that the extent of the grief that I am feeling is relative to the pain that I have experienced and that I have held onto as a result of this emotion and that in order to ‘let it go’ I need to experience it fully. Sometimes this means crying for several hours or days over weeks or even months.

I often find myself questioning my faith – asking myself “am I good enough?” This too is a self-punishing emotion and once this awareness surfaces I can usually surrender then to God’s Love as I pray for forgiveness of my doubt and for the courage to feel the grief of my unworthiness fully.

Linda Munster
15.02.11

One of the hardest emotions I am finding to work through is shame and I am noticing that as I work my way through some very painful emotions shame is surfacing more and more. this poem came to me as I worked my way through some shame based emotions.

Shame

Anger coursing through my veins
Controlling my every thought and deed
Sometimes bubbling into rage
More often disguised as being peeved
It is a relief to express this part of me
To express my anger and set my soul free

Shame washing over me
Heat rising within the very core of my being
Nowhere to hide
It is all consuming
Shame
Heat,
Melting

Shame permeating the very core of my being
Shaping who I become
God’s Laws showing me
The emotions I need to overcome
Shame buried deep within me
Blocking my road to freedom

Repentance creeping into my soul
Acknowledging my anger, my shame
Praying that God will forgive
The deepest, darkest parts of my pain
Praying for forgives
Feeling unworthy of God’s Divine Love

Forgiveness washing over me
Letting me know that I am loved
Forgiveness washing over me
The Father’s Blessings from above
Feeling small and broken
Until the Father’s Love lets me know
That I am wanted. I am Loved.


Linda Munster
16.03.11

Like a Jigsaw

I have just returned from a weekend in Murgon amongst my brothers and sisters on the Divine Love Path and am now feeling quite numb. The weekend brought up a lot of emotions for me especially around how unworthy I feel. I managed to do some processing while away but there is still a huge resistance in me to really feeling the emotions that are coming up. I am aware of a couple of spirits who are actively trying to shut me down and quite honestly at the moment I'm feeling too tired and drained to fight. So I thought it would be appropriate to post here a realization I had about emotional processing in October 2010. I hope it is of benefit to you also.

Love
Linda



Like a Jigsaw
I am beginning to realize that working my way through these emotions of error within me is like trying to piece together a giant jigsaw. But this is no ordinary jigsaw where you can see on the cover what the overall picture looks like – what the different colours are. No! This jigsaw is like a giant sheet of pure white. The original condition of our souls is a pristine white, pure and luminous, and the goal is to get it back to that condition. Now, after decades of life on the planet and years of absorbing the erroneous emotions, firstly from my parents and then from the greater environment I find myself trying to unravel the pieces of my soul so I can put it back together again.

This task is daunting and without God’s help I can’t imagine how it would be able to be accomplished. God alone knows how the pieces fit together and as I talk to God about these emotions of error that arise within me and pray for His guidance, I am taken on a journey that is so totally unique that it would be difficult for anyone else to comprehend.

Sometimes large pieces are revealed to me and sometimes small ones. Sometimes only parts of a piece are revealed and I find myself getting frustrated – where is the rest of this piece? I know it is incomplete but I am at a loss as to how to identify the rest of it. So I have to learn to be patient and to trust God for God alone knows the best way to unravel the jumble of pieces that make up my soul.

Now, nothing is more important than my connection to God. He is my constant companion. My mentor. My guide. My friend. Without God’s help I would be floundering around in a huge sea of despair fighting to stay afloat and the task of piecing together this seemingly impossible puzzle would likely take centuries.

I can’t wait that long. You see, I have always been impatient and I have always had grand dreams, I just never really knew how to achieve them. Now I know. The answer is to involve God. It always has been. It is so simple it escapes many of us – some all their lives on earth and then for many, many hundreds of years in the spirit world as well.

So, as I involve God in this process, this huge task of unravelling my soul, I am taken on a journey of awakening to who I really am. Sometimes it is really scary, this journey. Sometimes I feel so alone and lost, but if I remember to involve God in the process He always answers my call. And if I am able to hang on long enough another piece of the puzzle is revealed to me and I find myself basking in the glow of God’s love - if only for a short time.

But I am finding though that the more of these pieces that are revealed to me the easier it is becoming for me to dig out what the next piece might be. I don’t always get it right and I am learning to trust my Law of Attraction as my helper in this task.

I know that everything in the universe is connected and that my physical body is connected to my spirit body and it is all overcloaked by my soul. I know that whatever is going on in my physical body is just a reflection of what is going on in my soul and my spirit body. I know that this connection helps to give me a clue as to where to look for the next piece of the puzzle. The thing I am having the most difficulty with though is connecting to the emotions that are locked in the physical pain in my body. At times this seems impossible. Like there is this huge resistance to going into the physical pain for fear that if I do it will unlock more pain. I pray to God about this, but sometimes it feels like God is not listening – like He is saying ‘you have to work this one out for yourself’, and at these times I feel abandoned and lost. It doesn’t seem fair! But I know this is an error within me, because I also know that God is a God of love, compassion, mercy, forgiveness, patience and kindness and gentleness, and that God would not abandon me. So I am coming to realize that in those times that I feel like God has abandoned me that this is another error surfacing within me which is taking control of the situation. I need to learn to get past those errors and to go deeper into the emotion and to trust God more fully. When I do that magic always happens.

It is an interesting journey trying to unravel the pieces of the puzzle that is my soul. It is also at times daunting and frustrating and rewarding all at once.

Learning who I really am is an incredible sensation. Learning to forgive myself for my erroneous emotions and learning to have compassion towards myself is humbling. I am beginning to feel that I am finally learning to love unconditionally. I don’t always get that right, but I know I am getting better at it and this is the reward for doing this work - for there is no greater gift than being able to truly love unconditionally, as God loves us.

I feel very blessed.

Linda Munster
18.03.10